Smiling and doing everything on my list of to do and then threw in a few laughs--forced maybe--found some real smiles from children laughing and playing , like kids will do.
I am soooooo grateful for children.
I am grateful for all that was and all that is to be.
And I am grateful for you, my SP who share their lives and hopes with me---
I have been going out with friends a lot to eat---Like yesterday we ate at a place at the river--nice people--I ordered a salmon salad---good choice, no dressing I like it that way--then I avoided the chips and salsa---THEN I ended up eating SIX tortillas!!! Yes, they were small -but dang!!!!!!!!!!! at least 600 more calories than needed---then a friend insisted on treating us all to desert.
I know that I was having such a comfortable time that I let my guard down. I guess with practice I will be able to combine fun and not forget the eating well aspect of life.
I also went to a birthday party last night--it was fun---then I had a small piece of cake--but about midnight I had another LARGE piece of serious chocolate cake! No alcohol, no extra anything else
but dang that great big piece of cake was the one that I did NOT need.
ANOTHER DAY ANOTHER LESSON LEARNED-----I am grateful that I have SP and my friends here to help me think it out--Next time and each time after that it will get better and I will be wiser in my ways----
I had a hard time just resting today= I said to myself I will spend this day just doing what felt right--I feel like I wasted a day.
I am looking forward to Monday--I can get some work done--that is the only thing that feels familiar=I don't really relax unless it is finishing a project. Whats that?---fun is playing--talk about needing to laugh
I avoid folks a lot now days--feeling too much pain inside to feel the smiles on the outside,
I exercise well--I am working on not eating for feelings of pleasure---
walking was something I was doing to excess--was hurting a lot---now I can do a bit and I don't seem to care about anything---I go through the motions hoping that the old
"Fake it 'till Ya Make it" works.
Sometimes Just holing on t is the correct thing to do==Mon is another day and I know it will be righter/brighter~