Tuesday, September 01, 2009
I''m suppose to write about an emotion that causes me to overeat. This is pretty much the past, but loneliness was the main reason I overate. During the 60s and 70s, most women worked outside the house. My DH didn't want me to work, so I stayed home alone for a few years. I didn't have hobbies or outside interests. The only things that interested me were reading and cooking, which lead to eating. I filled the hours of the day with eating and then eventually with drinking. I was never an alcoholic but I kept the buzz going so I didn't feel anything. A doctor once asked me why I was overweight. I told him I would either eat or drink. He said he'd rather I was a drunk than fat. I changed doctor right away! Anyway, once I had kids and then grandkids I wasn't lonely any more, but the damage and habits were formed. I just ate to be eating. I've learned a lot and am much too busy to be bored and lonely now, but bad, old habits are tough to change. When I'm bored, I try to do other things. Maybe I can learn to walk if I get bored.