Saturday, July 04, 2009
a while back, i took the spark poll that reads "is your username positive, negative, or neutral?" mine "k40r1^^," was neutral; yet, i thought it would be inspirational to come up with something that illustrates my journey and where i want to go from here fitness and lifestyle-wise.
a few days ago i stumbled upon a yoga journal video of my dvd teacher, duncan wong, explaining the mudras he uses in the practice. he got into talking about a peaceful warrior "genki warrior." genki is a japanese term that typically means "fine;" (eg. "genki desu ka?" "genki desu yo!") but dw means it here as gen=source & ki=power.
i merely thought it was cute at first (genki is a very cute word to me; i dunno why), but it has resonated with me. ...along the way i've been peeling walls (onion layers heh) to uncover a woman who stands firmly; my aim is to get more firmly rooted--more source-driven.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
...not really. i wasn't wearing anything inappropriate. i was wearing tights and a leopard print blouse--something i'd have never dreamed of even wearing as pajamas before. ...and let me tell you something...
--i look good in those tights. i love the confidence i have now. i still have subconscious crap invade my thoughts, but that's ok (i need something to keep me humble lol). i can wear cute clothes and go to the pool with my imperfect body, now; because i'm not so concerned about what others think of it anymore. i love my body--it's strong, healthy, and my vehicle for life (i'm so glad to be finding the guts to live through my body, finally)!
i'm so grateful to be finding the guts to embrace my life.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
i like things organized. my house is a mess, but i know where everything is--because everything has its place (even in a dump). so--of course--upon having still not found any sort of solid outline of what is "beginner," "intermediate," and "advanced" in the physical aspect of yoga, i began forming in my mind an outline of my own. i decided to share it, now that it's finished (unless i continue editing, which wouldn't surprise me at all), because i was pleasantly surprised to see that my goal is to slough off my egotistical, competitive nature.
a side note: it's always bugged me when people tell me yoga isn't competitive in nature. i feel chastised--like i'm committing blasphemy by wanting a challenge. i don't think yoga itself has a nature (it's no entity), but the people who practice it do. ...it brings to my mind "christianity is not judgmental in nature." ...yet people--no matter whether they call their self yogi, christian, or whatever--cannot help but judge. what we practice (eg. yoga) isn't an ideal we aspire to per se, but a tool--a practice--through which we peel off the unnecessary layers of ourselves and cultivate into ourselves the qualities in which we are deficient. i suppose the issue i must deal with is finding out which needs to remove the unnecessary layer: those who would deem it a requirement that we all conform and aspire to an ideal; or i who thinks we perhaps should find our own ideal, and perchance be pleasantly surprised that our ideals are similar.
i might have room to grow afterall in that i don't like being told what i should do by anyone with no more knowledge than myself.
--side note end--
ok the personal, arbitrary, random, pulled out my piriformis levels:
newbie= no prior knowledge of anything "yoga." trying out a class/ checking out a book/ asking friends or others to see what it is about, and whether they might be interested.
beginner= knows some easy-basic poses (eg. forward bend, triangle, downward-facing dog, etc.) and sun salutation. knows yoga is more than "asanas," but may or may not practice other branches consciously.
seasoned beginner= practices several basic poses (eg. crow, wheel, shoulderstand, etc.) as well as proper alignment and breathing.
budding intermediate= continues proper alignment and breathing. adds more difficult poses (pigeon, half-moon, bound triangles, etc.) to practice.
flowered intermediate= continues proper alignment and breathing. perspective, diet, and practice has evolved in some way (may or may not have taken place before this stage). practices many basic-quite difficult poses (splits, dancer, scorpion, etc.) 4+ hours/week.
wilting intermediate= not only practices asanas, but studies yoga or some other practice for cultivating balance in living (may or may not have begun studies before this stage). sloughing off of unnecessary egoisms (some of this probably has already taken place; yet, there is always room to grow).
advanced= cultivating homeostatic self.
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
i've known from the time i moved in that my apartment complex had a pool. i've never used it--until today~! i took my anatomy/physiology lab book, got into my new brown/white zebra stripe tankini and marched right on out there at ten a.m. i studied arteries & veins, eyes, and ears for half an hour. after that, i was warm enough to check out the temperature of the water...
feet first, it felt great! the further down into the water i went, the colder it got, of course; so i paced myself and kicked the water around til i could dunk myself in completely.
ahhhhhhhh~! i swam~! i'm not a very good swimmer, but i can basically get the job done. i went back and forth doing a froggy breaststroke, floated on my back, and kicked water around from the steps. today was the first time i've swam in years. swimming--rather than merely hunkering down in the water self-consciously attempting to cover my flabigularis major. today is a great day.
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