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One More Time

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Im up two pant sizes and 25 pounds this year. This isn't the right direction for me. It's been a crazy year, with a divorce and two surgeries... I am not beating myself up. Life happens, but I can take back my control. I can pull it back together. I am going to enter the new year at least 10 pounds less than I am right now. I know how to do this. I know I am worth it. I can. I will! I am recommitting myself right now! Now!!!

  
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LILMISSRED79 11/20/2013 3:59PM

    You've been through so much, but you're still going- you continue to inspire me! You can absolutely do this.

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 11/18/2013 8:37AM

    Hey? At least it's not five years and 125# from now? ya know? So GOOD FOR YOU.. catching yourself now... changing your course.. You SO got this!

Annie

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PRINCESS_SOFI 11/17/2013 7:04PM

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FITFRIT 11/17/2013 6:59PM

    Welcome back and GOOD LUCK!

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MT-MOONCHASER 11/17/2013 6:45PM

    I was real excited to see a notification that you had a new blog posted. It's good to see that you are getting back on track.

You know all the right moves and you kept to it during some very difficult times in your life. You can do it again!!

That said, I have been doing about the same thing that you did. I wasn't close to goal, but I was liking most of what I was seeing in the mirror. I figured that since I was doing so well and had kicked up my exercise some, that I could relax a little. Maybe I could have relaxed a LITTLE, but I carried it to excess. I am now working at getting back to where I was. Seems like there is a lot of that going around.

I hope to see you blogging a bit more frequently. I have enjoyed following your journey and getting inspiration from it.

Have a good week!

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WIFE48 11/17/2013 6:39PM

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Stupid Infection

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

I had a thigh and butt lift. Loose skin after massive weight loss sort of sucks. I have been so off track since then. It was only walking the first three weeks. I got the okay to start running again a few weeks ago, but at the same time I had a few stitches redone that ripped at work. Then I got a surgical site infection. I took the antibiotics, but the redness never fully cleared up. My energy has been low since then. I did some yoga, and a few short runs... but I just couldn't get in the groove. My eating has not been stellar either. This last weekend, infection relapse with 101 temperature, headache, swelling,..... Maybe that is why my energy has been low? So after getting fluid drained out of my hip, I was given more antibiotics...14 days instead of 7.... hopefully this does the trick. I need to get back in shape. I've gained a few pounds. I am not feeling so good about my body right now. Things are soft. I want that start of a six pack line back on my stomach. I like when things feel solid... I want to go running and have three miles feeling effortless. I am clean eating the rest of the week, and as soon as I feel good, I will be out running again.

  
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BUTTERFLYROSE1 5/15/2013 3:51AM

    You will get right back on track, hopefully you have many friends and family to help take care of you. It's good to know you are well enough to be back on Spark and I get to enjoy reading your blog once again! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MT-MOONCHASER 5/14/2013 10:26PM

    It sounds like you've been through quite an ordeal. I hope that you are better soon. In the meantime, eat well, rest as much as you can, take your meds and be easy on your body.

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 5/14/2013 6:58PM

    Oh for heaven sakes.. YESSSSSS the infection is why you feel so bad.. AND antibiotics, although great for infections, have some physical side effects.. so concentrate on getting really really good nutrition to help the healing.. take ALL of the antibiotics.. drink lots of water.. lots.. a hydrated body fights infection better.. and finally VISUALIZE.. yes, visualize.. visualize your body fighting off the infection in whatever manner speaks to you.. your white blood cells as flyswatters killing the infection or flys.. or like your playing a video game with white blood cells and the infection swarming.. while you direct the white blood cells with your wand to push the infection off the screen.. whatever... just be creative.. do it first thing in the morning.. and at night.. and everytime you go to the bathroom (cuz it's quiet and it's just you in the stall).. the power of the mind is an AWESOME thing!

I'll be praying for you.. sending healing thoughts all the way from Oklahoma.. powerful infection killing healing thoughts.. POW!
Annie

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MJ7DM33 5/14/2013 3:23PM

  Take care!

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CBLENS 5/14/2013 2:31PM

    heal your wounds before you start pushing yourself. Hope you recover soon.

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MOONGODDESS8 5/14/2013 2:07PM

  Being a nurse I have to say I would just eat clean and take it easy til the infection clears up. There are too many scary bugs out there like MRSA, life is more important than anything!!!

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Dancing Legs

Monday, March 25, 2013

Friday, I went dancing. I had fun dancing. I am not a great dancer, but I enjoy moving around to a good beat. I went out with my coworker, who is a very sweet young woman. We started at a pub. We met a nice young guy who was new to town. We left the bar, in our heels, in search of dancing with our new friend. We asked some strangers that we met up the street about where the dance clubs were, and they told us to follow them. They led us to a bar playing hip hop music (I am more of an indie rock type of girl, but I am learning that I can move to anything) and I was the token white girl for the night, but I had a great time dancing. It was a fun crowd with great energy. We left that bar, and we spent the remainder of the night dancing to salsa. I was still the only white girl, but that is not important, except my friends pointed out that I had white girl moves emoticon . I passed up a few offers for dancing partners... but still danced with a few, and I had a great time. The bars all close at two, and even though I had been up since 4, I wanted to dance longer. I was sad to be kicked out. So my dancing legs walked us back to the pub, where we waited for our ride home.

Legs are the topic of the day for me. I lost around 185 pounds, and this Friday, I am having the loose skin on my legs removed (thigh and butt lift). I am excited, and a bit nervous. I love the strength and flexibility of my legs, but the skin is not so pretty. Since I had my upper body fixed, my legs stand out as looking out of place. My surgeon, Kyle, sort of showed me how they should look when it's done. "You have nice muscular legs, Jeannie" is what he told me as he pulled up the skin. I want to see those muscles that I worked so hard for. So I am excited to fix the aesthetics of my dancing legs. My "saddle bag" is more a skin issue than a fat issue, as my doctor has pointed out. I can't wait to have smooth legs!

After dancing all night, these legs got up and ran/walked around 18 miles on Saturday. Then they hiked 8 miles up a mountain on Sunday. They are good legs, my dancing legs. Soon hopefully, they will look as good as they feel.

  
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WOLFKITTY 4/10/2013 10:16PM

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BUTTERFLYROSE1 3/28/2013 12:03PM

    I'm thinking of the David Bowie song"Let's Dance"
/Put on your red shoes, and dance the blues/
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SKINNYINMYHEAD 3/26/2013 8:19AM

    I love your leeeeeeegs!!! I am so excited for your surgery.. how long will the recovery be?? when I get all this done I am SO doing that.. especially my legs.. and my arms.. oh yes, my arms..

Oh Jeannie... those legs of yours are FABULOUS!!... and in the words of ZZ Top
She's got legs, she knows how to use them.
She never begs, she knows how to choose them.
She's got a dime all of the time,
Stays out at night movin' through time.

I'll be thinking about you Friday!


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Mixed Feelings

Monday, March 11, 2013

Usually I am feel incredibly proud to have lost around 185 pounds. I mean it took a lot of work. Thousands of fitness minutes were spent burning calories and shaping muscles. There were walks, runs, hikes, bike rides, yoga classes, spin classes, aerobic videos, weight training, hula hooping, and other various activities that were built into my life... and so much sweat and hard work went into losing weight. My diet was changed completely. Food that was killing me was swapped out for food that nourishes me and keeps me feeling good. It took some determination to make those changes at first. It took a fair amount of work to put myself back on track every time I swayed from the path. I changed the way I eat, and my whole relationship with food has been shaped into a more healthier relationship. I have looked for ways to burn calories like parking far from where I am going, taking my bike, jumping around with kids at work, and things like volunteering to be the one to walk all the way to the office to make copies. I worked hard and I should be proud... but sometimes I am not.

I am getting divorced, my choice because it's been bad a long time... and I've been going out more. Guys often show interest. I am sure if I sat in a room full of people, most people would have no clue that I was ever overweight. In fact, I think I look fairly healthy currently with some nice curves, a fairly flat stomach, and some muscle definition. So many people looked at me with an expression of disbelief, that I started to carry around pictures, so I can say "here this was me." Sometimes, when I talk to guys, I tell them about my big accomplishment, and often they seem impressed by it. One friend, told me that he loves that I made these changes and he finds me more attractive because of it. He knows I don't take things for granted, and that I have a new lease on life. He realizes I am full of energy, and that I worked hard. He knows that I am a determined person. This makes me more attractive. This feels good to hear. Yet, sometimes I feel shame that I was ever that big in the first place. Sometimes, when I am talking to someone, I will keep the information to myself as if it's some dark secret. As if, they will not like me because I was so heavy, or they will know that I wasn't in control of my life at one time, and that it will make me look less attractive or flawed. I need to get over that. I shouldn't feel ashamed of my journey because it does make up a lot of who I am. If someone doesn't like me because of it, then maybe they just don't like me for the right reasons. I was the fat girl, but that never defined me. I've always been so much more. My eating was a bit out of control at one time, but I am very much in control things now... and I am stronger because of it. I need to drop the shame because it has no place in life. Yes, I don't have to tell everyone everything, but I should be very proud of what I accomplished.



I am sure the woman on the left would be more preferable to date, than the one on the right, by most men's standards. They're both me. It's not just an outwardly change. The woman on the left is more energetic and more adventurous. She likes to dance, bike ride, hike...and smiles more than the the one on the right. But, if you found out that girl on the left, had the determination to shape herself into the person that she is today from the woman on the right... how does it change how she is viewed? This is where my mixed feelings are coming from. I am proud, but I know that there are judgements and biases in our society about weight, even after weight loss. I know the right people will see it as a positive thing, a strength in character, but others will see it as a weakness. So, sometimes I choose to keep it to myself, but I need to remind myself that I worked darn hard and I should be proud.

  
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MERRY_XMAS 3/12/2013 2:52AM

    I never let weight determine who I am. But I'm very proud of my accomplishment to lose all the extra kgs, so it usually slips out of my mouth during a conversation. I don't make it a big deal because I think most men don't like girls who talk about nutrition and stuff like this all the time.

You look amazing! Well done!!!

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MT-MOONCHASER 3/11/2013 10:55AM

    Great blog!!

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 3/11/2013 8:29AM

    You are so beautiful.... I can understand your mixed feelings... and as always you are insightful with your introspection.. to me, losing 185lbs through self discipline and determination is up there with completing an Ironman!! Un-freaking-believable! We'd never think twice about someone bragging about an Ironman accomplishment.. we'd think it was odd if we'd met someone and in the midst of getting to know them they didn't tell us of that huge accomplishment.. the accomplishment being from going from out of shape to Ironman shape.. it's no different for you.. losing the weight was your Ironman journey.. and if someone shunned someone who'd done the Ironman because of how out of shape they were in the beginning, we would think that was odd.. well, me? I think it's odd if someone doesn't see the monumental accomplishment that you've made - so tell em to SUCK IT. (grin)

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TINAJANE76 3/11/2013 7:46AM

    You should feel very proud of everything you've accomplished. You've done something that is very tough and that many people want to do, but are often unable to accomplish. I also think that you're right about the bias against people who are heavy and I think it also carries over to a bias against people who used to be heavy. Putting images of yourself out there as someone who used to be overweight is a very brave thing to do, but it can, unfortunately, also lead to some criticism of the "how could you have let yourself get that way" variety.

Continue to be proud of how far you've come and don't worry about the thoughts of people who have no idea just how hard and complicated weight management is. Celebrate your success and surround yourself with people who are loving and supportive.

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WHOAXMIDGET 3/11/2013 1:10AM

    You are absolutely inspiring. That is such a huge accomplishment!!! What an awesome thing to be able to tell others and help others with in life. I hate to hear about your divorce and going through a hard time though. Just know you are beautiful, strong, and will make it through in one piece and the people who truly love and care about you will be right by your side. Keep your chin up and feel free to msg anytime if you need to talk. Sending best wishes and happy thoughts your way.

Love,
Sara

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LWLAR7 3/11/2013 1:09AM

  Your doing great

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Losing 544 pounds and gaining friends

Tuesday, February 26, 2013



I have been on sparkpeople for a while now... I've lost 183 pounds and gained a better life. What I've gained means so much more to me, than what I've lost. I've gained strength, energy, endurance, confidence, a healthy lifestyle, muscle, years to my life expectancy, freedom, and friends. I love my spark friends because they are usually uplifting, positive, and like minded individuals that inspire me to live a healthy lifestyle. I recently got together with 3 other sparkers and together we make up a 544 weight loss.... I have to say, it is nice to be with others that understand how life changing losing this kind of weight can be. I am thankful for the support of these people and many others here on Sparkpeople...

  
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MERRY_XMAS 3/9/2013 5:34AM

    You look amazing, ladies!
Well done!

Have a great weekend!

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CELIAMINER 2/27/2013 8:08AM

    Lovely, fit ladies!

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SKINNYINMYHEAD 2/27/2013 8:06AM

    Fabulous!! Y'all are beautiful and i love the joy!

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LARRIA 2/26/2013 10:32PM

    Wow you are all amazing and such a great motivation to us all!

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