Thursday, January 05, 2012
2012 is going to be a year of huge life changes for me and my family. I'm 11 weeks away from being done with my BA, I will hopefully be re-joining the workforce, my MIL is moving here from California in 8 months, and the most exciting for me-I might actually get to have babies of my very own.
A week ago I quit smoking. I didn't just quit smoking, I went cold turkey. No nicotine gum, lozenges, patches, pills, wellbutrin, chantix, none of it. I ran out of cigarettes, didn't buy anymore, and hid in my room with fresh juice, green tea, cabbage soup and water for a couple days. This is the longest I've been without some form of nicotine in probably 12 years. I feel like hell. I'm tired. My body hates me. I want to eat bags of dark chocolate chips and double bacon cheeseburgers. I'm not eating those things, but I want to, badly. I was exercising the first few days of this journey, but now that the insomnia and night terrors have resumed, I feel even worse, and I just want to sleep.
Quitting smoking was step one in preparing for the changes that are coming this year. Step two is losing 50 pounds, or as much as possible. I do not want to start a pregnancy off by being 50 pounds over weight. Not even a little bit. But I'm so exhausted and craptastic feeling from not smoking that I just want to eat, and lay in bed watching My Fair Wedding and What Not to Wear. I need to get off my booty and move! It sucks not having an exercise buddy. It sucks being the only one in the house exercising, even if I'm not the only one who needs to.
I started school today and I'm hoping by this time next week I can have a realistic routine. Waking up at 5 to exercise is not feasible, not just because I don't like waking up that early, but because the 3 men who live here take showers between 6:00 and 7:30am (Two of them are teenagers so their showers take FOREVER, leaving no hot water). When I get home from school, there's dinner to be made, orders to be barked, cleaning to be done, etc.
So I ask, how do you all fit it in? Do you go to a gym? Do you work out at home? Do you make all your meals on Sunday? Do you exercise daily? Every other day? I'm begging for suggestions! I gotta get this figured out so that when I start working, I can have a routine down for that too.
Here's to change!
Sunday, January 23, 2011
I must say Week 2 was not as awesome as I had wanted. But considering it was a full moon this week and my uterus was in fact trying to kill me (those two things are very closely related), I can't really complain. I only skipped one day of working out and one day of getting all my water in. I still call it progress. Since today is happy weigh-in day, here are the results (changes are overall since I began tracking):
-Weight: No change from last week, so still down 3 pounds overall. That's a win, because normally during full moons, I am up 6 pounds. I will gladly take no change!
-Waist:Down 1.75 inches
-Hips: No Change
-Thighs:Down 0.5 Inch
-Arms: Down 1 inch (I didn't believe the husband, so I made him redo it, I really lost AN INCH off my arms!)
-Waist to Hip Ratio: No change from last week, still down .09.
No up, just down or the same. I'm cool with that. I walked like a million miles today taking my little sister (15) and her two friends dress shopping for an upcoming dance. It was physically and mentally draining. Those children are insane. "No Em, it is NOT okay for you to give Megan a piggy back ride down the escalator," "No Megan you may NOT ride on Em's shoulders through the mall" and so on and so forth. *sigh* Anyhow, time to get my workout in for the night so I don't end up not doing it like last night!
Monday, January 17, 2011
So, for me yesterday was the beginning of week two. Well, it's weigh-in day on Sundays anyhow. The progress so far:
Weight: Down 3 pounds
Measurements: (Disclaimer: Not sure the husband is measuring in the same spots as last week, but he tries)
Waist: Down 1.25 inches
Hips: Up 2 inches
Thighs: Up .25 inch
Arms: No Change
Waist to Hip Ratio: Down .09
Overall, I call it a win. I'll be stepping it up a bit this week with the addition of a pilates class which starts Wednesday, and will be every Monday and Wednesday through mid-March. I'm going to continue doing the Shred daily with that.
The goals this week are to continue tracking my food, but focusing on getting the right ratios of carbs, fat, and protein. Also, to continue drinking lots of water and unlike last week, not miss any days. Of course exercising at least 10 minutes a day, which should be a given if I Shred everyday.
Once I lose 15 pounds, or get down to around 185, it's time to quit smoking..... again. I will gain weight when I quit. Obviously I'll try not to, but it's pretty much guaranteed. Quitting sucks. I've quit several times. And I always start again when I become an emotional mess. Maybe the addition of exercise to my life will be a good stress reliever and it will be easier this time. I'm not there yet, but it's rolling around in brain.
Week two will be better than week one. I will continue to make progress. I will stick with this, no matter what.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
So this past week has really been my first week back into Spark. As such, it's been deemed warm-up week. I've had to remember how to be accountable. I've to to get into the habit of logging in to Spark everyday. I've had to force myself to drink water. I've had to make sometimes difficult choices about what I"m going to eat. I've had to make myself exercise. But really, this week has been about learning to find balance. Learning what reasonable expectations of myself are. There is a finite amount of time in each day no matter how much I wish for that extra minute or hour. I have responsibilities and commitments to fulfill in addition to making time for myself. Making time for myself is difficult, but a priority. The key is a daily reminder that I am as much of a priority as everything else around me. Week two will be better than week one. Week three will be better than week two. Not perfect, just better. That's progress.
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