Thursday, March 01, 2012
The other day I took a writing assignment about the challenges women face when they embark on a weight loss journey, and how typically it is a greater challenge for women to lose weight than men. My own children (college students) are of healthy weights and even a bit on the thin side. We see people all the time that seem to be able to eat tons of fattening food as if it were raw carrot sticks. The point is men, women, cyborgs, whatever our challenges are our own.
It is very easy to whine, "It's not fair, Bobby gets to have the buffalo chicken tenders, why can't I?"
No, life isn't fair. It's not about Bobby or anyone else it's about me. I have hypothyroidism, fairly severe money problems, and a lot further to go before I am at a healthy weight. Someone else weighs 100 pounds more than me, is confined to a wheelchair, and has arthritis and diabetes.
If they can do it, I can do it. If they CAN'T do it, I can do it. It doesn't matter. This is my journey. No one else's. My challenges are what they are, and all i can do is face them one at a time and do the best I can.
Monday, February 27, 2012
Change is scary, but it's exciting too. This past weekend I gave my notice to cancel my gym membership. The gym is less than a mile from where I live, open 24 hours, even has a pool. I signed up knowing that this day would come. I figured either April 1st or May 1st I'd be without my membership, but it was still hard.
So now what do I do? So many times temporary gym memberships have led to regaining of the weight lost. Going to the gym provides an escape that working out at home doesn't quite provide, so that will be something to get used to. I have Wii games, dvds, and a bike I can take to the bike shop so it will be ride-able in the spring and summer.
I think I'm also coming off a mini plateau -- I finally dipped below 266 (258.8) yes, I know not much. I had let myself get a little lax for about a week, although not too stupid. I needed a vacation. There is a time to embrace a plateau, and a time to try and push through it. With only one more month at the gym, it's pushing time. 250s, here I come.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Remember that old childhood challenge of rubbing the tummy and patting the head at the same time? It was nearly impossible. I have a variety of vices I want to remedy. Obviously, there's the fitness and diet thing, but there's also the cleaning and organizing, as well as staying focused on work.
Since I'm self -employed freelance writer I have some flexibility on the last one, although I do need to make a living -- which has not gone well lately. I've lost over 30 pounds, and aside from getting in a funk yesterday and letting the fitness thing lapse for a day, I've done well. I'll be right back at it today. But I did get a bunch of cleaning done yesterday, and a little work.
One thing that has happened is the websites where I get most of my work are upping their reliability policies. Giving back work after it is checked out is frowned upon and can hurt your rating, meaning assignments pay less or I could even lose the privilege of writing for the site.
Having made it through my first stretch in weight loss, I've come to the conclusion that I do need to work on improving more than one area of my life. Being a little smaller, and having more energy dips into the challenge of the other areas of my life, but that doesn't mean I don't struggle. I have to make a conscious effort to improve the other areas too.
I've picked out specific blocks of time for the gym-- at 7:30 a.m. (preferably) or 7:30 p.m. Breakfast before that. Back from the gym by 9, lunch 11-12:30 (includes a bit of cleaning)12:30-2:30 another chunk of work. Then after 2:30 I'll play it by ear.
Reasonable, achievable goals first. I'll get there.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
A couple years ago, when I was approaching 40, I bought myself a swim suit -- the first I had in years. I was working a regular job then and had a membership to the Y. I decided I would try and learn to swim and I took the beginner class. I did okay, managed to be able to swim a few yards by the end of the class. And I got a lot more comfortable just walking around in the water.
But I lost my job, quit the Y, gained the weight I lost back. A year later, I rejoined briefly on a poverty discount (still unemployed) but even that was too much. By this time the straps of my size 18 cut into my back. I bought an alternative 18/20 tankini -- refusing to get anything larger. I went a few times at night, but had to quit again.
Now, I'm at a different gym, only a few blocks from my house. I started on a deal just after Thanksgiving. I've had a membership there too, but I had never ventured into "noman's land" where the pool is, until yesterday.
Having lost 30 pounds, my suits fit again, but I was still nervous. I had to adjust the strap twice because it wanted to fall down. But I loved the pool. Since I'm still not a swimmer, I was glad the deepest water in the lap pool was 4 foot ( inches, meaning I could water walk back and forth, which I did for about 30 minutes. I went while school was in session, so there was no kids. (I love kids, but watching out for them while I'm in a pool is hard for me)
So, as long as my schedule allows it, this will be my Friday morning thing. (Along with my regular workout) It's nice to earn those little treats.
Tuesday, February 07, 2012
Now, I haven't quite discovered the fountain of youth. I'm still 41, but when I stepped on the scale this morning it read 269.4, which not only officially puts me 100 pounds away from being in my "healthy range BMI " but also puts the actual number at 39.8 -- back in the 30s.
It still leaves me rocking that border between obese and morbidly obese, since I really should still lose 100 pounds. And I've go a couple inches to go before my waistline is back in the 30s, but I'll go ahead and throw myself that mini party in my head and watch the numbers drop some more.
And I am feeling younger, kinda like when I was in my 30s. Does that mean when I get my BMI back to the 20s I will feel like I'm in my 20s? Time will tell.
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