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A little disappointed

Saturday, April 19, 2008

I have decided to weigh myself today Sat. instead of my usual Sunday morning because tonight is the first night of Passover. It means a huge gathering at my home and lots and lots of food. I really have every intention of being good and not eating things that aren't good for me but there will be things that could cause a bump in the road. I figured I'd play it safe.

So, for the first time since I've started at Sparkpeople, I haven't lost any weight this week. What's really, REALLY disappointing is that had I lost anything at all it would have put me into a new number group i.e. the 140's. Darn!

What's really odd as well is that for the first time I'm starting to feel just a bit smaller, just a wee bit thinner. I've been walking a lot more than I have been because the weather is nicer and I can be outside. If I get the chance, maybe I'll get the tape measure out and see if I've lost inches.

To all my Jewish friends, have a wonderful Passover. To everyone, have a great weekend. I hope the weather is beautiful where ever you are and that you can get out and soak up the sunshine.

  
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TAMMI1963 4/20/2008 10:25AM

    I can certainly understand your disappointment but keep positive. You'll reach your goals. Have a wonderful Passover!

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BLINDBETH 4/20/2008 8:06AM

    Happy Passover to you and your family! Sadly, we have all been so busy - especially with my husband's catering business - that we've put off the Passover dinner until Tuesday evening (and he is the one that usually cooks). We usually only do one meal but there is enough food for a week! Go ahead and enjoy yourself... you deserve it! And I know you are your own worst critic because I have no doubt that you are looking fantastic!
Matza love!
Beth

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JO*ANNE*IE 4/19/2008 11:46AM

    Hey Precious!! My adopted Mother is Jewish so I'm with you on the Passover thing!! It is so difficult with all the food and goodies (yes -- I rec'd my gift of choc covered Matzoh!! lol). Keep that beautiful chin up of yours -- enjoy the holiday as the blessing that it is and keep your eye on your overall journey!! Blessings and Grace!!
Happy Pesach!
Joanne

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KAREN8241 4/19/2008 11:09AM

    I can sympathize--I'm also trying to get back down into the 140s! But I know we both will do it! I would definitely get out the tape measure and check your measurements when you get a chance. I did that last week and was pleasantly surprised to see that I had, indeed, gone down in both my waist and my hips!
Have a wonderful Passover!
Karen

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BARCINTL 4/19/2008 9:55AM

    For what it's worth, I put on .4lb of water weight cause I ate dinner late yesterday, and so I was 150 this am and not 149.6...we're both in the 50's for Passover but luckily, you look great and will be surrounded by many who love you :)

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The emotional aspect of dieting

Thursday, April 17, 2008

I know, I know, it's not a diet. It's a lifestyle change. I understand that on the level I need to but there is an emotional component that is necessary to deal with.

Sometimes I get depressed thinking that I got myself into this mess. There are times I look in the mirror and many feelings will arise from anger to extreme sadness. I know I'm doing everything in my power to change that and I am making progress, but that doesn't necessarily erase those feelings.

In a way I think it's a good thing to get those feelings and emotions out on the table. This way I can deal with them and perhaps get rid of them as I move toward my goal. Having been small and petite most of my life, I am uncomfortable in my own skin (meaning fat). I'm so glad I'm here and doing the right thing.

Next week I go to the Dr. and find out if I'm making progress on the cholesterol thing.

On a completely different note, it is now baseball season and my son is on an awesome team. They've only lost one game so far and he is very happy. He is what they call a power hitter. Yesterday they had practice and the coach gave them wiffleballs to hit to see how far they could send them. Of course, with my son this wasn't such a good idea. He is so strong that when he hit the ball he broke it in two!! LOL - great way to impress the coach! Not bad for a 12 year old!

  
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GIRLINMOTION 4/17/2008 11:39PM

    Lets hope the doctor will have good news for you. I am glad to hear you are not giving up and are being positive with your "lifestyle change".

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BARCINTL 4/17/2008 2:38PM

    I think the most important thing is to separate the concept of weight and self-value. If we think we are wonderful, important and beautiful no matter what our weight, then the pounds don't have that kind of power over us. They are exactly what they are--pounds. Pounds that keep us from being at our healthiest.

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CLASSYLADYMAY 4/17/2008 8:55AM

    Hey gf!! i know your going thru a lot and emotions do run high at times and you feel like maybe you wont get to your goal and look the way you did, But YOU can do this.. and you will! Think postive.. remmber you are a beauitful woman inside and out and no matter what you will keep going . Excerise and lifting weights are so important and really help with the emtional thing.. so try to make it a habit and you will feel much better! here if you need me.. Hugss Geri

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BAMEDIC 4/17/2008 8:08AM

    Thank you for expressing the emotional aspect of where we are now and where we are going.

I, too, do not recognise the person in the mirror at times.



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My first goal

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Today, officially, I have lost 15 lbs!! I couldn't be happier (well, I could if I didn't have all this weight to lose ). I am a week early too. I had set a date of April 19th to lose 15 and I made it. Whew!

This has been a really good week in terms of exercise. Funny how I thought it would bring a bigger loss but I'm guessing that along with all that working out I also built some muscle.

All good, all good.

So, now I'm working on my second goal. I want to a total of 20 lbs by my birthday. That's on May 18th which is about 5 weeks from now. At a pound a week, which is what I have been losing, I should be right on target. Believe me, I won't beat myself up if it's only 19 or even 18, but it won't be. I'll be right there where I need to be.

Yay!!!!

  
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BARCINTL 4/16/2008 8:56AM

    Hurray! I knew you would do it!

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TAMMI1963 4/13/2008 10:46PM

    You're very welcome. Thanks for adding me as one of your friends. I will do the same!!

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TAMMI1963 4/13/2008 7:52PM

    Congrats on making your goal (and a week early to boot)!! emoticon

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FOODFROMAFAR 4/13/2008 3:05PM

    Congrats, Gayllynne! What is your reward for meeting your first goal? You should get yourself flowers or something!! Pauline

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Frustration

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Today was a beautiful day. We don't have to many of those of late and I really wanted to make the most of it. After my son's baseball practice we decided to take our bikes to the lake again. I like breaking up my exercise with things like this and we were both happy about it.

He went outside to get the bikes and when I got out he was talking to two of his friends who live on the block. Of course, they wanted to come too. I knew this was going to be a bad idea but just couldn't say no. I knew it was going to be difficult because these other boys, for lack of a better word, are fat. One is very fat. So, off we went.

What should have been a 20 minute ride turned into 35. One had to stop for water. One had to swap bikes because he couldn't keep up on his. I don't go very fast but they couldn't even keep up with me. Sigh.....I was very frustrated. There were times we had to stop and wait for one, sometimes as long as 5 minutes. My son, who was so sweet, told me to ride on ahead while he stayed back with one of the boys. It wasn't a good run for me by a long shot.

The best part was when we got home I went over to one of the boys house and his mom, who is a chiropractor, adjusted my neck. It feels so much better now.

Tomorrow looks like it's going to be cold and wet (again). Oh well, maybe it would be a great day for me to either take off or do some weight work. Next time I go ride the lake, I'm going solo!!

  
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BLINDBETH 4/13/2008 9:28AM

    But think of the impact you had on those 2 boys. You might not have gotten as good of a work out as you planned - and they probably got more of one than they planned for - but you were a great role model!

I wish that kids played outside more. Video games have become more addictive than some drugs!

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HOPEFUL2DAY! 4/12/2008 7:51PM

    I tried to post this once, but it didn't work. I'm sorry if you end up with two. :)


It sounds like you had a great day. It's amazing how much better we can feel just getting fresh air and you were able to have some great quality time with your son!
Good for you!

:)

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Frustration

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Today was a beautiful day. Not to many of them around here of late and I wanted to take advantage of it. My son and I decided to ride our bikes around the lake again to day after baseball practice. The sun was shining and I was actually thinking that if all went well, maybe we would do twice around. He went outside to get our bikes and there were his friends. One thing led to another and they asked if they could go too. I knew this was a bad idea but I couldn't say no.

I should also mention that my son is an athlete. He is solid muscle and even though he is only 12, he likes to stay in shape. His friends are, well, for lack of better word, fat. One is very fat. They are both on a basketball team (first year for both) but rarely attend practice and are extremely out of shape.

So, off we go, me and the three boys. On a ride that should have taken 20 mins at best took about 35. They had to stop to drink water, then they had to stop and switch bikes because they couldn't keep up. I kept having to stop and wait for them. My son who is so sweet told me to go ahead with one of them while he stayed behind with the other.

Sigh.....I tried. I really did, but I don't think I got much of a work out today. The good thing is that when I went to one of they boys home with him, his mom (who is a chiropractor) adjusted my neck. I feel much better now!!!

So, tomorrow we have a baseball game and I don't know how much exercise I will get in. People are starting to notice, just a bit and I want to keep going. It has become so important to me.

At least I never go over my calorie count. That's a good thing. I did get out and get some fresh air and I'll bet I lost some weight just dealing with frustration. Gotta look for the good!

  
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SURFACING 4/12/2008 7:45PM

    I understand your frustration, but think of it this way. You did something wonderful for those boys. Maybe you can make this a habit, even if it's just once a week. You'll be getting exercise, even if it isn't as intense as you'd like, and you'd be doing those boys a tremendous favor by putting them on the right track.

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HOPEFUL2DAY! 4/12/2008 7:43PM

    Nothing like getting out in the fresh air. It sounds like you had a really nice day with your son, that's awesome.

Keep it up.

:)

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