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Sunday, April 06, 2008

When I first started on S/P I had no specific goals in mind. During the course of the two plus months I've been here that's changed.

My first goal I set for myself was to lose 15 lbs by April 19th, Passover. Since today is my weigh-in day and.....I lost another pound, HOORAY... I am now one pound short of that goal. I know I'm going to make it with two weeks to go. I'm feeling pretty good about that!!

My next goal may be more difficult. It's not huge but it's not going to be as easy. I want to lose a total of 20 pounds by my birthday. That is May 18. That will mean approximately 5 pounds in a month. Not impossible but with Passover in there it's going to be a challenge. It's a real "eating" holiday and my personal favorite. In addition, the end of May will bring a very close friends daughters Bat Mitzvah. More eating, more partying.

I hope I can be strong. I'm motivated, I want this but these will be my first road blocks. I watched my dear friend Dawn go through all the holidays and never veer off her diet even when confronted with the yummiest food. I will use her as my inspiration, as well as all the wonderful people here who support me.

Well, a new week has begun and I'm another pound lighter. I'm off to my son's little league game and I can't wait to see him smack that ball!!!!

Have a great week to all!!

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GIRLINMOTION 4/6/2008 12:01PM

    I know you can do it!

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JLITT62 4/6/2008 10:15AM

    I wish you luck. Making goal dates of weight loss has never worked for me -- it comes off when it comes off.

Matzo brei! Yum! I just adore Matzo brei. Yet I don't usually find it that challenging, because there's so much you can't eat.

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Saturday, April 05, 2008

I don't really have to worry about motivation at this juncture. I'm extremely motivated just by looking in the mirror or the life events I have coming up. What I lack some times is endurance.

So, what keeps me going. It's a funny little thought I have that has been stuck in my mind the last time I tried to lose weight and failed.

I remember it clearly. I was in the shower and thinking to myself, "You know, if you had stuck to your diet you would be 2 months into it by now and have some of this weight gone."

That thought has never left me. I know if I go off the "wagon" and don't get right back on I will look back and think about what could have been. I've decided to not do that to myself. I know there are going to be very rough patches but I also know I will hate myself if I don't follow through. I really want to be done with hating myself so I will endure.

It will get easier because it has become more of a lifestyle now and less of a diet. This is good. I know I have a long way to go but I also know I will look back and have no regrets.

Thanks for all the wonderful support out there. It means more than you know.

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BARCINTL 4/6/2008 8:06AM

    This is totally true--I used to say that I'd be alive a year from now and I could either be 50lbs thinner, even heavier than I was then or the same. The time would go by no matter what. It helped.

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JMALONE44 4/5/2008 11:37AM

    Go for it girl! You were very thin in your picture. It's good to look back in ways, but are bodies do change. I'm saying this because I can't expect myself to look how I did 20 years ago. Self esteem is important.

Focus on your strengths and as you said, it's a lifestyle change. Don't beat yourself up...I know I have in the past (about these issues). It's worth it for us to show good self esteem for our children and ourselves.

You can do it!

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GIRLINMOTION 4/5/2008 10:14AM

    "Successful people keep moving. They make mistakes, but they don't quit." -- Conrad Hilton

I hear you about getting off the wagon and not getting dusting yourself off and getting back on quickly. Would have got to your destination quicker. Maybe you would have, and I am glad you are not fretting over it anymore.

Through my time with Sparks, I have found many new (really old) skills to help me and have managed to maintain my loss. With the knowledge you now know that it does take consistency and honesty about what you are eating. That when you get to your goal weight, you will be able to keep it off because you have made it a lifestyle.

Hugs, Sonia

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Wanting it

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Did you ever want something so badly you would do anything to get it? That's how I feel about my weight loss right now. I have just started my third month and I know this month will present challenges.

I have been feeling pretty good about my progress and do ok as long as I don't look in the mirror. My clothes are getting loose and I find myself pulling my jeans up all the time because they feel like they are falling down. All this is good but when I go to take a shower and catch a glimpse of myself I get angry that I got this way, sad that I am this way and determined to never look like this again. Lots of emotions going on.

So, I'm here. I haven't, in over two months, gone off this diet...oops I mean new lifestyle. Yes, now and then I won't exercise but I still watch what I eat and continue exercise the next day.

I want this. I need to be thin and healthy because I deserve it. Am I afraid it will never happen, of course I am but I just try not to go there.

Thought I would share a little poem my boyfriend sent after I told him I had lost 13 lbs:

13 pounds!
That's a lot of wood
But...just so you know
You always looked good

Isn't he sweet????

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BARCINTL 4/6/2008 8:09AM

    Your boyfriend is the Robert Frost of the Internet :)

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GIRLINMOTION 4/4/2008 9:09AM

    Oh, what a sweet man you have in your life Gayllynne.

You are seeing so much progress and yes, it is hard work, but where is the value in anything if you didn't work hard for it so you could appreciate it?

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FOODFROMAFAR 4/3/2008 10:11PM

    Great way to turn that negative mental image of your self seen in the mirror into a motivational thought - I'm not coming back here! I did the same thing. It took me a long time to like what I saw in the mirror. Even when everyone else is saying how great I look, I still see "too heavy" when I looked in the mirror for the longest time. I had to keep reminding myself I'm not going back there... It's getting better as time goes by...

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BLINDBETH 4/3/2008 9:17PM

    Awwww... what a poet!

I think we all battle the balance in eating what we should and exercising when we are already tired. You are well on your way to achieving your goal. And anything worth having/achieving is worth working hard to get.

You are doing great!

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    Yess i have felt like that.. and do now.. but i am patient and not giving up and know i will get there.. i am so much older than you and i wonder why i finally got to this point to do something.. not good when your older.. so look at bright side.. and keep smiling.. dont judge your body no one does like that.. we arent perfect.. you are beauiful and you must know that!! hugss Geri

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CALENSARIEL 4/3/2008 10:03AM

    You know what? While you're working on the eating patterns and exercise, you need to be working on the inside of you, too. When you look in the mirror at yourself, that's not YOU! YOU are so much more than that outward image! I think in trying to lose weight and change our lifestyles, THAT right there is the hardest thing to deal with because we have tons and tons of crappy self-talk and ideas about ourselves due to what we look like. Start telling yourself you're a beautiful miracle of life! Love your blog, btw! Have a GREAT day! Calen~

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Ice Cream

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

No, I haven't eaten any ice cream but I was just thinking about it. It's very much a downfall for me so I am staying away from it. It's not that I will never eat it again, it's just that right now, while I still have so far to go, I've given it up.

While we are trying to eat healthy, maybe having sorbet or sherbet instead of the real deal, there are times when nothing else will do. I don't even keep kinds I like in my house for fear I will eat it.

So, what types of ice cream do I like? Lots!! Last year the Baskin and Robbins near me had this honeycomb ice cream that was so good I went back almost every day until they didn't carry it anymore. Ohhh, so that's how I got these hips!!!

Other flavors I love are the Hagan Daz caramel flavors like caramel swirl or ben and jerry's karamel kone. It's funny because I love chocolate but rarely eat chocolate ice cream. The exception being Dove ice cream's Unconditional Chocolate Ice Cream. It should be illegal. They also make a coconut that's amazing.

Ok, now that I've made everyone crazy, well, I'm sorry. I just wanted to remember something that I can't have now but will have in the future, only the next time I have ice cream it will be just a little bit and I will savor it.

I see no reason to deny myself something that I love for the rest of my life. I do see why I should make it only very occasionally and only in small bits. I'm learning.....I'm learning!!

So, what's your favorite ice cream?

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BARCINTL 4/3/2008 7:55AM

    They make a coconut ice cream?

Damn you, woman!

I love vanilla chocolate chip by Haagen Daaz, but I also love their Belgian Chocolate Chocolate, Chocolate Chocolate Chip and I do love Ben and Jerry's Cherry Garcia.

Ice cream has always been a trigger for me as well as fudgy brownies.

I loved that CocoPlum lowfat yogurt in the Mall--blueberry was great and I'm not even a blueberry fan--70 calories, no fat for a small portion. Try it!

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CALENSARIEL 4/2/2008 11:39PM

    Bavarian Chocolate Raspberry! It was also a BR flavor at one time. What if you bought some of your favorite in a cup, took it home and divided it up into servings? Are you strong enough to do that? One thing Tolle says in his book is, what you fight becomes stronger, what you resists persists. In regards to diets and food, I sure think that's right on the money. Or go get it in a cup and take someone with you to share it with! That way you won't have it in the house. Toodles! Calen~

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GIRLINMOTION 4/2/2008 9:34AM

    All ice cream is my favourite! I can't have it in the house. I can stay away from it for awhile but once I start, basically it will all be gone at once, nothing for later, or others. Best for me not to have it around.

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TALSHIAR 4/1/2008 10:21PM

    Thanks for your comments on my page. I know what you mean about a food being your downfall. Last time I had ice cream was sometime last year. My downfall is pasta so I steer clear of it for the most part. Deb

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BLINDBETH 4/1/2008 8:29PM

    I'm a huge fan of peanut butter things in ice cream. Like you, I love chocolate but not really in my ice cream. We eat ice cream all year round in our house - and with 4 teenagers, we buy a lot. We usually buy low-fat vanilla yogurt but I also like the Edy's Slow Churned Dolce de Leche (it is low-fat, too).

I try to limit my ice cream intake to once or twice a week. Some weeks I fail miserably! Good luck on garnering enough power to tame the Ice Cream Beast!

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Another one bites the dust

Sunday, March 30, 2008

I had sneaked a peek at my weight a couple of times this week and didn't see a loss so I was rather hard on myself. This morning I was down a pound. I'll take it! I made a promise to me to lose 15 by April 19 and looks like I can make it if this keeps up.

Since I started this new lifestyle on Feb. 2, I haven't gone off once. I haven't gone over my calorie count (that I know of) once. It's hard and I have some huge challenges ahead of me but I want this so badly I think I'm going to get through them.

On a little different note. Some of you took seriously my blog about being Queen of the Universe. It was kind of a silly blog and I hope people would take it as just realizing that this isn't fun but "if" I could figure out a way to change it magically, I would.

I'm sorry to say that when I woke up this morning I was NOT made Queen of the universe. I'll try again tomorrow. :)

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CONFUSEDBIRD 4/1/2008 7:21PM

    Congrats on your 1 lb. Your moving down, thats all that matters!

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LOVE2DIVE 3/30/2008 11:58AM

    Awesome accomplishment!!! Keep up the great work!!!

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GIRLINMOTION 3/30/2008 11:17AM

    Sorry to hear of the loss. No just kidding, way to go, WOOHOO!!!!!! Oh happy days! I know this will keep you motivated as you work toward your goal. You can do it.

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BEENIEMOM 3/30/2008 9:52AM

    ONe pound a week is great....think of what a pound of butter looks like....thats a big piece of fat that is no longer weighing you down!And one pound is a reasonable achievable goal!Queen of the universe huh!well I bet you are queen of the universe in some peoples eyes!We are all queens to someone!That is cute!Have a good day and keep at ithugs Tina

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SMAHINDRA915 3/30/2008 9:36AM

  Hi! 5 lbs a week is actually alot and can be next to impossible to do! You should aim for about 1lb a week. I have learned that slow and steady really does win the case in this fight against weight!!!

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