Sunday, October 09, 2011
Yesterday was Yom Kipper. It is the holiest day in the Jewish religion, the day of atonement. We fast the entire day and reflect on the past year. What went wrong, what can we fix and what can we accept.
Since I no longer belong to a Synagogue, I need to find creative ways to celebrate this holy day with my son. Several years ago I hit upon a walk.
My son and I walk to a local lake and then walk the path around it. It's 4 miles in total for us.
We talk. We talk about everything and most of the time I just let him talk. Sometimes I find if I just shut up and listen, he will go deeper within himself and tell me things he has been wanting me to know but didn't get out.
Yesterday, he talked the entire time. He told me about the things he had done that past year that I didn't know about (and some I did). If I didn't have grey hair (yes, I color it!) already, I would now.
He told me things he had done that I was stunned to learn. He told me about feelings he had about girls, he told me of some of his hopes and dreams. I pretty much didn't say anything, just an occasional "I see" or maybe a little question like why or when.
All I can say is wow. It's not easy being a single mom to a teenage boy but I am learning every day. I do the best I can and I love my son with all my heart. I only hope he grows into a wonderful man in spite of the terrible role model his dad is. I think one of the most important things a man can bring to the table is the ability to communicate on many levels. It's something I try and teach him every day. Seems to be working!
To all my Jewish friends I wish you a wonderful new year. To everyone, I wish health, happiness, joy and prosperity in the coming year!
Monday, September 26, 2011
It has been a sad 24 hours for me. I have lost another friend, totally senselessly!!
Over 20 years ago, my ex took me to Memphis on a surprise trip to Graceland. It was so exciting and so much fun. While there I met friends of his and we stayed with them. They were an older couple (my parents age) and their daughter came over (my age) and her children (just kids).
That one encounter, that weekend, left me with lifelong friends. I have been in touch with them ever since. I had come to know "Grandmother" and "Grandfather" very well as well as the rest of the family. They were very dear to me.
Grandfather passed away several years ago, but Grandmother kept right on going. She went to 3 weddings of grandchildren, lots of occasions (birthdays, graduations etc), she was really amazing!
At 91 she was still in great shape. Not a thing wrong with her, no physical problems, no mental dysfunction, nothing. She walked several miles every day without a care in the world. What an truly remarkable woman.
She is gone now, tragically. Disease didn't take her, a drunk driver did! She was on her morning walk, crossing the street and he just didn't stop. She lived for two days, long enough for her entire family to come and be with her but she was just to fragile to go on. So many broken bones.
When I was 16 my best friend was killed by a drunken driver. It was more than anyone can bare in a lifetime and now it has struck again.
NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO DRINK AND GET BEHIND THE WHEEL OF A CAR. NO ONE!!!
Sorry for the rant, I'm hurting and upset. This didn't have to be this way. She still had good years left.
Friday, September 16, 2011
A few days ago I came downstairs in the morning to start my coffee and when I walked into the kitchen I saw the freezer door wide open. Apparently when my son took something out of it the night before, it never closed properly and now I had a puddle.
What a mess! The ice tray was completely melted, there was a multi-colored puddle on the bottom of ice pops that leaked and everything was defrosted. I was crazed!!!
I had some wild caught salmon (which is very expensive) and lots of chicken that I bought on sale etc. Since I had to run off to work and my son (who I was screaming at) had to go off to school, I just threw out what was falling out and shut the door. I would deal with it when I got home.
I posted on facebook how upset I was and my cousin called me. He said that I was being overly cautious and that most of the things there were just fine. I could refreeze just about everything and that the things I was unsure about refreezing I should just cook. Really? Well, what a relief....
So for dinner I made all the salmon. There was quite a bit so I made it several ways. My son was at wrestling practice and I wanted it done when he got home. While I was waiting for him I tasted a little piece. It was delicious.
I went to pick up the boys at practice. As I was dropping off his friends I felt it. My stomach started to growl. Then it got worse and worse. As soon as we got home I headed for the bathroom. Yup, I was sick. Thank goodness I just had a little piece and was only in the bathroom maybe 5 times!! I threw it all away.
What's for dinner my son asked? Salmon? No I called from the bathroom, cereal!!!
Went on the rampage and threw out all the rest of the chicken and fish. Should have done this in the first place. Lesson learned!!!!
Oh, and I'm fine today, thanks :)
Sunday, September 11, 2011
What a difficult day this is for everyone. As a New Yorker I think it is especially hard.
I work in NYC. Ten years ago today I was recovering from shoulder surgery and my client had called and asked me to come in just a bit later. It was so fortunate that she did.
I came out of the shower and turned on the TV to see the weather and traffic before I went in and all I saw as the first tower burning. I sat down on the bed, mesmerized by what I was seeing. No one knew yet that it wasn't a horrible accident but terrorists.
My phone started ringing. It was my cousin who lived in DC. He wanted to know if I understood what was going on and to see if I were still home. While on the phone with him he heart sirens. He looked out his window to see smoke coming from the Pentagon. We were both horrified.
Then I saw the second plane hit. It wasn't real, it just couldn't be happening. I started feeling sick. My brother, my husband and my daughter's father were all in the city. I knew they weren't in that area but you never know! I couldn't reach them. Phone lines and cell lines were jammed.
My girlfriend called me hysterical. Her husband worked in the towers. She couldn't reach him. It was all such a nightmare. Hours later, we finally got a hold of him. He was one of the lucky ones. He got out in the nick of time, covered in soot, running for his life, but alive. He is ok physically, but emotionally will never be the same with the things he saw and endured.
My family was all ok. I ran to the school and got my children out. I hugged and kissed them and reassured them all their loved ones were ok.
They don't remember much of that day but for sure, I will never forget. Let's give them all some thoughts and prayers today, both for those we lost and those that survived. Life will never be the same.
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