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Ten Years Ago Today.....

Sunday, September 11, 2011

What a difficult day this is for everyone. As a New Yorker I think it is especially hard.

I work in NYC. Ten years ago today I was recovering from shoulder surgery and my client had called and asked me to come in just a bit later. It was so fortunate that she did.

I came out of the shower and turned on the TV to see the weather and traffic before I went in and all I saw as the first tower burning. I sat down on the bed, mesmerized by what I was seeing. No one knew yet that it wasn't a horrible accident but terrorists.

My phone started ringing. It was my cousin who lived in DC. He wanted to know if I understood what was going on and to see if I were still home. While on the phone with him he heart sirens. He looked out his window to see smoke coming from the Pentagon. We were both horrified.

Then I saw the second plane hit. It wasn't real, it just couldn't be happening. I started feeling sick. My brother, my husband and my daughter's father were all in the city. I knew they weren't in that area but you never know! I couldn't reach them. Phone lines and cell lines were jammed.

My girlfriend called me hysterical. Her husband worked in the towers. She couldn't reach him. It was all such a nightmare. Hours later, we finally got a hold of him. He was one of the lucky ones. He got out in the nick of time, covered in soot, running for his life, but alive. He is ok physically, but emotionally will never be the same with the things he saw and endured.

My family was all ok. I ran to the school and got my children out. I hugged and kissed them and reassured them all their loved ones were ok.

They don't remember much of that day but for sure, I will never forget. Let's give them all some thoughts and prayers today, both for those we lost and those that survived. Life will never be the same.

  
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SCOOTERGIRLOZ 9/16/2011 2:27AM

    Fascinating blog to read. It's still so spine-chilling to hear people's experiences on that fateful day. So glad to hear your family ended up safe. Almost like seeing it again with your account of your girlfriend's husband being in the thick of it. Hope he has recovered as best as possible. Thanks for bravely sharing as it could not have been easy dealing with emotions from recalling the memories.

Scootergirl in Oz

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DARLENEK04 9/15/2011 6:21PM

  I cannot but imagine what those people were thinking/feeling,
and those who were in the immediate area have suffered as well.
Thankful for you that your family is safe.

Darlene

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DETERMINEDJANET 9/12/2011 12:01AM

    You definitely had a "front row seat" of life for this tragic event! I was far removed but I remember the day well. I had just pulled into the parking lot at work when the news came over the radio. I went inside and found everyone huddled over the internet coverage to watch it unfolding. I worked in Govt. Sales at a computer company and knew we still had a couple field reps in the Pentagon area so we set out to locate them. The oddity of the day for me was that I had a 20 week ultrasound that afternoon so I was dealing with conflicting emotions of joy/sadness and life/death.

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CELEST 9/11/2011 11:07AM

    I cant believe 10 yrs have passed since that tragedy. We sat watching it on SATV (South Africa) in horror at the poor people involved. If we felt it bad, I can only imagine what it felt like being there.

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Triggers

Saturday, August 13, 2011

I can't believe it's been a month since I've written a blog. Seems life can really get in the way!!!

I have been thinking about triggers today. This past week, although I have been getting on the treadmill almost every day, my eating has been out of control. I couldn't figure it out until.......

Yesterday, my ex came over for a meeting with the bank. We refinanced the house because interest rates are so much lower and we could save a lot of money each month. I realized that seeing him causes me stress, lots and lots of stress!!

I think that I eat to swallow all those unhappy, upsetting feelings. Just the anticipation of having to sit with him at a table, and to be nice to him when what I really wanted to do was punch him in the nose....well, you get the picture.

I woke up today and realized what I had been doing. I feel a little better now. I know he is a big trigger for me and I really need to not let that get to me.

I'm going to work on this, really.

  
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MOMMABOF7 8/16/2011 10:21AM

    Great that your recognizing your triggers!

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 8/13/2011 7:42PM

    I think it surprises us when we find out what triggers our over eating. I am glad that you figured it out.

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DOROTHYBERO 8/13/2011 4:24PM

    Good for you recongnizing your trigger.

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DETERMINEDJANET 8/13/2011 3:54PM

    I've been figuring that one out for myself today as well. The emotions got me before I knew it regarding the old "grandparents" issue that was put to rest a few months ago. I'm glad I figured out what was happening so I could turn it around!!!

Hang in there!!! At least you identified it and it won't catch you and trip you up so thoroughly next time!

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GIRLINMOTION 8/13/2011 12:37PM

    I know you can't change history, but you can change how you handle it. I know it is easier said than done (I have the same issues). But, if you keep on focusing on how you are so much better being out of that caustic relationship it does make it easier.

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BARCINTL 8/13/2011 10:17AM

    Read "Shrink Yourself"...it will teach you how *not* to eat your feelings. I might have a copy to loan you--I'd given it to Josh who managed to never read it. *sigh* Knowing what's causing the problem is 3/4 of the solution! You can do this!

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A little frustrating

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I haven't lost any weight in two weeks. I am not exactly sure why this is but I have been put on some new medication exactly two weeks ago so I am going to attribute it to that.

What's driving me crazy is that the scale registers EXACTLY the same weight each time I get on it, down to the oz. There has been no change at all!

I haven't stopped exercising and I have been eating exactly as I should. I am hoping that there will be something to show for this by this weekend. It is a little disheartening to work so hard and see nothing on the scale but......I do notice that my clothes seem to be looser and that makes me smile.

The next pound I lose will make it a full 10 lbs since the beginning of May. I guess that's why I want to see it so badly.

I know I have a ways to go because I gained so much weight this past year and I have no intention of stopping. I just wish that darn scale would move!!!!

  
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DETERMINEDJANET 7/14/2011 9:45PM

    Betting it is inches happening instead of pounds! Hang in there!!!!

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MOMMABOF7 7/14/2011 8:55PM

    This will be your week!

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DOROTHYBERO 7/14/2011 1:29PM

    The scales can be so stubborn!!

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MKWMKW 7/14/2011 12:05PM

    Don't be discouraged! If your clothes feel looser and you feel good, that's a plus. I'm kind of in the same boat - I went from no exercise to exercising everyday along with watching what I eat. Last weigh-in I had lost one pound. I was expecting more after being so good, but am trying not to let numbers de-rail me. Hang in there!

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PAULAMARIEF 7/14/2011 10:34AM

    Well congrats on the 9 pounds you have lost. As for the past two weeks, unfortunately our bodies react differently each week. Are you strength training? If the scale isn't changing but your clothes are loose it would explain the muscle gain, body fat loss theory. I personally only use the scale maybe every two weeks. Good luck!

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GIRLINMOTION 7/14/2011 10:20AM

    I have found that medication can be a cause of weight gain/loss. I know it is frustrating, but if you look on the bright side, at least your not gaining (I did on medication).

HUGS

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Life is fragile

Sunday, July 10, 2011

It's been a difficult week for me. I haven't lost any weight this week but I have been put on a new medication and that could be the reason. I haven't gone off my diet and have been really good about using the treadmill so I believe it will show up eventually. I still feel focused and determined (half the battle, no?)

I had some horrible news yesterday. A good friend of mine that lives clear across the country in San Francisco, husband had a heart attack yesterday. He didn't make it. He was 57 years old. I am truly stunned. I called her when I was out there in March but we just couldn't get together because of our schedules. She sounded so happy.

Her husband's major problem was that he was overweight. When I first met him many years ago he had a little weight problem. She laughed that they were so opposite because she runs marathons and does iron woman competitions. He struggled with his weight always.

My heart goes out to my friend Carol (we went to high school together) and this is a real wake up to maintain the work I am doing now.

  
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CELEST 9/11/2011 11:09AM

    This sounds like my story. My friends husband died a month ago at 57 from a heart attack. He had no weight issues what so ever, but was always a worrier. He leaves behind a wife Ann, and two sons. Tragic, so young.

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TRACSGOAL 7/11/2011 12:31PM

    So sorry to hear about your friend's loss. I will keep her and her family in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon

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GEMINI-SKY 7/11/2011 7:11AM

    So Sorry to hear about your friends husband. It's always a good reminder to take care of ourselves. Not just weight but to eat healthy and try to avoid health problems at all cost.
I feel your loss.


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DETERMINEDJANET 7/10/2011 9:05PM

    So sorry about your friends loss, but a very good reminder to take care of the weight issues.

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K8NJKSMOM 7/10/2011 12:25PM

    So sorry to hear about your friend's husband.

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DOROTHYBERO 7/10/2011 9:27AM

    So very hard when a good friend looses a loved one - it is a wake up call!! Condolanses!!

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NEELIXNKES 7/10/2011 9:23AM

    emoticon very sorry to hear about your friend's husband. That is a tough situation.

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Great Dessert

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

There are things I know that are triggers for me. Got some not so good news today and believe it or not, I lost my appetite. I know it will return and the first thing I will look for is something sweet.

I cannot keep ice cream in my house, ever. If it's there, I will eat it. I had this idea today. I got some fresh berries, strawberries, raspberries and blackberries. I sweetened them with some splenda and then mixed them with some cool whip free. Then....I froze the whole thing!

It's like I can have a big bowl of ice cream that is not only good for me, but has less than 100 calories (way less) in the whole thing!! Woohoo YUM!!

  
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K8NJKSMOM 6/24/2011 2:10PM

    MMM....sounds delish! Cool Whip Free is my favourite! It makes you think you are having a totally decadent dessert! I've never tried it frozen though. This will be a great treat for the summer!!!

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DOROTHYBERO 6/16/2011 4:05PM

    Sounds yummy - will have to try it!!

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ABISMITHY 6/16/2011 12:30PM

    Wow! That sounds awesome - I might have to try some of that!

(See how I was drawn to a blog called "Great Dessert!"

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GEMINI-SKY 6/16/2011 7:08AM

    What a Great Idea ! ! ! Enjoy ! ! !

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