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It clicked

Friday, May 20, 2011

I has been a very difficult couple of months. Between my dad going into hospice care, Passover with the family, my dad's passing and the shiva, I gained nearly 10 lbs. This is on top of the weight I had already gained back.

I knew that I was eating badly but I just couldn't help myself. I didn't care. The stress was enormous and I had shut down.

A couple of weeks ago, it clicked. I had had enough of feeling awful and started to do something about it. I started walking again, eating right, tracking and best of all losing.

Today I realized it's two weeks since I started. I already feel better. I know I dropped a few pounds and know that I will continue on the right track. I had forgotten that this makes me feel better.

I know you all know what that moment is like when it "clicks" and you are ready. I'm angry at myself for gaining so much of my weight back but not so angry that I can't do something about it.

I so appreciate the encouragement I get from this wonderful place. Thanks everyone for your support. It's been fantastic.

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DOROTHYBERO 5/21/2011 8:26AM

    Love those aha moments emoticon

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PLPEEP 5/20/2011 10:31PM

    I think as long as we never give up we can conquer anything. So glad to hear you are back on the right track.

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MHNGJR 5/20/2011 12:21PM

    You had some issues that very understandably resulted in some weight gain, BUT. . you've recognized where you need to go and started on the way. emoticon emoticon

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    So glad you found that moment again where it all clicks. emoticon

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LSCHULER72 5/20/2011 10:26AM

    Super! We are glad you are here with us!

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PENNI68 5/20/2011 9:43AM

    That is is amazing when you eat better and exercise how much better you feel!! I had forgotten that myself this week. Time to get back at it!! Sorry about the loss of your dad, but good for you for putting things into perspective and getting back at it!! emoticon

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He's Gone

Monday, April 25, 2011

I can't believe that I am writing this but I am sorry to say we lost my dad this past weekend. He has been sick for so long and his health failing we knew this was going to happen.

What I have learned is that no matter how prepared you think you are for this, you just aren't prepared. I find myself just starting to cry because I was thinking of some wonderful times with my dad, or just because I miss him already.

My dad was the greatest dad ever. We were very, very close. In my family there were only lots of boys (I have lots of male cousins and an older brother) but I was not only the youngest but the only girl. A true princess and my dad adored me.

He was a remarkable man. My dad finished the house I grew up in. He did all the electrical work, paneled the den and painted my room every time I thought it should be a different color. You may not think this very remarkable but my dad was a WWII veteran. He proudly served his country and lost his right arm in the service. He told me there was nothing he couldn't do and that with only one arm. This meant there was nothing I couldn't do no matter what.

This Wednesday is the funeral. I say good-by for the final time. It is going to be so hard because selfishly I want him with me always but I know that he is at peace now, pain free and with my mom. I also know that I will miss him every day of my life.

I am so grateful I have a lifetime of memories to keep him with me always.

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COOKNKEL 5/9/2011 2:23PM

    No matter how old we are, losing our Daddy is rough. You were blessed to have such an honorable overcomer to set that example to get you through the storms of this life. The good news is we have a heavenly Father waiting to take over, who loves us and knows our pain and every tear. It will be a hard week. Blessings of peace to you.

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SCOOTERGIRLOZ 4/29/2011 8:26AM

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Your dad sounds like a number 1 champion. Hope the funeral was lovely and reflectful for all those whom he touched.

So sorry for your lost.

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DOREENKNIGHT64 4/28/2011 10:38AM

    My sympathies are with you. Hold on to those memories and pass them down to the next generations, that way he will be with you and with your family too.

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PAWKETS 4/27/2011 10:45AM

    Very sorry for your loss

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MOMMABOF7 4/26/2011 8:11AM

    So sorry for your loss! What great memories to hold in your heart.

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BESEVEN 4/25/2011 11:26PM

    Your father sounds like he was a truly great man, and you couldn't have asked for a better dad. May you treasure your memories of him, and live the wisdom he instilled in you.
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    What a beautiful tribute to your father. Hugs & Prayers during this very sad time for you.

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MARTHAWILL 4/25/2011 8:45PM

    Sorry for your loss and pain. You are right. No matter how long you know you will lose someone, it is still difficult when that person is gone. There will forever be an empty spot.
At the same time, how wonderful that you will have such beautiful memories.

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2LABS2LOVE 4/25/2011 8:25PM

    emoticon emoticonYour Dad sounds like a wonderful Daddy. You are so blessed to have a Dad like him. Death is a journey we will all take...your separation is temporary...keep that in mind. Tears are healing and we are all here for you. emoticon

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    That's awful, I'm so sorry for your loss. But it sounds like you were pretty blessed to have him in your life. You're in my thoughts.

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JEBNURSE2000 4/25/2011 7:38PM

    Sorry for your loss, but he will always be with you in memories. Keep remembering all the good times. emoticon emoticon

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LADYRH 4/25/2011 7:12PM

    So sorry for your loss, enjoy your memories.

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Wonderful week

Saturday, April 23, 2011

It has been a long but fun week. My son and I went to San Francisco to see family and to celebrate Passover. Every year we do this holiday at a different cousins home. We aren't a big family but we are very, very close knit!!

I got to see some family that I don't see often. Cousins from Canada, the ones that live in San Francisco of course, cousins from South Carolina, others down the coast of Calif. and best of all, my cousin that moved to Thailand!!

It was a great week, lots of hugs and laughter and wonderful food (don't ask!!). My son and I explored San Francisco together. We got to take every form of mass transit which included buses, trains, ferry, trolly, planes and cars. We had a great time and found so much to do!

11 members of my family decided to catch a ballgame! We went to see the Oakland "A"s beat up the Red Sox!! What can I say, we are from NY and are happy to see ANYONE beat up the Red Sox LOLOLOL!!!!! It was my first time at a stadium that wasn't in NY. What fun!!

It's great to be home. I'm sorry my daughter was still in school and couldn't make it but maybe next year (of course I don't know where it will be then!)

I know lots of holidays are going on right now. I hope they are happy for everyone!!

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DOROTHYBERO 4/24/2011 8:46PM

    Sounds wonderful!

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Sunday, April 10, 2011

It's been a long, tiring weekend. Yesterday I had to get up around 5:30 to take my son to a wrestling match that was nearly 90 mins away. We didn't finish the day until about 4:30 and then, with traffic, another 2 hours home. We were both wiped out.

It was a really rough outing for my son. He is a really terrific wrestler but this was a new kind of wrestling for him. It's called "freestyle" and is not what is taught in school. He did win his first match but he lost the next two even though he put up a valiant effort. My heart really went out to him as he just tried so hard. It is very difficult to see someone rough up your child!!!

Today we had to get up early because he had a baseball game. The poor kid was kind of hurting but we went anyway because a commitment is a commitment. It was freezing out watching the game and while he got a great hit and also made a wonderful catch in the outfield, his team lost. He took it all in stride.

He just went out with his friends. He needs some downtime before I make him do his homework.

As for me, I'm exhausted!!! Next weekend vacation with my son for spring break. San Francisco here we come. Gosh I hope it's warm!!

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DARLENEK04 4/11/2011 11:26AM

  My son played baseball, we had so many games going I didn't
know half the time if I were coming or
He gave his word tho, and honored it. We never missed a game.

Good luck,

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DOROTHYBERO 4/11/2011 6:00AM

    Sounds like a really busy weekend - have a great time in San Francisco!

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Plesant surprises!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Yesterday my daughter called. I asked her if she was coming home this weekend as it is the start of spring break at her school.

She said, "Yes, I'm on my way. I should be home in about 2 hours."

ARGHHH, first questions was, "What do you want for dinner?"

I jumped in the car and ran over to the supermarket. I bought all her favorites. Fresh salmon, fresh broccoli and the rice she loves. She loves when I poach the salmon and I had some leftover white wine which is perfect for poaching.

She got home and I had everything ready to cook. Within a half hour it was all done and we sat down and had a really lovely dinner. We talked and talked (well, she talked mostly and I listened). It was so nice to have her home and happy and giving some time to her old mom.

She is going to her dads for a few days but for the most part will be home for the next week. Know what I'm doing?? LAUNDRY!!!! LOL - she wouldn't think of not bringing THAT home!!!

I can't stop smiling!!

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    So glad you are having time with your daughter!!

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PHEBESS 3/26/2011 1:37PM

    Lovely visit!

And hey, at least she doesn't bring home RIPPED clothing - I used to do that so my mom would take me to buy new stuff, LOL!

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MHNGJR 3/26/2011 10:22AM

    Sounds like the beginning of a super visit. I would have loved your dinner! emoticon

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