Tuesday, February 26, 2008
I know, I know, I should be thrilled I've lost 5 lbs. Yes, it's great but.....today, when I got out of the shower and saw how really fat I am right now, I just got angry at myself for doing that. There is no one to blame but me for doing this to myself. I never had a weight problem before until my hysterectomy which came just at the same time as my divorce. Yes, it was tough, very. but I never should have lost control and made myself blow up like this.
It is almost impossible for me to look in the mirror. Believe it or not, I can go days without really looking. A quick hair comb in the morning and maybe a glimpse when I'm brushing my teeth.
I realize I'm just venting right now but I hate the way I look. Yes, I know there is nothing more than what I'm doing already that can be done but I'm not really happy right now.