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I'm trying

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

I'm really trying to turn this corner. I know what I need to do and I have to get past the anger that I have to do this all over again.

Today, instead of coming straight home from work I stopped at the lake. I walked around it (3 miles), got in the car and came home. I have to say that it was the most difficult time I've ever had walking the lake. I couldn't believe how hard it was! I almost stopped but refused to allow myself that and pushed through.

I'm glad I did this. Even though it was hard, it wasn't impossible. I also know that the more I do this, the easier it will become. I know, I know....it all starts with the first step.

I'm off to have lunch now. I really nice big salad with some chicken breast in it.

I am hoping this is a new beginning for me. Thank you all for all your great support. It really does help.

  
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RUSSIANMERMAID 4/15/2010 11:11AM

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WINWIN1 4/14/2010 10:21PM

    good for you - you are an inspiration. emoticon

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GIRLINMOTION 4/14/2010 8:29PM

    YUP, it all starts with the first step, then you have to bring the other foot over too (attitude).

HUGS

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BARCINTL 4/14/2010 5:14PM

    Walking the lake and coming back on Sparkpeople are two big steps--congratulations!

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BAHIAGIRL 4/14/2010 4:51PM

    I feel for you. I really didn't want to go to the gym yesterday but my husband was being the strong one and got me to go. I burned 500 calories and felt great. Keep trying!

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MROSE721 4/14/2010 12:43PM

  way to go, sounds like u got a good hold of the situation. never give up, each day u get a day closer to ur goal. some days are not as good as others but when all is said and done u will get there. be blessed!!! emoticon

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Why is this time so difficult?

Sunday, April 11, 2010

I am trying, really I am. I am back here because I gained so much of the weight I lost back. I hate it but am really struggling.

It seems last time the weight just came off. Yes, I was eating right and exercising and I really looked great just one short year ago. Now , I have to admit, I really hate myself. I'm so angry that I slipped up so badly I can't seem to get on track. Every day I get up and say to myself I'm going to win today but by evening, I'm a loser (and not in the good way).

Ok, I'm venting, I know but I am having a much harder time. I'm hanging on my my fingernails!!

  
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GIRLINMOTION 4/12/2010 2:53PM

    You have lots of changes in your life. It is not always easy to adjust yourself. Just take it slow and steady. Don't be your own worse enemy by beating yourself up.

HUGS

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LOVES_ANIMALS 4/11/2010 5:17PM

    First thing is to be nice to yourself. Beating yourself up will only make it worse.

We have to keep learning the same lessons over and over, so maybe the emotional aspect is what you need to learn this time to move through this.

Good luck, and be well-

Sally

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WESCOBAR 4/11/2010 5:07PM

    Forgive yourself. You're not a loser! You are a loser as in losing the old self. Just take a moment and write out what you've learned and learning now. Just write and explore your lessons.

I suggest that you write out a proposal to yourself as to the reasons and what it would mean to you to be healthy. Create a plan that works with you. Make small changes.

I've gone through the same thing myself. I finally had it out with myself and read myself the riot act outloud. I told myself to cut the games and negative talk and get with the program. I told my negative mental talk to take a hike and the mind to get with the program, I'm in charge and those voice need to shut up. It was an experience but sure helped me get over the mental hump. Find out who those voices are and show them who is boss.



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BARCINTL 4/11/2010 3:06PM

    "Shrink Yourself" is really going to help you--look at the website at www.shrinkyourself.com. Sometimes, adding one new tactic to your weight loss arsenal gives you renewed enthusiasm for your journey. Once you stop using food as a weapon or as comfort, you will find you no longer fear yourself sabotaging yourself. You can do this!

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TXGLENNA 4/11/2010 2:08PM

  You have to let go of the past and look forward to a new journey. You may slip up but then brush yourself off and pull it together. You may have to pull yourself together several times a day at first, then it will become less and less. You will have that success that you are striving for but remember, it won't happen over night.
You are in this for the long haul and it will take time to change your mindset/eating habits but it will be for a life time! RIGHT!!?

Are you in this with me??? You can do this every minute of everyday, you can take a deep breath and refocus on your goal until it is now habit.

Take Care and you will achieve the goal that you have set for yourself!

Glenna in TX

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My baby girl

Friday, March 19, 2010

My little girl is having a birthday next week. She is going to be 19. No, not 19 months but 19 years old. I am having trouble believing all this time has passed. Here she is in college, forging her way in life and I still think of her as my baby.

I have always baked her a cake on her birthday. This is the first time ever she has been away from home. What to do, what to do. Well, send her a cake, that's what!

How does one do that? Well, this is what I came up with. I baked a cake in a disposable aluminum pan. Then I realized that it would be impossible to frost and send and have it get there looking like a birthday cake so.....I decided to pack it up and send it with the frosting and the decoration.

How does one pack a cake? LOL....well....I didn't want anything to come in contact with the cake that wasn't edible. I'm kind of a germ-a-phobe. So, I packed it in marshmallows. I piled them high, then wrapped it all in plastic wrap and then put a lid on it. I then put the frosting, two spatulas, candles with a "1" and a"9" and a birthday card from mom. Then, I sent the entire package to her roommate! I am hoping that her girlfriends will frost and decorate the cake and surprise her on her birthday!! Oh well, we can hope!! Yes, I sent instructions too!

I miss her. I miss the young lady she has become and I miss that adorable little girl I used to have tea parties with and play barbie. One I will get back, one will be a wonderful memory.

There really is nothing like a little girl.

  
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BARCINTL 3/22/2010 11:23AM

    Hell, that convinced me--I'm going to have another one! (child or cake? I'll let you guess!)

J/K...you're a great mom...she'd better appreciate it! emoticon

Dawn...

btw, isn't this a great emoticon for me: emoticon

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MOMMABOF7 3/21/2010 9:45PM

    Awww! how sweet! I only have smelly boys! but I hope to have a granddaughter in the next few years...My oldest son married last fall.

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HEALTHYJOANN 3/21/2010 4:18AM

    I understand completely. My twin babies are 30!

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TAYLORLIV31 3/20/2010 10:27PM

    That is too sweet! Happy Birthday to you Mom, it's a celebration for you as well! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GIRLINMOTION 3/19/2010 9:32PM

    What a great idea, especially getting her room mates involved too.

HUGS

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DOROTA7 3/19/2010 8:39PM

    I understand you well,my babies just turn 25 and 22!I miss them!

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Trying to stay the course

Thursday, March 18, 2010

I am still up 1/2 pound. I know it's not much but the scale hasn't budged in days. i don't get it. I'm eating great, trying to be as active as I can yet nothing seems to move that scale.

I do have to admit that the "fat" pants I have been wearing for work are getting pretty loose. That's a good thing.

The treadmill people finally called me. Apparently I have a "software" issue in the console. They are sending me a new console and parts etc and having a technician call next week. It should be fixed just in time for me to leave for So. Carolina for the holidays.

Wish me luck!

  
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BARCINTL 3/19/2010 11:02AM

    I know--it's very frustrating when you're doing everything right and still you don't see a drop. Stick with it and you will, I promise. Glad the tech people called and just think--your treadmill will be fixed just in time to help you stay consistent when the weather isn't good enough to walk the lake.

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GIRLINMOTION 3/18/2010 10:53AM

    Good luck with the treadmill people.
Good luck with your trip.

I wish you many shamrocks at your feet to freshen you path, and may a rainbow keep your home lush!!! The next sunrise is always the best!!

HUGS

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ARGHHHH!!!!

Monday, March 15, 2010

Finally, finally my treadmill came. They set it up and I was so excited. I got on it three days in a row, just walking and getting back into a rhythm. I was so happy and in just three days I was down an entire pound.

Now it's dead. My treadmill just doesn't work. I called the company and they said it will take 2 to 3 days until someone from "tec" calls me to maybe walk me through a fix. Otherwise, they are going to have to repair it!!!

I HAD IT THREE DAYS!!!!

I was really looking forward to getting back into exercise. It's been difficult since I haven't been feeling well. I can't even go outside and take a walk because it's been raining so much and it's still rather cold here.

Sigh.....I was so ready.

This is me screaming....ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

  
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AL_ROX 3/17/2010 1:08PM

    Did you check your breaker? I bought a new washing machine a couple years ago assuming my old washer had broken...instead the breaker had just flipped off for some reason.

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BARCINTL 3/17/2010 12:55PM

    I am sorry for the loss of your treadmill.

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OMELYN 3/15/2010 11:12PM

    Wow, that is terrible luck. I hope that St. Patrick's day brings you a "Tech Call" and a simple explanation/fix in a luck of the Irish sort of way.Other than that Shalom works well, too, I just don't have a connection on that side. Either that or offer to broadcast the brand name on Face Book and Spark.

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GIRLINMOTION 3/15/2010 9:40PM

    I feel your pain. Hopefully it is a easy repair and it won't happen again. New!!! actually they should replace it or you want to return it and get your money back?

HUGs

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TABBYARTS 3/15/2010 6:50PM

    Shalom Gayllynne. Really. Shalom! Please let us know the brand name of that treadmill. Maybe we can avoid your same misfortune. I guess you had better do lots of running in place, nu?
TEE (TabbyArts)

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