Friday, July 11, 2008
I have been steadily losing weight since the first week of February. I am very pleased that all the hard work I've put into this is finally paying off. Now I seem to have a new set of problems.
Well, the problem is exactly that. The set. With each child I gained a cup size on my bra. I started as a "B" and after my daughter was born I was a "C". Once I had my son, I was a "D". As years went by and having some health issues namely a hysterectomy and then when they thought I had breast cancer (it was benign!) I gained a lot of weight. Stress.....I went to a "DD" and believe me, my cup runneth over.
Now that I have lost close to 30 lbs. I am wearing a "C". Not a pretty "C" but a very saggy, deflated balloon "C".
So, the plastic surgeon was wonderful. She said that she could do a lift and once all was said and done, I would be a perfect "B" once again. Ha, back where I started. She is working with me on the money so that isn't the issue. Here's where I'm struggling.
I am past that 50 mark. I am single right now and looks like I will be that way into the future. Does it really matter anymore? I keep going back and forth. Who's going to see them? Well, I am for one and that's important, isn't it....but at my age? Should I really bother?
It's tough for me. I just don't know what I want to do. I keep going back and forth. If I do do this it will be when I am within 5 lbs of goal, which takes me to th end of the summer. That would be perfect timing for me as business is very slow then and I could take the time.
Has anyone done this? Would love some advice! Opinions are welcome.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
This past week every client I saw said something about me losing weight. Finally! It took 25 lbs before they noticed. How crazy is that? They all said how great I looked and that I was so small etc. It was nice.
So, how come I don't feel small? I know I am still about 14 lbs from goal and for some reason I just still feel fat. I am really watching what I eat and trying to fit in exercise when I can but when I sit down I still feel that roll of fat and when I take a shower I can see where the next weight must come from.
Yes, clothes still fit better and I'm wearing ever smaller sizes but I just don't feel "small". I am wondering if I ever will.
Just thinking out loud and wondering if anyone else feels like this.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
A couple of months ago I pulled out a pair of capris that I haven't worn in years. I put them on and couldn't close them. Not even sucking in my stomach and laying on the bed.....nope, wouldn't close. I folded them back up and put them back in the closet. I thought for sure, being down 20 lbs I would be able to wear them. I was wrong.
Today, just for the hell of it, I once again pulled them out. I looked at them and wondered if I were being hard on myself if they once again didn't fit, but.....I'm wearing them now! Yes, they are just a tad tight around the waist but I've worn them all day and I'm still breathing. Those last, nearly 7 lbs, made a huge difference!!!
Wonder what else I've got in the back of my closet *grin*. I can go shopping and not spend a dime and not even leave the comforts of my own home!! Talk about winning!!!
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