Monday, September 16, 2013
Does anyone else find a connection between those 2?
All last winter, up until about May I was going to the gym at least 4 days a week. Going hiking or walking on off days and overall keeping busy. The scale wasn't dropping fast, but it was dropping. But most importantly, I felt great.
Then summer came. I decided we were going to be out and about so much a gym membership was a waste. We had plans for the entire summer so why not use that money for that? And we had a busy summer! If you follow me on FB, you know we were on the go ALL THE TIME! It was one of the best summers of my life. And I wasn't eating a bunch of junk. The occasional hotdog at a ball game or maybe some cotton candy. But those were few and far between. What changed was my exercise routine.
I had myself convinced that because we were always on the move, I didn't have to keep to an actual fitness program. All our running around and doing would take care of that! I couldn't have been more wrong!
Now I can blame a portion of it on my thyroid. If any of you battle (and I do mean battle) hypothyroidism, you know it's a beast. It completely drains you of ALL energy no matter what you do; it makes it next to impossible to lose weight and it increases depression.
So, the end of summer rolls around and once again my thyroid blows up. I see the sun fading, the nights getting shorter and the pounds that I've put on during the summer. I'm tired; exhausted and so very sad. I don't want to get up in the morning and exercise; I don't want to eat better; I don't want to lift weights or do yoga. I just want to curl up in the bed and stay there. Weekends found their way to Netflix marathons instead of hikes and eating Lucky Charms right out of the box. YES, I did it!! It was a vicious cycle. My dr worked hard and made several changes to get my thyroid back in check but by then the damage had been done. I had given up.
Then out of the blue I got an email from an old Spark friend. Well, he's young enough to be my son but you get it. "Just checking in on you......" and I knew, I knew then I had to pick myself up. I was better than this. I KNEW better than this.
I know all the science stuff (doesn't that sound official) about nutrition and exercise and endorphins. I knew I had created my own hell by giving up on exercise and I also knew that only I could dig my way out. It wasn't going to be easy and I did have the choice. Or did I?
See, once you've felt FIT, I don't think you can really settle for anything less. At least not for the long term. And that's where I was. I couldn't just forget about it; I couldn't stay curled up in the bed or on the couch another minute. I knew I had to dig deep and find what it took to move.
Oh man was it slow going at first. It hurt....all over again. It made me winded....all over again. I felt fat and slow and clumsy.....all over again. It sucked. Big time!!! BUT, the one thing I noticed, was I didn't feel sad; I wasn't depressed and I no longer wanted to spend the day in bed or curled up on the couch. The endorphins were starting to kick back in; the metabolism was moving again and I could see the light.
The scale has finally started to move back down again and that's great. I really like that feeling! But I'm starting to feel strong again; to feel fit again and to feel healthy again. I can feel those muscles coming back and seeing a little change in my face. I look at junk food as exactly that....junk. I see my workout clothes in the laundry instead of gathering dust and it makes me smile. Fit feels good!!!
So even though I had a fun, incredible summer doing things I never would have done in the past, I learned a very valuable lesson. Exercise is exactly what it says it is. I can do all the running around and playing I want; and yes, that's good for the body. But at least for me, unless I stick to an actual exercise routine on a regular basis, depression will find it's way in and slowly but surely I'll let fitness and good health slip to the bottom of my priorities and I really won't even care too much.
If you're struggling, if you find it too hard each day to get up 30 minutes early or you're too tired at the end of the day, I challenge you.....no, I beg you. Give it 2 weeks. That's all. Just 2 weeks. Start with 10 minutes a day if that's all you can do. Then add 5 minutes; then 5 more. With everything I have I promise you that at the end of the 2 weeks, like me, you'll wonder why you ever thought you couldn't do it!!
Monday, August 19, 2013
So last week (well, half of it) was my first week back on Spark. I have decided it's way beyond time for me to get back on track. It's been a tough summer. My thyroid has blown out of control; my diabetes has blown out of control and my arthritis has blown out of control. Now mind you, I've stayed active, been eating right so I really don't know what's caused everything to go haywire. Just my weird genetically flawed body playing tricks with me once again. I had to have surgery on my face last week to have a growth removed and have been dealing with stitches down the side of my face...... just been a tough summer. So last week I decided I would get back on track with Spark. Well I kind of failed at that too.
I got on Spark; that was about it. I didn't eat well; I didn't exercise like I should and I didn't track like I should. So I don't consider that I really got back on Spark. Spark can do SO much more for me than just giving me Spark points and goodies! Spark can help keep me on track; help me to be healthy; help me to be fit. It can encourage me to eat right and exercise; above all it can help me to be healthy. And that's what I need!
The good news is, I guess, when I got on the scale this morning I hadn't gained an ounce. Not one. Schewwww! Dodged that bullet. Now granted, I didn't lose an ounce, but at least nothing came on. So for that I'm grateful.
So now, today, in this pouring rain (yet again) I will work hard this week to use Spark for it's intended purpose. To track and eat right; to get in those fitness minutes and to feel good this time next week when I get on the scale!!!
Monday, August 12, 2013
I was very excited to get on the scale this morning and see that I didn't have quite as much weight to lose as I thought I did. As I stated yesterday, my first goal is to get where I was when I REALLY left Spark about a year ago. At that time I was 183.8. I had gotten down as low as 179 but I only held that for a day or two, then I was gone. I held onto 183 for quite a while but then my thyroid went crazy and the weight started coming back up. I am proud to say I never got back over 200 lbs but still.....that 13 lbs. I've got back on feels like a thousand!
So this is where I was at 183. Gosh, I can remember how good it felt and I'm so disappointed in myself that I let it get away from me!
This is where I am today. Now, this is after exercising this morning so the picture does look a little worse than it could, but reality is reality, right??
BUT......here is my transformation picture. The before picture is where I was when I first began Spark in 2010. I was over 240 lbs. and the after picture is where I was at 183 lbs.
With focus, determination and the encouragement of my Spark friends, I know I'll be back where I was in no time! But more than seeing a smaller number on the scale and much more than seeing a difference in how I look, I'm so looking forward to feeling better! To feeling fit; to feeling strong and to feeling healthy!!!
Come join me. It's gonna be an awesome fall!!!
Sunday, August 11, 2013
I'm officially starting tomorrow. I'll update with a current picture (ugh) and my current weight (double ugh)
My first goal is going to be to get back down to the weight I was when I left Spark and that was 183.8 and then we'll take it from there. Gracious I can remember how good I felt then and swore that I'd never gain again! I'm back up somewhere around 198. 15 lbs isn't bad when you consider I originally started way back around 240 lbs., but still. All that hard work thrown away.
BUT I also know that I did it once so I can do it again!! Won't you join me??
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