Thursday, December 05, 2013
Running errands yesterday, I saw a question painted across the back window of a Jeep, "What are you doing?" There was no context, no clue about what the question had to do with, and as I drove by, I wondered.
I'm still not sure why it hit me so hard, but as I headed home and mulled the strange message over, it occurred to me that it made a difference how I read the question. It could be WHAT are you doing? What ARE you doing? What are YOU doing? or What are you DOING? And I think the way I would answer the question changed with each version.
What am I doing? Good question. What I've come away with is that I need to pay attention, to be fully present in each thing I do, to act more mindfully and with intention. I sometimes forget that each of us has a finite amount of time here, and how we spend each precious moment DOES make a difference.
Thursday, November 14, 2013
When I see myself as the little train that could, I have to remember that the character in that story was an ENGINE, not a rail car in the middle, and not the caboose!
I have to remember that to climb those hills in my life, and to keep going in the right direction no matter how I feel in the moment, I'M the one who has the power. Because of that, the results are not only my responsibility, but within my control. God provides the fuel, but it's me who needs to keep pushing. If I give over that control to anyone or anything else, then it doesn't matter how much "I think I can," because then I've become the caboose. No power. No control.
SOOOOO, after a day of being the caboose yesterday, I'm resolved to remember I'm the engine! Thanks to one of my Friends here who gave me the little train image ... I think I can, I think I can.
Friday, November 08, 2013
When I first joined SP almost exactly a year ago, I thought I was here "just" to lose weight and get healthier. I signed up for SparkCoach - one of the BEST choices I've made - and heard Chris D. describe the story of a woman who fulfilled a dream by getting a book published. Something about the way he told the story resonated with my decades-long dream of doing the same thing, and I thought, "You know, maybe I could do that, too..."
So here we are, a year later, a few pounds lighter, and much more fit. It's been a year of friends here encouraging me and telling me I COULD. And now this...can't quite believe it myself...but I just saw it on the publisher's website! My book, my cover, my name! Yikes this is exciting!
So THANK YOU everyone. Thank you for all the positive because I think THAT'S what's made the difference. And thank you, Chris. The criss-cross effect that you talked about, how success in one area of our lives helps us make strides in other areas, is indeed true.
Wow, I think I need to go run or something. Feel like I'm vibrating in place! Have a wonderful day, everyone, and THANK YOU again!
Saturday, September 21, 2013
Isn't that pretty much the whole issue most of the time, the timing?
I was in a funny place for a while, trying to figure out why I felt lost, so I just did what my father told me to do if (when!) I got lost in the woods. He told me to resist the urge to wander around, but just stay where I was until either I figured out for sure which way to go or someone found me. That long ago advice was right for this SP journey, too, because both things happened, and I'm not feeling lost anymore. The path was right there all along.
Timing. Maybe the biggest question is what's right for this moment. Sometimes it's time to just keep walking. Sometimes it's time to reassess before we keep walking. Sometimes it's time to recognize what's right instead of what's wrong. Sometimes it's time to pare tasks down to the simple things. And sometimes it's time to jump up and down, hug the people who came, pat ourselves on the back for hanging tough, and be grateful for being alive and changing. So I'm not in a funny place anymore. I'm here, right where I need to be.
Thank you Friends for being there, for not judging me, for helping me find myself, for giving me the space to reflect until the timing was right. We truly are all in this together.
Friday, August 30, 2013
...well, not funny so much as odd, I guess, at loose ends and uncomfortable, kind of like moving into a new home and not feeling "all there" yet. Please, if you were hoping to hear positive in this, please stop reading here?
I've really hesitated blogging in this funny place - don't know quite what's going on, and don't want to be negative. But this morning I realized that it always means something to me when others here share the truth of where they are, even when it's dark, and that perhaps this might help someone else, too.
I honestly don't know what's going on with me. There's nothing really wrong, in fact some exciting things have been happening, but I feel out of place and "stalled." I haven't missed a day logging in, tracking food and activity (though I've only been within my calorie range for 3-4 days out of every 7), but I haven't interacted much for weeks, and honestly feel a little lost. I seem to be just marking time when I should be marching forward.
I also feel guilty about feeling bad - I have so much to be grateful about, so much for which to give thanks.
Guess that's quite enough moaning. I know this will pass. Perhaps it's simply a matter of a few good swift kicks in the hind parts, and since that's an awkward thing to accomplish myself, I could use some help from my friends. :)
Get An Email Alert Each Time GAILANN48 Posts