Tuesday, August 06, 2013
I hit the 30lbs loss mark on June 12th (or near there) and although I kept working out and I kept eating healthy and watching my portions, no weight seemed to want to drop off me.
I think my issue was trying to find that "balance" between living a healthy lifestyle and having a social life. During the winter months, my social life was basically non-existent but now it's summer and a few friends got married (which brings everyone together) and my best friend is home (she works on the other side of the country as a teacher) so I've been going to the movies, and out for drinks... and out for dinner... and even though I try to indulge moderately, those additional calories meant I was only maintaining my weight, and not losing.
And that's ok. I'm in no huge rush to get down to my goal weight, and as long as I'm not gaining, I'm a happy girl. Besides, I had a lot of fun these past few months!
I am happy to report that for the last few weeks, I stopped weighing myself (I was sick of seeing the same number on the scale each week) and I also became a little stricter than usual with my calorie-counting. IT WORKED. I stepped on the scale last Sunday and I am now 176 lbs, which means I'm down 34 lbs in total.
I'm still working on finding that balance, and that will power to just say no to movie popcorn or those few glasses of wine... but then again, I want to be able to have popcorn every once in a while and enjoy a glass of wine with my friends. So if that means slower weight loss and a few extra workouts - I'm all over it. The point is, the scale is moving in the right direction again and I'm hoping to lose a few more pounds before I leave for my trip on the 19th of August :)
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Good morning Sparkerinos!
I have OFFICIALLY hit the 30lbs weight loss over the weekend, weighing in at 179.4lbs.
THAT'S RIGHT FOLKS. I'm in the 170's. Just barely, but there nonetheless.
I haven't been in the 170's in about 8 years or more; I have a hard time remembering.
I still have a good 40lbs or more to go before I feel like I could focus on weight maintenance, but it's more weight than I have ever ever ever lost in my 25 years of existence.
I had set an ambitious, yet realistic goal of weighing 170 lbs by July 15th, so I have 9.4 lbs to lose in a month. I won't be upset if I don't reach my goal. In my experience, I haven't been able to reach any of my goals by their deadlines - even though they're realistic. However, I always come close and end up lighter than I was when I set the goal; and that's what's important.
"The tragedy of life doesn't lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy lies in having no goals to reach." -Benjamin Mays
I only improve myself in the process of attempting to reach a goal, and so that's what I will be doing. Obviously, I'd love to hit 170 by then so I will try my best to get there.
I've also started tracking my calories again here on SP. It gets old fast for me so I don't know how long I'll keep it up, but I like to refocus and count calories for a few weeks every couple of months. It's easy to overeat when you're not tracking calories so this is kind of a psychological check-in to keep me accountable.
I hope everyone is having an excellent week!
Tuesday, June 04, 2013
For those of you who may be wondering how I made out with Kris Gethinís 12-Week trainerÖ Well, it wasnít good. I stopped doing it after about 4 weeks. I enjoyed the program because it was challenging but for some reason, I wasnít dropping any weight even though I was training really hard. I need to stop obsessing about what works for other people and focus on what works for my body.
Even though I love weight training, I have reduced my training to 3 days per week (Day 1: chest, triceps, shoulders. Day 2: legs and abs. Day 3: back and biceps). The rest of the time, Iíll be doing cardio. Iíve been doing this for the past month or so and have lost about 6 pounds. Itís a much better change.
Iíve also been doing the clean eating thing for months now and although I was rigid about what I did and did not eat, I am allowing myself more flexibility in an attempt to turn this into a sustainable lifestyle. Itís a learning process for sure, but one thing I do know is that eating clean 80-90% of the time makes me feel great and helps me lose weightÖ I also know that eating 3 meals and 2-3 snacks a day keeps me sane and prevents binge cravings as long as I manage my portionsÖ and I know that exercise helps me sleep and makes me feel strong and confident.
If I focus on those four pillars: eat clean, eat often, eat the right portions and workout hard Ė I will achieve my goals.
The biggest hurdle is being patient. I will not wake up tomorrow and weigh 150 lbs. I have to stay consistent and believe that the daily efforts I put in will pay off.
I am down 29 pounds, which at one point, I never believed I could lose.
Consistency and patience are key.
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
I have a lot of updates!
The past few weeks have been a little hectic and I havenít been on SparkPeople very much. I do think itís time to update you all on what has been going on.
Weight-wise, Iíve been doing great. Iíve lost another 4 lbs since the last time I posted a blog which brings me to a total of 29 lbs lost! Iíve never lost this much weight in my life so that in and of itself is exciting.
People are noticing my weight loss more and more. I keep getting comments from random people at the gym (if people who donít even know me are noticing, thatís awesome!).
Iíve also gone from size 14 pants (I was squeezing into them) to wearing a size 12 comfortably (my hips arenít really shrinking much but thatís okay Ė I like my hips). Iíve also gone from wearing XL shirts and jackets to buying size L.
Iíve also beaten many personal bests at the gym. I ran a sprint at 9mph, squat 135 lbs, 315 lbs standing calf raises, 135 lbs bench press, 135 lbs deadlifts, 50lbs each hand dumbbell press, etc etc.
I just keep getting stronger and stronger and that makes me really excited about how strong Iíll be another year from now.
Now that youíre up to date on how fitness/weight loss journey, I can give you an update about my personal life.
After a year of exams, tests and interviews, I was FINALLY offered a permanent, full-time position with the federal government. YAY!!! This is insanely exciting since I have been out of school for one year and Iíve already landed a permanent job with the government. Most of my colleagues with MPAs are still looking for work or back at their old jobs.
This means I have to move to a different city (approximately a 2-hour drive away), but lucky for me, that city is actually my hometown. My father has been completely gutting and renovating my grandparentsí old homestead (they both passed away 10+ years ago but my mom inherited the house and rented it out for a number of years). The house should be live-in ready by July and guess whatÖ Iím buying it!
Thatís right, Iíll be living as a single woman (with her fur babies) in a beautiful 2-story, 4-bedroom home with a finished basement.
Financially, I feel so confident and secure about my future, and thatís something I didnít think I would feel for another 5 years.
I wonít lie to you all though; I am worried about how the transition to a new job, new city, new home, new gym, etc. will impact my healthy lifestyle. Iíd like to think the transition will be smooth but being the realist that I am, I know there will be challenges. I think once we get closer to moving time, I can plan to stock the house with healthful foods and I think I need to reacquaint myself with my old gym as soon as possible. The worst thing I could do is postpone joining a gym. I have good momentum going and I fear losing it if I stop for even a week.
One good thing about buying my own home (and being the sole occupant of said home) is the flexibility I have to turn the extra rooms into awesome spaces for me! For example, my basement den area will become a home gym. I already have a few pieces of cardio equipment (bike and elliptical), a few free weights, an exercise ball, tons of mats, and a varied selection of workout DVDs. Iíll be living in the country and I know that on stormy winter days, thereís no way Iím driving to the gym.
I will also be turning one of the bedrooms into an Art Studio. I have always loved painting and drawing and now, thereís this small bedroom upstairs that will be dedicated to just that.
I am so beyond excited. Everything is working out as I planned it to.
I keep a gratitude journal and on the first page, I wrote down some goals (this was about 2 years ago). I said I wanted to lose weight and be healthy; that I wanted to get a permanent job with the federal government in my hometown; and that I wanted to buy my grandparentsí home. I guess when you truly believe something and work towards it, all your dreams can come true.
I hope you all have a fantastic week
Thursday, May 02, 2013
Yesterday, I went to the grocery store to buy milk and veggies.
I literally filled up one of those hand-held carts with tons of vegetables for salads, for cooking, etc.
While I was going through the check-out, the cashier started talking to me about her efforts towards shaping up (she was a slim girl in her 20's - not at all overweight in my opinion). I think the contents of my cart sparked the conversation.
Anyways, we were talking about a lot of things. Health is a favourite topic of mine so we were casually chatting away. At one point, I told her I had been working out steadily for a year and a half. At this point, she probably felt as though she earned the right to ask: "How much weight have you lost?".
"25lbs!", I answered.
Instead of the "Wow, that's great, congrats, etc etc" I was expecting, I got an "Oh".
I immediately, reflexively, went on the defense, explaining how I only cleaned up my diet the last few months and that's when the weight started coming off. I also lose very slowly (1lb a week at the most).
"How often do you work out though?" she asks.
"5 days of weight training but cardio 6 times a week", I answered... proudly.
"Well how long are your workouts?", she asks. I can almost smell the judgment at this point.
"Anywhere from 1-2 hours. Maybe more on days where I train multiple muscle groups", I answered, feeling quite uncomfortable at this point.
"You're probably overtraining and hit a plateau" she says....
This is where I got kind of snippy, annoyed with her judgmental tone and questions about my workouts. "I don't believe in overtraining", I said... which is true. I believe in rest, but I don't believe in overtraining. Can you really "believe" in something like that? It's not like a religion or anything...
And a what? A plateau? I lose 1 pound a week, at the most. That's the MOST I can lose. I don't see where she thinks I've hit a plateau. I've been losing slowly but steadily for the past few months. Apparently I just haven't lost enough weight yet. Gee, thanks.
At this point, there was a customer behind me waiting to be checked out, so she wished me a good night, I bid her the same and went on my way.
The defensiveness was just pouring out of my mouth hole and there was no controlling it, and I felt awful when I left the store.
Sure, it wasn't really any of her business how my body chooses to lose weight... and it sure wasn't her place to judge me when she just admitted to eating fried chicken after her workout... but it still got to me.
My weight loss efforts have never been good enough. I always felt my mother judging everything I did for exercise (she has never worked out a day in her life) and everything I ate (to this day, I have anxiety eating in front of my mother, even if it's a salad - and she is definitely not a health nut).
The conversation I had with the cashier, although she was being nice and I'm sure she wasn't intentionally trying to be judgmental, brought me back to the feeling of arguing with my mom about my weight.
It got me thinking...
I'm proud of what I've accomplished and I'm proud of the changes I've made in my body. I have gained an insane amount of strength during the last year and a half and am among one of the strongest women at my gym (and am often told so by men and women alike). I have dropped 24-ish pounds and gained who knows how many pounds of muscle. I have lost 16.5inches of flab around my body. I am proud of what I have accomplished.
I need to stop defending my actions to anyone but myself. I am accountable to myself. No one else.
So I went home and made some bad-ass salads for the next few days, and read my fitness magazine... because nothing will deter me from the path I'm on. No amount of judgment from the outside world will keep me from moving forward. Sure, I may not weigh 130 lbs (yet) but I could probably outdo most 130 pounders in the gym and in the kitchen.
I should not be underestimated because of my slow progress. Slow progress is still progress and when I reach my ultimate goal weight, I will probably have worked twice as hard as the average person to burn it off and that will only make me twice as strong, twice as perseverant and twice as appreciative of my self for committing to change and actually doing it, even though my body resisted.
So that's my rant for today. Even though I experienced something slightly negative yesterday, I had to try and find the positive in it and it gave me the opportunity to look inside myself and see what was really going on.
I hope that some of you can relate to this post and that it may help you see the bright side of things because truth be told, we will always be faced with judgment - thin or overweight - so it's time we learn to deal with it in a constructive and positive way instead of letting it tear us down.
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