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July 5: starting over

Tuesday, July 05, 2011

I am way out of control and not doing what I am suppose to be doing. I am struggling.

Deep breath.

Starting over.

Current weight as of today: 138.5

This makes me sad because I had gotten to my goal weight of 124 and did okay with maintenance for a while but then then in January 2010 I lost my Dad and everything food wise turned into a battle.

I can do it. I know I can. It's just such a mental battle and I constantly feel like I am failing. I need to bring positive thinking back... where it went I do not know.

One thing I have going for me, I'm still consistent in the cardio department. Just need to work on my strength training.

Time to make some good choices.



My word for 2011 and getting back on track

Tuesday, January 04, 2011

I donít really do resolutions, I pick a word that helps keep me focused over the course of the year.

In 2008 my word was FOCUS.
In 2009 my word was DETERMINED.
In 2010 my word was POSITIVE.

This year, for 2011, my word is DO.

I wanted a word that would encompass all that I want to accomplish, focus on, deal with, one that would help me get to my goalsÖ all I wanted to do. No more excuses, no more second guessing, no more over thinking, just doing. I wish I had some eloquent way to explain it. It makes sense in my head and I guess thatís all that matters. It's a small word but it says so much! In 2011 I am going to DO.

Getting back on trackÖ today I went for the trifecta of refocusing:

1. Weighing in (up 1 lb. from the holidays)
2. Taking measurements (mid section expanded)
3. Taking before pictures (thighs, abs, butt! oh my!)

Taking those pictures Ė no, uploading and viewing those pictures Ė was brutal. What 9 pounds can do to your body (and your self esteem!) is not a good thing.

Let me just say that Iím not good at putting it all out there publically when it comes to weight loss, which is why I donít blog on Spark a lot. I do however use the heck out of the Journal in the planner section. Iím thinking putting myself out there a bit more might be helpful in achieving my goals so here I am. That being said, I donít think Iíll be sharing those before pictures until thereís been some progress in the rear end shrinkage department.

On Sunday I started with the 28 Day Bootcamp Workout Challenge. I needed something to focus on, a do this step-by-step kind of thing to get me back on track. In November I got rather lacks with my strength training but was keeping up with cardio. In December, I started getting lacks with cardio tooÖ needless to say my exercise minutes for December were way down. Today was day 3 of the challenge, so far so good. In my head Iím feeling much better about things so thatís a step in the right direction.

Iím starting at 133 lbs. wanting to get back down to 124 lbs. I have 9 lbs. to lose.

I started Spark in 08. It took me a year to lose 24 lbs. I was focused through that year even though it took forever, my head was in a good place with it all. Gaining weight back however, makes me feel like I failed and itís hard to regain that positive outlook. Iím working on it. Itís not the end of the world, I know. Itís my battle and thatís why Iím here.

Iím looking forward to some definition in my abs again that's for sure.

Thanks for stopping by! :-)


summer recap and 30 Day Slim Down

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Summer was a struggle with everyone home. That pretty much sums it up. I made way to many excuses for myself. My eating was decent some days and other days... well, it got the "screw it" attitude." I started at 132 and I'm at 131.5. I'd drop a few and gain a few so I'm pretty much right where I was. I never gave up but it was definitely hard. I did get all my cardio in but a little over a month or so ago I stopped doing any strength training. I feel much flabbier now than I did at the beginning of summer.

The kids started school on Monday which means I am out of excuses. I decided to throw myself back into it full force and do Jillian Michael's 30 Day Slim Down Program. I bought the two DVD's I was missing and got started. Monday was good and I wasn't sore. Woke up Tuesday sore and was really sore last night. Today is No More Trouble Zones and I am nervous about it. I know I can do it but nervous just the same because I don't know what to expect. Not gonna lie - the days there are 2 videos/workouts scare the heck out of me! One day at a time I guess.

I need to go to preplan some meals and go to the grocery store, I really need to focus on lunches. As long as I'm prepared then good choices are easy. I also need to figure out some healthy, filling snacks. I've been going over my calories but the majority of time it's because I feel really hungry - my body feels. I seem to be having low blood sugar issues. I'm hoping with better and more balanced snacks that this will help.

I want to give a special thank you to SWEATPEA0214 for every "like" and comment, I've felt like I've had my own personal little cheerleader even when I was struggling and all that support really, REALLY helped! Thanks you so much! She's an absolutely inspiration!!!

I'm going to try and do better about updating... not sure about the video blogging. After my last one I got a rude comment that I deleted and don't know if I want to deal with that. Hard enough putting it all out there without being criticized for it.

Alright, G out! Have a great week!

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MOMSCRZR 8/25/2010 9:31AM

    Good luck on your 30-Day Slimdown! Jillian Michaels scares the heck out me...LOL. emoticon

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recap of my week

Thursday, June 24, 2010

I decided there was no "diet" police so I went ahead and opened Yoga Meltdown. I did it today... so glad I did. It's right up my alley and like it so much better than Shred. I like Shred, don't get me wrong, but I prefer my cardio on the elliptical so the exercises in Yoga Meltdown suit me better. I'll still do Shred every once in a while to mix it up but probably not to often.

Recap of my week
Weighed in on Tuesday. Not what I was excepting or wanting. Up a half pound. I'm sure there might have been some logical reason but I wasn't ready for any type of perspective so Tuesday turned into a pretty crap day... part of Wednesday too. It's like all logical and positive thoughts left my brain. What's that saying about being your own worst critic? That was so me.

I think that's part of the reason I decided to open Yoga Meltdown. I really thought I'd go down 1.5 lbs. and get to open it. I was so looking forward to doing it and not doing Shred. I was ready to try something new! So when it didn't happen, I was angry with myself. This morning I decided it was rather stupid that I was beating myself up over a workout DVD and a half pound. So I opened it...

I think that means I'll pretty much skip my midway incentive and focus on the big goal. One day at a time. Thinking logically.

I know better than to beat myself up like that and yet it happened anyway. I hate to admit that. It's so hard to put it all out there. But I know I'm not alone so I do... one of the reasons I started blogging here on Spark.

A note about me saying "diet" police... I hate the word diet but "healthy lifestyle police" didn't have the same ring.

Here's to a better attitude and outlook!

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SONYARODRI29 7/6/2010 10:01AM

    LOL...You made me laugh with the "diet police" at the end of your blog...I hate the word diet too...and it seems like the other isn't right either. How do you like the Yoga Meltdown? emoticon

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FERRFERR 6/25/2010 12:01AM

  Beating yourself up doesn't do much good. I've realized that. Like tonight my eating pizza and choosing to get a tub of cookie dough. I know I could have made a better choice, but I felt like it, and there's not good reason to deprive myself as I know it will only make things worse. So long as I make right choices the rest of the day, and don't get off course over the weekend.

Perhaps Yoga MeltDown will help that 1.5 pounds come off and it will be just what you needed to begin with. I might give it a try tonight since I've not done my exercise yet today and I really don't feel like the ass handing I get doing NMTZ or 30DS. emoticon

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Today is one of those days that I am reminded why I love to exercise

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Long story short, I woke up the wrong side of the bed.

I didn't want to workout. I texted my husband and wrote, "not looking forward to my workout today. I'll do it but I don't have to be happy about it."

I walked the dog before I got started. It's so humid where I live it sucks the life out of you. The humidity gave me something else to grumble about and it made me dread my workout even more.

I did the Shred today. I started with a bad attitude. I made unnecessary commentary that Jillian couldn't hear underneath my breath. I was hating it... but I was doing it.

Half way through I realized I had stopped complaining. I was focused, doing everything with perfect form, and on pace... I repeat, on pace. [insert pat on the back here]

Once I was done, I did extra stretches. I laid an the floor smiling to myself because:
1. I did it.
2. I didn't quit.
3. I stayed on pace.
4. I finished.
5. My bad attitude was gone.

Today is one of those days that I am reminded why I love to exercise. Because today was more than just a workout for my body, it was a release of whatever crap was giving me a bad attitude, my tension just melted away. Whatever pent up anxiety I was having is gone. Just gone. I love that feeling where I take a deep breath and feel completely accomplished, proud of myself, and totally relaxed! I love what exercise does for the inner me as well as the outer me.

I guess waking up on the wrong side of the bed paid off because I'm feeling pretty good about myself right now. :-)

Here's to great workouts, I hope you have a good one too!!!

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GEKKO1 6/19/2010 10:55AM

    Working out always releases those " Woo Hoo" cells in the body! The hardest part is getting TO the workout! So, congrats!

Though there was fussin and cussin, you made it to the workout, which in turn, released that good attitude that makes everything better; including our bodies!

Good Fight!



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KITCORPS100 6/18/2010 11:04PM

    i have found that even though we are not looking forward to certain things that once we get started we feel much better and when done well the satisfaction is even greater. WTG on your perseverance.

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REBECCA-LICIOUS 6/17/2010 10:37PM

  So glad I'm not the only one who adds "color commentary" to the Shred.

Your blog made me see the attitude problem that was keeping me from making my goal of 60 minutes of cardio/seven days a week. Thinking I had 60 minutes in front of me was making me grouchy and making it much easier to skip a workout entirely.

Adjusting my daily goal to 30 minutes means it will be MUCH easier to surpass my goal every day and say goodbye to that bad attitude.

Thanks for the inspiration!

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FERRFERR 6/17/2010 1:41PM

  I'm funny because when I come home from the gym and my kids are being epic turds I turn into an instant grump, even if I was perfectly fine before I left. Though if things are good then I stay in a good mood.

Good on you for turning your mood around and sticking to it. emoticon emoticon

Oh and I don't even bother to say things under my breath. You should have heard me during "10 Minute Solution: Yoga" ... "Woman, you're crazy, I can't do that .. lay down the crack pipe ... can't you see I'm FAT?!" emoticon

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HEALTHY_45 6/17/2010 10:33AM

    Great post! I totally know how you feel, but it's evening workouts for me. There are days when I just want to sit on the couch and watch Jillian and her girls work out, but I alway do the workout and feel better when it's done. I am so proud that I am actually accomplishing something now.
You are doing great, keep up the emoticon job!

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