Tuesday, July 05, 2011
I am way out of control and not doing what I am suppose to be doing. I am struggling.
Current weight as of today: 138.5
This makes me sad because I had gotten to my goal weight of 124 and did okay with maintenance for a while but then then in January 2010 I lost my Dad and everything food wise turned into a battle.
I can do it. I know I can. It's just such a mental battle and I constantly feel like I am failing. I need to bring positive thinking back... where it went I do not know.
One thing I have going for me, I'm still consistent in the cardio department. Just need to work on my strength training.
Time to make some good choices.
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
I donít really do resolutions, I pick a word that helps keep me focused over the course of the year.
In 2008 my word was FOCUS.
In 2009 my word was DETERMINED.
In 2010 my word was POSITIVE.
This year, for 2011, my word is DO.
I wanted a word that would encompass all that I want to accomplish, focus on, deal with, one that would help me get to my goalsÖ all I wanted to do. No more excuses, no more second guessing, no more over thinking, just doing. I wish I had some eloquent way to explain it. It makes sense in my head and I guess thatís all that matters. It's a small word but it says so much! In 2011 I am going to DO.
Getting back on trackÖ today I went for the trifecta of refocusing:
1. Weighing in (up 1 lb. from the holidays)
2. Taking measurements (mid section expanded)
3. Taking before pictures (thighs, abs, butt! oh my!)
Taking those pictures Ė no, uploading and viewing those pictures Ė was brutal. What 9 pounds can do to your body (and your self esteem!) is not a good thing.
Let me just say that Iím not good at putting it all out there publically when it comes to weight loss, which is why I donít blog on Spark a lot. I do however use the heck out of the Journal in the planner section. Iím thinking putting myself out there a bit more might be helpful in achieving my goals so here I am. That being said, I donít think Iíll be sharing those before pictures until thereís been some progress in the rear end shrinkage department.
On Sunday I started with the 28 Day Bootcamp Workout Challenge. I needed something to focus on, a do this step-by-step kind of thing to get me back on track. In November I got rather lacks with my strength training but was keeping up with cardio. In December, I started getting lacks with cardio tooÖ needless to say my exercise minutes for December were way down. Today was day 3 of the challenge, so far so good. In my head Iím feeling much better about things so thatís a step in the right direction.
Iím starting at 133 lbs. wanting to get back down to 124 lbs. I have 9 lbs. to lose.
I started Spark in 08. It took me a year to lose 24 lbs. I was focused through that year even though it took forever, my head was in a good place with it all. Gaining weight back however, makes me feel like I failed and itís hard to regain that positive outlook. Iím working on it. Itís not the end of the world, I know. Itís my battle and thatís why Iím here.
Iím looking forward to some definition in my abs again that's for sure.
Thanks for stopping by! :-)
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Long story short, I woke up the wrong side of the bed.
I didn't want to workout. I texted my husband and wrote, "not looking forward to my workout today. I'll do it but I don't have to be happy about it."
I walked the dog before I got started. It's so humid where I live it sucks the life out of you. The humidity gave me something else to grumble about and it made me dread my workout even more.
I did the Shred today. I started with a bad attitude. I made unnecessary commentary that Jillian couldn't hear underneath my breath. I was hating it... but I was doing it.
Half way through I realized I had stopped complaining. I was focused, doing everything with perfect form, and on pace... I repeat, on pace. [insert pat on the back here]
Once I was done, I did extra stretches. I laid an the floor smiling to myself because:
1. I did it.
2. I didn't quit.
3. I stayed on pace.
4. I finished.
5. My bad attitude was gone.
Today is one of those days that I am reminded why I love to exercise. Because today was more than just a workout for my body, it was a release of whatever crap was giving me a bad attitude, my tension just melted away. Whatever pent up anxiety I was having is gone. Just gone. I love that feeling where I take a deep breath and feel completely accomplished, proud of myself, and totally relaxed! I love what exercise does for the inner me as well as the outer me.
I guess waking up on the wrong side of the bed paid off because I'm feeling pretty good about myself right now. :-)
Here's to great workouts, I hope you have a good one too!!!
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