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For now it's not about the weight loss.....it's about stress release.

Saturday, August 24, 2013

I was just getting back on track with my last blog entry dated June 14th. I find that date ironic right now. That was the last day of life as I knew it. I look back and wonder what I would of done differently that day if I'd know how my world was going to change the very next day. Before I say what happened I want to say I'm not posting this for sympathy, just an FYI.

On June 15th, my father was in an accident at his business. He was crushed under half of a big oil field tank that his workers were working on processing for scrap metal. It has been a long 10 weeks since that accident. So much has happened and is still happening. I haven't let myself really think about things to much. I just do what has to be done each day. My Dad is now a quadraplegic. There is hope that he will regain some use of his hands and his legs, but how much they just can't say. He could get back some use but not be able to hold himself up when he stands, or he could not gain anything back.....just don't know yet. First we need to get him out of the ICU and into a rehab facility.

So for 10 weeks I haven't been able to really focus much if any time on myself for weight loss. In fact that's the furthest thing from my mind. I did start this last Sunday with using my treadmill again. I decided I had to do something to release some of this stress that is consuming my life. I found that when I get in a walk I don't get near as stressed through the rest of the day. So my "me time" is spending an hour on the treadmill of a morning.

That hour is the only time I have for me. To just clear my mind and kind forget about all the things I have to do for my family for the day. To just focus on my breathing and putting one foot in front of the other. And it's helping me to not fight with the boy friend right now, as all this stress has made us start arguing a bunch.

So for now my walking is not about the weight loss.....it's all about the stress release so I don't go nuts.

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TATTER3 8/24/2013 9:33PM

    I'm so sorry about your father! Take it day at a time...just like you already are. Prayers.

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TRYINGTOLOSE64 8/24/2013 8:31PM

    Sorry about your father!! They don't know how much he'll get back because a lot of it depends on him. I hope he improves vastly!!

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CR_EDWARDS_2015 8/24/2013 4:20PM

    I love you my friend, and I want you to know that I am here for you, as you go through this hard time. :( I have faith in you, and I know when you are able to focus on weight loss, you will. I know how important weight loss is to you. I am here for you always Mel!!!

Love Your Friend,

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Sometimes ..... SOMETHING

Friday, June 14, 2013

Sometimes I just don't want to do it. Sometimes I just feel like enough is enough and I'll just accept that I am obese and always will be.

Sometimes I give in to these thoughts. Sometimes I sit and cry thinking I just can't do it. Sometimes I wonder why I am struggling so much.

Sometimes I come here and read the blogs and posts and dream about being like those other people. Sometimes I wonder how come they are succeeding and I'm not.

Sometimes it's just so HARD and Sometimes I don't WANT to go on.


That's when I just have to remind myself that by listening to those Sometimes is what got me where I started.

That's when I dig deep and remind myself that I have to change those Sometimes into SOMETHINGs.

I have to find SOMETHING different.

I have to choose SOMETHING better for myself.

I have to prepare SOMETHING healthier to eat.

I have to do SOMETHING.

So when the Sometimes show up, I try to turn it into a SOMETHING.

This morning I did SOMETHING......I chose to exercise and to eat a healthy breakfast.

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TATTER3 6/14/2013 3:40PM

    You really are something!!! Thanks for the blog! Keep Sparkin'!!

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KAT321123 6/14/2013 10:19AM

    Good for you for finding a "something" this morning. It can be SO hard to combat that little voice in the back of your head giving you excuses and telling you that you can't succeed. But it is SO worth it to be able to prove that voice wrong =)

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DMEYER4 6/14/2013 7:02AM

  great blog thanks for sharing

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I'm learning

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Learning that I can't do this on my own. I learned a few things the last time I was here....then I thought ok I can do this on my own. WRONG.

I can't do this without checking in, without logging my food and exercise, without the blogs and friends here for support.

I got rid of the elliptical btw. I found out it was broken. The resistance was out of it. So now I have a treadmill. I'm getting the feel for it, as walking on a treadmill is different than walking outside.

I started out at 1.5 mph for half a mile. Then up to 2 mph for 3/4 mile. Tonight I did 2.5 mph for 1 whole mile. It took me 26 minutes and got my heart rate up to 154. I was beat by the time I was done.

Anyways, I'm back and ready to get this weight off and get back to my healthier habits.

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TATTER3 6/11/2013 6:42AM

    Keep Sparkin'!!

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A Quilting I Will Go

Sunday, January 27, 2013

I'm keeping busy with quilting. I made the quilt top over 5 years ago but due to health issue I just couldn't get it in the frames until a few days ago. I've been quilting away on it, but it does get tiring on the ole back and fingers. I'll be working on it for the next 8 to 10 weeks or so.....that's about how long it should take. It's a queen/king size with LOTS of stitching on it. There's stitching every inch and a half on it. It's the most stitching I've ever done on 1 quilt before.

The quilt top pattern is called "If the Irish were Amish". It's a very pretty quilt made in burgandies and creams. The back is cream also, and I'm stitching it in burgandy so the stitching design will show up on the back. I'm looking forward to finishing it. It's the first quilt I've made for myself in a very very long time.

A plus about my quilting.....it keeps my mind off of food. I have to set timers to even remind myself to go eat, go let the dogs in or out, etc. So it's good busy work to quilt.

My Quilt From the Top:

Close Up of Top and Quilting I've done so far:

Quilting pattern on Back of Quilt:

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TATTER3 1/27/2013 9:22PM

    This is absolutely beautiful!!

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MIRFA71 1/27/2013 1:29PM

    emoticon very beautiful.

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KKKAREN 1/27/2013 5:34AM

    Great job!! I just finished one but I do machine quilting, it's not near as nice as yours.

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LILYBELLE12 1/27/2013 5:02AM

    Your quilt is beautiful! I have some quilt squares I want to embroidery and put together and I have a quilt frame and the batting to make the quilt (a King Size), I just need to pick out my back for it once I decide on the embroidery colors. I love sewing, embroidery, quilting, needlepoint, and crochet! I am currently crocheting a Baby Blanket for a much younger (30 years younger) cousin who just had her second Baby, a little girl, in December. I agree working on projects with your hands definitely keeps your mind off of eating!!!!

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Making exercise tracking fun...

Friday, January 11, 2013

....I absolutely hate tracking my food, my exercise, my water intake, my weight, my measurements, etc.

But since I've had a few months off from exercising due to health, I'm struggling to get back on track.

So I found these cute little stickers......

and these......

I plan to put one of these on my mini calander every day that I work out. My goal is to have a whole month filled with smilies!!!!

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TURTLETALK 1/11/2013 2:40PM


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OSDOWNS 1/11/2013 8:21AM

    Good idea!

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TATTER3 1/11/2013 7:05AM

    Cute! Keep Sparkin'!!!

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