Wednesday, January 05, 2011
Well today is day 5 without smoking, not one! N.O.P.E
I can't say it's been extremely hard but it's been no cake walk either! Day three I really thought I was going to lose it, it was one constant crave from the time I woke up until about 8pm that night. I was happy that during that day I didn't have to be around anyone because I was afraid of what I may do
Day four was my first day back to work in two weeks and I was grateful for the distraction. I was so busy at work that I didn't think about smoking at all, that is until I got in the car to come home.
The car has always been an issue for me, it was the one place where I was alone to smoke and being a closet smoker this was my downfall. I had the car cleaned the day I quit so it wouldn't reek but it's still a physiological thing. But I am happy for the nicotrol inhaler that I can hold in my hand like a cigarette and that seems to do the trick.
Now for the ugly.....
I cannot stop stuffing my face! While I'm not eating junk like candy or chocolate, I am eating CONSTANTLY! I am trying my best to counter-act this with exercise, mostly the 30DS the eating does have to stop. Yesterday alone I went over my calories by 300 for the day, if I keep that up I'll gain 1.5 pounds each week!
This has always been a downfall for me, I quit, gain weight and then start smoking again. I know it shouldn't matter because smoking is alot worse than a little weight gain but it does.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated!
Saturday, January 01, 2011
"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it." ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
That quote was given to me by my yoga instructor this morning while I was taking a 2 hour yoga class. I thought this was a perfect way to start the New Year and my first day smoke free. While I have alot of support here on spark and on Quitnet.com there is nobody in my 3D life that knows I smoke, well that changed today. After a very fulfilling yoga class the instructor invited us afterwards for some chia tea, pumpkin bread and friendship. As we were all conversing about our intentions for the new year or whatever we were feeling at that moment, I fessed up and told the group that today was my first day smoke free. I was overwhelmed by the support, congratulations and similar stories from these new friends.
I left the yoga studio with a new sense of pride and commitment to this quit, not realizing before this that I do need the support of 3D friends no matter how much online support I get.
I have also been juicing all day, with a great plan from my nutrionist, to help cleanse the toxins from my body. I thought for sure that I would be hungry and cranky, I mean who gives up food and cigs the same day but I actually believe now that it's helping the smoke cravings since I don't have that 'after meal' pang to have a cigarette. I will be sure to thank her later in an email.
All in all, day one has been relatively painless, just had to remind myself a couple of times that I don't smoke anymore when I've absentmindedly went looking for my pack. Duh!
Thank you all for your support, you are all wonderful
Thursday, December 30, 2010
I am quitting on 1.1.11 for the um-teenth time.
My reasons for quitting haven't changed;
I'm sick of being a slave to the nicodemon
I don't want to smell anymore
I want to be able to run without hacking up a lung
and the most important reason...
I am a closet smoker and cannot stand the lying and hiding I have to do in order to feed the monster!
The reasons for quitting never change but for some reason I lose sight of them somewhere along the way.
I want to make this quit the one that sticks, I have pull out all the stops to get ready for this one. I have my NRT lined up,I will be using yoga to help with stress, my nutrionist is helping me with a diet to help prevent or curb weight gain during my quit, one of the stupid reasons I've gone back in the past, and I've read a very helpful book to understand why I keep smoking when I hate it.
I look forward to taking this journey
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