Sunday, December 07, 2014
I've always found moderation the hardest thing. When I start to eat a food I really like, it's as though a feeding frenzy begins and I enter this altered state and couldn't stop if I wanted to. I know a lot of people handle this by simply not keeping treats and unhealthy foods in the house. For the most part this is what I do too. I go long stretches of eating really healthy and I feel good and my weight is good. It's not a diet or calorie counting, just eating real, whole foods: fruit, veggies, whole grains, some seeds and nuts, olive oil, unsweetened soy milk. Oh and tons of beans.
But then eventually it's like something snaps and I go over to the dark side and binge on something bad. The last two weeks since Thanksgiving have been a bit nuts. A friend was in town too and we went out to eat a lot. And I went to a wedding and went way overboard, so full I felt sick. Just eating lots of stuff daily I know I shouldn't. Like all bets are off, no restraint, floodgates open, ever since the holiday.
I think it's because I'm really lazy about preparing foods, so my normal MO is to eat these healthy foods pretty plain, so then when I taste something actually flavorful and yummy, it's such a huge departure from the plain, boring foods I've been eating, I go crazy.
So I think I need to work a little harder to cook and prepare foods in a way that they are still healthy, but a little more enjoyable to eat. Because I think ultimately what's happening here is subconsciously I'm feeling deprived. Maybe I also need to incorporate small treats on a regular basis, as a preventative measure. That's where the difficulty with moderation will come in. But it's worth trying to have more stability and consistency with all of this.
Sunday, July 07, 2013
I wonder how many blog posts on SP have been titled that same way. I've certainly seen a few myself. You get really into it, then fall off for one reason or another, then eventually make your way back and get excited again.
For me I'm back after 10 months. I know last time I fell off because I got this haughty idea that tracking all my food/calories every day was no way to live. Like I was above it. It seemed mentally unhealthy - obsessive even. The point of getting healthy and getting control is not to become obsessed with calories. And I didn't know how to track my food and calories WITHOUT being obsessive about it. I mean the definition of being that aware of your daily food/calorie intake is that you are essentially thinking about food and calories ALL DAY LONG. No way, you say? Just don't think about it between meals, you say? Well I need to eat every 3 hours or so. I guess it's just my metabolism, but I start to get weak if I don't. So that means eating, tracking, noting how many calories are left, doing something else, thinking about what I'm going to eat next, doing more of something else, thinking about next meal again, looking at calories of foods for next meal, planning next meal, prepping/eating, tracking, noting remaining calories, and repeat. All day long til bedtime.
If anyone out there is reading this and has any tips for getting around that I'd really appreciate it. Because I'm back and I'm planning to track (already started even) but I'm not sure how I'm going to handle that part. I always do everything obsessively, but unfortunately I'm not one of those highly productive, active people because for me what happens is the strain becomes too great and I break and give up. I want to figure this out though because I feel better when I am healthy and fit. So here goes! Best of luck to everyone with their goals. May we all find success.
This image has nothing to do with the content of this blog post, but I think it's funny so here it is. I want to start including photos in blog posts, starting now!
Wednesday, September 05, 2012
Went over my calories yesterday by around 300. Trouble started in the morning. As usual I had breakfast about 7:30am and felt famished by 10:30am. I remembered that on Friday, indulging in that hunger led to eating too many calories that day. So I decided I would be a big girl and wait til a more suitable time for lunch. I didn't think a small snack would do anything to help. I was able to wait the couple hours and then finally had my lunch and snack together. Trouble was, it wasn't enough food. I was still so hungry a half hour later. So I ate some more. Then I started getting urges to eat sweets. And because I'd been depriving myself, my brain got into this mode where it says, "no more deprivation! we're snapping the rubber band back the other way! get ready!" So I ate the sweets. It really wasn't much, about 200 calories. But then DH wasn't feeling well and kept wanting to eat toast with jam. I normally try to stay away from such things but seeing him eat it made me want to as well. So I did.
The whole day wasn't a total wash. It's only 300 calories. I'm not feeling super down about it. I may have learned a lesson though...if I'm hungry, I need to eat, and I need to eat sufficient calories. 280 calories is not going to cut it for lunch.
The interesting thing is that on days when I try to eat less, it's harder to meet my minimums for various nutrients, but on days when I eat what I want, I seem to be able to hit almost everything just fine.
Also interesting is that I wasn't on SP as much yesterday or the previous few days. Maybe if I'd been more active, things would have gone differently? Hmm.
Today I have some running around to do. I will probably feel tired and not want to go to the gym. But I'm going to make an honest effort to do so. The last time I weight trained was Sunday so I am due for it.
Love to everyone...have a great day.
Saturday, September 01, 2012
Yesterday we went out to Pala in the LES. I ate vegan thin crust pizza with daiya cheese (dairy free, made out of plants). It was amazing. It had slivered potato and zucchini on top.
How do I enter that in the food tracker? I guesstimated that the whole meal was 800 calories but I really have no idea.
Today we went to my parents and I ate salad, marinated grilled veggies, and a very small amount of vegan pesto pasta (like a third of a cup or less). How much olive oil do I enter in the tracker for the grilled veggies? I put a tablespoon but that's probably too much. For the pesto, the tracker probably thinks it had cheese and therefore was fattier than it really was.
I just did my best with the tracker...I don't know. It's so different than at home where I measure out all my food and am able to enter things in exactly correct.
Maybe that's not the point of the tracker, to be correct all the time? Maybe you should try to be correct most of the time, but just keep doing it even when you're not sure? And the point is that it keeps you accountable and allows you to see which foods have the most calories (like a reality check), so you can make smarter choices in the future?
It makes me feel like I can never eat out of the house. That can't be right though. Oh well, I guess it is a moot point because I eat in the vast majority of the time, and when I don't I can just do my best with the tracker and then hurry back to my normal routine.
We got 4 bunches of collards from the CSA today. Yay, calcium! Tomorrow I'm going to wash, dry, shred, and freeze them. Then I'll be able to microwave as needed for meals.
Yesterday was nice because I was able to fit into some shorts I hadn't been able to wear in a while. That felt good. I wonder what my weight is - haven't weighed in in about a week. But today and yesterday have been weird, food wise, so I want to wait til things normalize before I weigh myself again. Tonight it occurred to me that I might want to take measurements rather than just use weight as a marker. Since I weight train and muscle weighs more than fat. IDK, seems like a lot of effort, the measuring.
Yesterday when I wore the shorts I felt I really did look thinner. Then I ate the pizza, and today when I put the shorts on they were a little tighter. I wore them anyway, they were still fine. No one today commented that I looked like I'd lost weight or anything. I'm sitting here still in my bathing suit and looking down I don't feel thin at the moment. IDK. When I was younger my stomach was so flat! But perhaps I'm not remembering the ol' looking down view. It'll getcha every time.
Wow what a weird, rambly blog post! Gym tomorrow...can't wait to get back to normal routine. :)
Friday, August 31, 2012
Today I ate bfast at 7am. The usual - 416 calories.
I then walked 2 miles to an appt.
At 10:30am when I got out, I was pretty hungry. And I knew I had a big energy expenditure in front of me: walking .7 miles to the grocery store and then walking 1.8 miles home carrying heavy groceries (thanks Google Maps!).
So at 10:30 I ate the food I brought with me: some tempeh with lentils, quinoa, and homemade salsa. The food tracker tells me this was a 620 calorie meal, but it sure didn't feel like one. In fact when I was done I was still hungry, so I ate the almonds I brought with me, rounding the meal out to 780 cals total.
It took me an hour to make it the 1.8 miles home from the store. I had to stop numerous times during the last half to put the bags down and rest my arms. It was in the high 80s but breezy. Comfortable in the shade, pretty hot in the sun.
I made it home kinda delirious. Thing is, I didn't get enough sleep last night or the night before. And I did a lot of walking and hauling stuff around yesterday as well. So those things need to be factored in too.
I felt pretty hungry so I ate 1/3 of a package of tofu, half a baked sweet potato, and 1/2 a cup of salsa. 296 calories. I guess we're calling this dinner even though it was only about 2pm. I was making a lot of mistakes and moving really slowly, so I laid down for a 40 minute nap.
It's now 4:30pm. I have 0-58 calories left for the day. Normally by now I'd have enough left for a nice dinner and sensible snack.
I'm a little frustrated because all week I knew I'd be going out to dinner tonight. So I had in my head that I'd try to go for more salads and fruits and veggies today, with dinner as the day's big meal. But I didn't think about all the energy I was going to expend today and really every day this week. And now here we are, the day is winding down, and I didn't even really do most of the things I needed to do today.
I'm not sure I put in my food amounts properly for that tempeh meal. It seems so crazy that it would be 780 calories. But I stared at the numbers and couldn't find anything wrong.
Also I think I might be working out more than the site thinks, which means my cal range might be too low.
And finally I think I just pushed it too hard this week. Not getting enough sleep certainly made things worse.
I'm not going to try to keep it under 58 calories tonight. I'm going to go out to dinner as planned, and eat a sensible meal. Later tonight I might have a piece of fruit for a snack. It's annoying that this is going to throw today's numbers off, but they are just numbers and the truth is this is what my body needs today.
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