Sunday, November 13, 2011
Up until fairly recently, my days flowed into one another with a dulling similarity. Then I had a very traumatic experience that caused me to retreat from society and into myself. Even something simple like getting out the door to go get my mail was anxiety inducing, so I'm sure you can imagine how white-knuckled I would get going to say the doctor's office or the grocery store.
Then I discovered SparkPeople. In starting slowly and becoming confident in my ability to accomplish small goals, I became bolder and tackled larger goals. I wasn't really sure what would happen, but I pushed myself and began to see results. Two and one half months down the road, I'm amazed at where I am and what I've accomplished. And I've realized that in order to grow, I need to continue to step outside my comfort zone.
Because of the confidence I've gained from SparkPeople, my social horizons have also expanded. Sometimes I still feel like I'm pushing myself out the door, but once I get somewhere I'm fine. The best part is meeting new people and having fun - something I haven't done for quite a while. And all of this is because I've been given a gift - that challenge to grow and to change. And no matter how uncomfortable it is to me, I know now that I can overcome my fear.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Most of my life has been lived in the belief that "I can't." This self limiting mantra has brought me to where I am today physically and mentally. I don't lay blame on anyone from my past for my current situation, because I've had plenty of opportunities as an adult to make my own choices. The life I live now is a result of those choices, and I know that if I want I different life, I have to make different, and often difficult choices.
When I first encountered SparkPeople, It seemed too much for me. I had days I could barely get out of bed, let alone track my food. And exercise? You're talking to a woman who could barely make it up the 21 steps to her apartment.
But I read the success stories, and I decided to start small by tracking my water intake. After I got used to that, I tried the nutrition tracker. Then, one day I dug out a "Walking Off The Pounds" dvd. It has 2 workouts on it, a one mile walk and a 2 mile walk. I said to myself "There's no way I'll make it through the one mile workout." Well, I proved myself wrong, and I loved every minute of it. Then I started taking 2 mile walks outdoors in good weather, surprising myself again with my endurance. I'm also doing the 2 mile workout on my walking dvd. I can't always go at the intensity of the video, but, I am walking 2 miles in 30 minutes, which I never thought I'd be able to say two months ago.
I see now that "I Can" and that anything and everything is possible for me. I want to thank SparkPeople and everyone who has encouraged me along the way so far for helping me to see what I am capable of and what I can become.
Monday, October 24, 2011
This was one of those days I never want to forget - a beautiful day filled with blessings and achievements.
First of all, I was able to finish a 2 mile walk in 40 minutes. It was a gorgeous day to be outside - the sun was shining, the temperature was close to 60 and the fall colors are radiant. I breathed in the cool, fresh air deeply and was grateful to be alive.
The frosting on the cake, so to speak, was receiving my SparkPeople DVD in the mail. I won it on a daily bonus spin and am very excited now that it's here. Now I have even more variety for my cardio workout.
Then, as I was walking back to my apartment building, I caught sight of the late afternoon sun streaming through the golden leaves of a tree on the front lawn. The brilliant rays of light made the leaves glow with a beauty I can't even begin to describe. I just stood there in a state of wonder, drinking it all in.
Now, I will keep that picture in my heart for the times I feel discouraged and down - I will reach into my memory and retrieve that beautiful moment, that wonderful day - and I will be able to go on.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
My last post had to do with coming to the realization that I had moved from having to exercise to wanting to exercise. Still, I felt I was struggling with the limitations of an eating plan and was feeling some self pity over not being able to indulge in pizza and cupcakes (the one because of high cholesterol, the other because of diabetes).
Today, however, was another one of those turning points. I ate within the parameters of my SparkPeople plan and loved every minute of it. I even had a vegetarian dinner that was absolutely delicious - red meat, what red meat? My blood sugar numbers are phenomenal, my energy is up and my mind feels more clear and sharp than it has in a long time.
Now I'm over another hurdle, but I don't want to puff myself up with pride. I'm still taking small steps and realize that consistency is the key to my success. I also have a great support community, and that's the best part of all. We're all here for each other, so I know there's no way I can't succeed at this, and that's the greatest feeling in the world.
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