Monday, February 25, 2013
After running on Saturday, I overindulged in dinner and nighttime snacking. I suppose that the cravings would be normal after a rough workout, but instead of going for the cottage cheese I made myself a second burrito!
It was a really good run, and the first in a while. I did running/walking intervals - 2 mins walking/6 min running. I figured I would need a slower reintroduction. Still, I made it 4 miles in 50 minutes, so I didn't lose all of the strength and stamina I had built over the last 9 months!
Of course, the burrito binge afterwards meant that I still ate more than I burned!
I need to relearn how to manage food cravings, so my goal this week is to eliminate temptation.
When I went to the grocery store, I bought the staples and skipped the urge to start restocking my pantry. No pasta. No "easy meals" box kits. And certainly no junk foods, like chips and cookies. Just good old fashioned whole foods.
Which will hopefully make me think before I eat!
I stocked the office mini-fridge completely - greek yogurt, berries, and bananas for breakfast, salads and cottage cheese and one packet of tuna for lunch, hummus and veggies and a couple of extra greek yogurts for snacks.
NO TEMPTATION to eat out for lunch!
My danger zone is all of the board meetings and evening events throughout the week. Tuesday's meeting, we moved to a coffeehouse instead of a restaurant or a bar. Wednesday's meeting is early (5:30) and I've already told them I will need to leave by 6:15 - no time to order food, and home at a reasonable hour to cook for myself. Thursday's meeting won't start until 6:30, so I'll have time to go home and make myself something to eat before the meeting.
I have no problem letting myself have a treat every now and then. But eating out and having a drink at three + events a week isn't a treat, it's a habit - and one I need to break!
For dinners this week, I went for a couple of favorites that I haven't made in a while - vegetarian vindaloo and baigan bharta (LOVE Indian food!), and I also made some Lebanese lentils and rice.
No gluten this week. No packaged and processed foods this week. (Except for the cottage cheese and greek yogurt...) Hopefully this will get my food cravings back under control, so I can start moving forward again!
Saturday, February 23, 2013
I woke up EXCITED! Because today is the kick-off of the 5% challenge, and with my motivation still wavering after the holidays I was very ready for the start of this challenge!
The first step is to weigh in and measure, so that you can track your progress. So I stepped on the scale.
I ate out with some friends last night, and had a couple of glasses of wine. So the odds are high that it's water weight...but I weighed in at 166.7 this morning.
Last week, I was at 163.
With the fitness center closed for the past two weeks, I haven't been working out as much, and I haven't been running. So a little weight gain was to be expected...but 3.5 pounds was more than I anticipated!
But that's part of weight loss, and it's a part of being a woman. Your weight fluctuates at certain times of the month. And it's pretty easy to retain water, especially at certain times of the month.
Still, it was a little bit of a buzz-kill!
So I went downstairs to take a quick walk around the trails, and found that the fitness center has reopened!!
So I'm kicking off the 5% challenge with my first run in a while. And while I'm at a higher weight than I had anticipated, I've lost the weight before and I will again. I had a healthy breakfast of cottage cheese, and I'm heading to the grocery store this afternoon to pick up more fresh vegetables and fruit.
Ready to go!!
Thursday, February 21, 2013
A friend of mine posted this to her Facebook page today. I'm a huge fan of Spoken Word poetry, and this one is so very touching! I hope you enjoy!
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
I hear it from everyone - coworkers, friends, even strangers that I meet on the street.
I'm too nice.
Well, I should say I'm too nice until you push me too far. And as my brother says, when I get hit once too often, I set my b*!ch shields to 100%.
About three weeks ago, I blogged about a board member who was threatening me. I was debating on leaving the board because of him. And while I was still inner-monologue-ing with myself, he went that step too far and officially pissed me off.
The most beautiful thing about it? I never once doubted that I could stop him, or that I could take back my control. For three years I have been on a healthy lifestyle roller-coaster of self-control versus self-castigation...but in this fight, there wasn't either. I KNEW what I had to do. I KNEW that I wouldn't be able to respect myself if I didn't try. So I just DID it.
I don't like conflict. I don't like fighting. But when it's time to actually stand up or lie down - when there's no other option - well, I don't lie down as easily as people always seem to think I will.
It's hard to stand up to someone. So much easier to give up...to let them win rather than challenging yourself to be stronger.
And even though I should know better, it made me realize that I give in more than I should. I take the easy way out. Actually COMMITTING, completely, to a healthy lifestyle - it's too hard. It's a constant fight as you establish healthy habits. So you pick a few easy battles but keep a few "cheats" in the wings...so that you don't have to stand up all the way and take control of your health and your lifestyle.
Even though I am the NICEST person in the world 360 days a year, I have my bad days. And I have my moments where I have just been pushed too far, and I'm going to take charge and do it my way - whether you like it or not.
But I hadn't done it. I hadn't stood up to the person trying to push me off the board. And I hadn't stood up to that inner fat girl who wanted nachos and pizza and all those other bad foods. I had appeased her...by giving her what she wanted once or twice a month, in exchange for a healthier diet and lifestyle when I wasn't giving in to her demands.
But that's the trouble with appeasement. You compromise, and you get some of what you want. But you never really WIN. You find a way around the fight, because you don't want to risk losing it. And so in the end, you never really find out what you're made of, and you never find out if you're strong enough to get everything you want.
I'm not leaving the board. I'm not giving up on something I care this much about just because of one bad board member.
It's time to start applying the same principle to my lifestyle. I shouldn't just be resolved that I want to eat right and exercise...I should CHALLENGE that part of me that keeps sabotaging myself, and start fighting back for me and my health!! No self-castigations...no self-doubts...just pure purpose and a resolve that NOTHING is going to stop me from getting what I want.
I guess the moral of the blog is not to push the nice girl too far...because sometimes the nicest people are the ones who dig in their heels and refuse to budge. And right now I am firmly rooted. I'm not going to give in to one person's terrorism tactics...and I'm not going to sacrifice my health either. No more listening to those little tempting voices telling me I've earned a treat. Either I want a healthier, happier, stronger lifestyle - and I'm willing to work for it - or I don't deserve it.
Even though I was so busy already, I found time to take back control of my little corner of the board. Now it's time to start really earning the reward I want most - that healthy weight goal, the healthy body fat %, and a body that I'm not afraid to flaunt!
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