Friday, July 04, 2014
Several years ago, before I started to embrace healthier habits, I hated holidays.
Holidays meant that my family would all be together...and in my mind, they were all judging me. I've been curvy since puberty hit, but after I left for college and got up to my heaviest weight...well, I felt like holidays were a tribunal, with my whole family studying me, watching every bite I put in my mouth, and judging me for each and every one of them.
Silly, yes. Paranoid? Definitely!
But that was how I felt. It all came from inside me, rather than from any of my relatives - whom I know now are very supportive and love me as I am! Holidays just made me feel like I was on display.
The biggest - and best - change I've made is how I spend my free time. Working two more-than-full-time jobs, going back to school...I have to budget my time very carefully! And I would be lying if I said I'm eating as healthy, working out as regularly...and I have gained a few pounds because of it.
Here comes a three-day weekend, though. In the old days, I would hide in my computer and my video games, and comfort myself with food.
Not anymore! In the past few years, I have managed to declare my independence from those unhealthy habits, the trigger foods, and the self-destructive cycles that used to keep me from becoming the person that, deep down, I had always wanted to be!
Today, I started the day by going kayaking with my boyfriend and one of his work colleagues. Great start to the day! We paddled about 3-3.5 river miles in a little more than an hour, so we were moving at a pretty good pace!
After that, I rode my bike over to pick up my BFF, her boyfriend, and my goddaughter, and we rode through the park and over to my parents house. The cookout was pretty small and simply...I had a veggie burger, reasonably-sized portions of potato salad, baked beans, and cole slaw. I did give in and have a second beer - but then I opted for watermelon in place of pie for dessert.
Then back on my bike to get home! Altogether, I biked about 13 miles today!!
So that was my fourth of July. Tomorrow, I'm going to pick up my goddaughter and another friend for some blueberry picking, then I'm heading to Louisville to see my other BFF!!
How did you spend your Independence Day?
Saturday, June 28, 2014
It's been a few weeks, but my garden has already grown so much bigger!!
In early May, I tilled one half of my plot and put in 6 tomato plants - and then it froze again. Luckily, 5 of the tomato plants survived!
The last weekend in May, I finally tilled the other half of the plot, weeded the half that was already planted, and put in more tomatoes, squash, cucumbers, eggplant, herbs, peppers, and lettuce!
They've done really well in the past few weeks...especially the squash plants!! I had no idea they'd get so big!
Today, I finally weeded the garden again (well, mostly!), transplanted the cucumbers, lettuces, tomatillos, and moved the eggplants closer to the fence.
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
It's been a couple weeks since I wrote a blog, and I have to be honest....they haven't been good weeks.
The emotional eating beast reared its ugly head, and it took some time to get control of myself again. Today, I finally added all of the food I've been eating (and drinking), and I've been averaging 3500-4000 calories a day over the last week!
I can't believe I let this happen!
Which explains my weight gain, of course. At the peak of my quit smoking effort, before I started losing weight again, I was at 180-ish. After I ran the Mini last month, I was down to 162.5....but as of yesterday, I'm back up to 169.1.
So here's where I am right now:
In less than two months, I'm moving to Madison. I got into the University of Wisconsin for graduate school, which is GREAT! But I don't have a job lined up in Madison, which is scary. And I still haven't heard back on my financial aid, so I don't know how I'm paying my tuition yet either.
My BF is getting really upset that I'm leaving...but every time I suggest that we should end the relationship now, he gets even more upset. He wants to spend as much time with me as he can. Which is sweet, but I'm not feeling the same way - and all I'm getting from him now is extra stress and guilt.
Mostly because I have ZERO free time. I needed to take a couple of prerequisites this summer, so in addition to working more than full time, I'm taking two classes.
And, funny story, teaching three classes....
I got a part-time job teaching English and career exploration classes with this year's Upward Bound program. I'm really excited, because I need the experience in front of a classroom if I want to get an assistantship at UW. Plus, I love the program and what they do for kids!
Now, I teach classes 8-noon Monday-Friday...then work at my full-time job from noon-8/9-ish. Most Saturdays, I work environmental events - lakes/river festivals, eco-blitzes, envirofests, etc. And then, I also have to do homework, draw up lesson plans, grade papers, send out resumes....
I'm about two seconds away from EXPLODING!!
And while I should still be trying to spend as much time as I can with friends and family (and BF...), all I want is for them to leave me alone so I can get through the end of classes (in mid-July)!
It just felt too hard to take care of myself anymore. So I just gave up. I didn't want to cook, so I ordered take-out. I didn't have time for longer workouts...so I skipped working out entirely.
Of course, now I feel awful. I've got no energy, and I feel bloated and heavy. So I'm getting back on track. I dragged my BF hiking at Shades, then on a kayaking trip last weekend. This past weekend, I was at a bio-blitz and spent several hours hiking...and last night, I hauled myself off the couch and out to Zumba class.
I'm feeling a lot better - in particular, I've got my classes and work schedule under control, and I've adjusted to it. I've also restocked my apartment with healthy, quick meals, and scheduled time for myself (tonight, I'm getting a massage!) so that I can handle the stress a little better.
All I have to do is make it to the last day of classes - July 12. I can do it. It's only a month...and now that I'm getting ready to start a challenging degree program, I KNOW that I need the planning and time management help, so this is a good kind of busy for me!!
Tuesday, May 27, 2014
She actually did pretty well! The fact that it was hot probably helped...the water felt good. But she sat nicely in the sink, and my dad (the poor man) didn't even have to hold her while I went to get a towel!
Getting her dry, on the other hand...
Sunday, May 25, 2014
In early May, I went out for the first time. I tilled half of the 20X10 plot, and put in tomato and pepper plants.
And a week later, we had another hard freeze.
So I waited until this weekend, so that my new plants would be safe.
Yesterday, I tilled up the second half of my plot (and retilled a chunk of the other half), and put in several seedlings. I've got 4 tomato plants, 2 bell peppers, 2 jalapeno pepper plants, 2 zephyrs (which I think are squash?), 2 cucumbers, 2 cabbage, 3 kinds of lettuce, cilantro, parsley, and a thai basil plant.
Look how much sod and weeds I pulled out of there! There was actually a knee-high maple tree in the middle of my plot!
All of this took a total 3 1/2 hours...and gave me a few blisters. Then, I partially weeded the other half.
Today, I went back in for a couple more hours. I finished weeding the plot I had already planted, and found that some of the tomato plants survived...but they're small and don't look too healthy. I then pulled out the seeds backets (lettuce, swiss chard, and broccoli), and planted them. Fingers crossed they sprout, considering how late I'm getting them in!
Then I put in the tomato cages, and set up a fence around my plot. Last year, the bunnies and other critters got to all of my chard before I could eat any of it, so I knew that some fencing would be necessary this year!
I'm so glad I've got it all planted! Now, I just need to keep up with the weeding and watering, and hope for the best!!
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