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DAY 17: End Overeating

Monday, February 01, 2010

I have been squirming before the uncomfortable truth that there is some ugly element of acquisitiveness in my response to food. I feel a sense of gratification when I have an abundance of some food, unrelated to my hunger level or physical need. I want to change this. I want to bring my mind and emotions up to date with the REALITY of my present.

It has been 40 years since I experienced any uncertainty about my food supply. Forty years of always having enough! And even in those earliest years, while I may have been frequently uncomfortable, I was never undernourished or unhealthy. Yet now I still behave toward food like an impoverished person.

I am not a refugee, by God's mercy. I am not under siege during wartime. Why do I still view food like someone who has starved and expects to starve? Beck's requirement to sit down has made me vividly aware of this tendency. I feel compelled to lick knives and spoons (so much that I go and sit down to do it, since I'm voluntarily under the Beck edict). I wet my finger to dab crumbs off of plates (stopped myself on this one: "I am not in a concentration camp. I have enough food. I don't need to do this.") When another person has something nice to eat, I am dignified enough to keep my silence and my countenance, but inwardly I am leering at their treat like one who's been shipwrecked.

Certainly I have so much to learn in my faltering steps toward trusting my Creator, yet this by His own prescription is a foundational premise . . . when Jesus Christ taught his followers to pray, he specified the request, "Give us this day our daily bread."

Am I, or am I not, going to trust my Father in heaven who has been unvaryingly faithful to me?

I can choose at least to give my faith feet of action. I will keep doing the disciplines that Beck outlines. The Beck program certainly has me catching myself in myriad unconscious food behaviors that surprise and embarrass me. And Beck has taught me how to create a script for myself, teaching myself to begin to normalize my responses. Belated baby steps for a child of the King!

Have you ever been on a web page for a while, and you know something's not current? I sometimes have to click "Refresh" so that the browser updates the page to reflect the latest
accuracy. I've been using this mental image to gently correct myself when I catch myself in the street urchin mode toward food. "Refresh your page, dear. You not in any danger of going hungry." "Update your screen, my friend. You need to reflect the PRESENT REALITY. You have enough. You will have enough later today, and tomorrow as well."

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ID_VANDAL 2/2/2010 2:00PM

    Very well said FreeLady! I to have never been hungry because I didn't have access to food. Any hunger was just a delay in getting to the food - I've never had to worry about by next meal. Yet, like you, I was trained not to waste food, eat everything on the plate cuz there are children starving somewhere and that food costs money so don't waste it.

I think you've got an excellent metal approach to overcoming those obstacles so keep working on it!

That eating while sitting down was a biggie for me - it's saved me a TON of calories!

Great blog - thanks!

Remember - If it doesn't go to waste it goes to waist!!



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DAY 16: NO CHOICE - Prevent unplanned eating

Sunday, January 31, 2010

I never have a moment of indecision about putting on my seat belt or washing my hands after using the toilet. If a child calls in the night, I get up and go.

Obviously I am able to put certain things in the category of NO CHOICE. Now I have to apply that single-mindedness to my eating plan.

Today I'm feeling resistant and apprehensive. So I have to look back to DAY ONE when I said, "I am going to follow this program. I am going to carry out the assignments, which are proven to work."

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FREELADY 1/31/2010 10:03PM

    That is good advice about the occasional treat! I put a little something in my food plan for tomorrow. I'm still staying away from sugary stuff, just because I know that for me personally it will set off a fierce craving cycle. But I'm looking forward to a bit of Brie and a few special crackers.

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KOKGIRL 1/31/2010 7:55PM

    I love your analogies! There really does seem to be a different mindset to the way we treat food vs other things that we do to make us safe and or healthy. I've noticed that as I stick with the plan, each temptation gets a little easier to deal with (most of the time). But I've also found that a once in a great while treat isn't so bad either.

Keep up the effort, it will pay off!

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ID_VANDAL 1/31/2010 6:55PM

    You can do this! The no choice is very hard but you are so right. Some things, as you cited, are simply "no choice" we need to have the mindset like that for the food that goes into our mouth. Healthy and right proportions - NO CHOICE!

Good job - keep it up!!



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DAY 15: Monitor Your Eating

Saturday, January 30, 2010

I am going to be conscientious about this because it is more important to me to lose weight and keep it off than it is to have my own way in the moment. Repeat to self every ten minutes or so.

Beck says it is absolutely essential to do this if I do not want to regain lost weight. She has been right so far. I am re-committing to carry out all the steps of this program.

Last night I was already sitting at the computer, so I entered my plan for today's food in the tracker. Everyone but me probably knows to do this, but I had never before done it the day ahead.

How could I have resisted this? Now it seems parallel to trying to stay financially solvent without knowing what the cost is of each item being purchased.

I know this will get harder and harder. But I'm not going to focus on that. I'm going to take each little step to fulfill TODAY'S assignment in the Beck Diet Solution.

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NANCY- 1/31/2010 8:52AM

    You can do it!
I just think of it as being good to me and being mindful.
oh all the mindless eating I have done in my life, paying attention really opened my eyes.

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BETTA13 1/30/2010 7:51PM

    I have never done that either...I will give it a go too. I did bad bad today, lol. 3 doughnuts. My ds brought a box home and left them alone w only me and a 7 yo! So I had salad for dinner but I have definitely gone over for the day.
Have a blessed Sunday!

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Saturday, January 30, 2010

I'm teaching myself to use the "GPS PROMPT" approach when getting way off track:

When we're not where we should be, a GPS unit doesn't shame or scold. It simply says, "MAKE A LEGAL U-TURN." Don't freak out; just take corrective action.

Thanks to BUTTERFLYEMERGE, who has maintained a 120-pound weight loss for eight years, whose Spark Page said this: "I heard Dr. Oz say something that I really like. I'm going to start practicing it in my life. Here's my version of the analogy. When we make a mistake on our diet, slip up, screw up, get it wrong, we should not berate ourselves. After all, when we make a wrong turn, our GPS doesn't do that. It simply says, "Make a legal U-turn". That's all. Make a legal U-turn."


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NANCY- 1/31/2010 8:53AM


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GLAD2BME2 1/30/2010 9:19PM

    I love this analogy! Thanks for sharing!

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great analogy. I will remember that one.

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    One of my favorite lessons learned! emoticon Just heard a commercial on TV ... "That's why I'm using a GPS ... so I'll end up exactly where I'm supposed to be" ... Spark is like our GPS. Helping us end up where we're supposed to be.

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DAY 14: Prepare to Diet

Friday, January 29, 2010

I have dreaded this. I have resisted this concept. But I committed to carrying out the full Beck program, so I'm going to do it. It makes a lot of sense to me. I'm just stubborn.

Beck: "You can eat whatever you want whenever you want to eat it, or you can lose weight permanently. YOU CAN'T HAVE BOTH."

NO CHOICE. I am going to lose weight permanently. So I made my food plan for tomorrow. Day 15, here I come!

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NANCY- 1/30/2010 8:00AM

    Look at it this way... you are only doing it for the duration of the program... short term... you can do anything!!!!
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MAZZYR 1/30/2010 6:19AM

    emoticonAnd, you are not alone.

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SEWINGMEG 1/29/2010 11:46PM

    WOW... that is pretty simple... but yet so hard.... I am with ya!!!

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