Thursday, January 28, 2010
1. Sugar is highly inflammatory.
2. Sugar puts a strain on my pancreas.
3. High blood sugar damages every organ.
4. Sugar makes my moods [more] erratic.
5. Sugar makes me fat.
6. Sugar makes me sluggish.
7. Sugar generates a cycle of insatiable cravings.
8. Eating sugar is a self-destructive, self-indulgent habit that doesn't fit my strong, joyful, sensible life choice.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
I found the following most efficient for me, to distract myself from a desire to eat or from a craving:
Talk to a friend
Financial paperwork (just the thought of it makes me want to eat & want to avoid this activity, but once I get started it is absorbing and I can go forever without eating)
Read SparkPeople or Beck
De-junking the basement (like trying to move the beach with a shovel . . . )
I'm working on finding some more activities that will effectively distract me. I have been over-absorbed with eating for so many years that I find many would-be distractions still make me want to eat. Okay, read some more cards . . . .
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
When I chose the SparkName FREELADY, it was a feeble step of faith. I understood that Jesus Christ has acted in history on my behalf to gain liberation for me. Because of his sacrifice I am officially acquitted before the throne of God. Now I have the responsibility to make choices daily which reflect that invisible reality. I aspire to demonstrate eternal truth in how I think and act.
I have been well aware that food was one area where I had not claimed the FREEDOM which Jesus Christ won. For example, I would read the following New Testament verses from 1 Corinthians 6 and ponder how to make them real in my experience . . .
"12All things are lawful for me, but not all things are profitable. All things are lawful for me, but I will not be mastered by anything.
13Food is for the stomach and the stomach is for food, but God will do away with both of them Yet the body is not for immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord is for the body.
14Now God has not only raised the Lord, but will also raise us up through His power. " www.biblegateway.com/
In my heart I knew I was usually behaving like a person mastered by food. By God's mercy, the Beck Diet Solution has given me tools to help me start to break free from that mastery. I am a baby-stepping beginner with Beck, but already I am feeling a new sense of freedom in regard to food thinking and food choices.
I have a long road ahead, and a lot of growing and changing to do. I am very thankful to God for all of you SparkFriends who have been so compassionate and encouraging. Your support means a great deal to me.
You can sign me,
Monday, January 25, 2010
Before I did this experiment, I would not have believed the outcome I experienced would be possible for me. I truly expected a day of agony. But it was not miserable the way I expected. What discomfort there was, I was able to cope with. Astonishing.
In evaluating my feelings about this experiment, I had some painful self-realization. I had to face the sad and embarrassing truth that never in my life (except during labor) have I gone 8 hours in the daytime without eating. (Overnight I routinely go 12 hours without eating between dinner and the next day's breakfast (by God's grace I cut out bedtime eating about 6 months ago.)
This is sad and embarrassing because there are plenty of things in my life that I would like to be more consistent, more attentive, more intentional about. So to admit to myself that I have achieved flawless consistency--seamless perfection--in one area, which is . . . what ? Making sure I get fed! Good grief!
It definitely reinforces an important area that I listed among my reasons for achieving a healthy weight: to think less about food, to be less concerned about food, to have more time and focus for truly significant things.
I have already noticed an irony: I am investing more time now in reading the Beck books, writing down assignments, reading response cards, planning food, exercising, and blogging. BUT outside of these intervals where I am deliberately focusing on the Beck process, I can tell I am thinking about food less. I don't know how that is working, but I like it.
I believe the exercise of noting at each hour whether I was hungry, had a desire to eat, or had a craving had a big part in freeing my thinking thus far. I did it for several days and I do it periodically now as a tool to wait for planned food. Somehow labeling the sensation made it less powerful. Particularly at the times I was truly hungry, I said to myself, this is genuine hunger, but it did not freak me out. That was liberating. Thanks be to God.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I was pondering how to stick with my eating plan at a meeting where the refreshments were exclusively empty carbs. The thought came emphatically, "Flee!" This time I didn't even walk down to that end of the room. For me to resist the strong pull of temptation from iced doughnuts, bagels, flavored cream cheese, and fresh pastries, I had to physically avoid close exposure and opportunity.
I thought of the New Testament Scripture found in 1 Timothy 2:22, "Flee from youthful lusts." That strategy prevents stepping out of bounds regarding sexual desire. I'm applying the same principle to staying on the right path for my health. When the pull to make wrong choices may be overwhelming, it is a very practical approach for me: put distance between myself and whatever I need to resist.
Someday perhaps I'll have such a strong resisting muscle that I can stand right by the sugary carbs table and be indifferent to it. But for now, to flee is part of the "NO CHOICE" agreement I've made with myself.
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