Saturday, January 12, 2013
I used virtual sticky notes to make a home screen image for keeping good choices in mind. These are like my Response Cards for the Beck Diet Solution cognitive behavioral approach.
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
These are the behaviors I am choosing. I choose to be healthy and strong and well.
Eat without distraction.
Eat on time ----because hunger and thirst lead me to make bad decisions.
Avoid bread, sugar, and starchy foods ---those only increase cravings.
Take my vitamins. Yes, it's hard. So what? Use the mortar and pestle.
Do wii fit every day.
Do SparkPeople every day.
No BLT's ----no bites, licks, or tastes while cooking. I will eat in peace and dignity.
No eating something just to get rid of it.
I will choose good quality, nutritious food.
I will consciously give thanks to God, the Maker and Giver.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
A series of small occurrences keep nudging me to stop being in denial about my weight and my apathy.
I chatted with a sweet friend at the chiropractor; we haven't run into each other recently. C originallhy set up our free exercise classes, which have blessed me for 3 years ongoing, and she has been an inspiring example for weight loss. Utterly kind and generous, she is also direct.
(after small talk)
C: So, how are things going, health-wise?
Freelady: Well, I haven't been eating the way I know I should. (silently thinking, she can see I gained back most of the 57 pounds loss she celebrated with me)
C: (sympathetically) Is that because of stress in your life?
Freelady: Well, I can't blame stress. I'm just not making good choices about food. Plenty of people have had more stress than I have, and still eat healthy. I can't use that as an excuse.
C: I understand. But don't give up. Just do what little bit you can. And let me know if I can help you in any way....
Having to verbalize my failure was sorrowful, yet liberating. I think of myself as a rational, realistic person---- yet I've been imagining that my backsliding was a secret. Ha.
More day-of-reckoning came when my daughter did a fancy braid in my hair and I looked at my back view with a hand mirror and a long mirror. I was honestly shocked. I don't like tight clothes, so most of the time, if I don't look too hard, I can avoid being too disturbed by my size and bulges from the front view. But the back view was truly disturbing. I actually felt shaken. My stomach hurt. How could I let it go this far?
Daughters' basketball season started. Husband coaches 2 dds. I am the team scorekeeper and locker room helper. I have a team warm-up jacket but I have to wear my own shirt underneath. I dug out something to try on and asked my husband and daughters how it looked. They said it was okay. Then my sweet husband said innocently, "What about the shirt you usually wore to all the games last year? I thought that one looked nice." I took a deep breath and said, "I am too fat now to wear that shirt." Whew. I said it out loud. They still love me. Of course my daughters know I have been getting bigger and bigger. They still love me.
I have had one good week of healthy choices. I know how to do this; I have done it before and I just have to make myself behave. As VisualLyrics says, Progress not Perfection. As far as the feelings of humiliation go, I just have to tell myself, "Get over it." And, "Get on with it."
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
What some have said about picking up to start again. . . .
Michael Eisner (head of Disney from 1984 to 2005) --
Recovering from failure is often easier than building from success.
Roger Von Oech (Stanford PhD, Creativity Consultant to Apple, IBM, Disney, Sony, and Intel) --
Remember the two benefits of failure. First, if you do fail, you learn what doesn't work; and second, the failure gives you the opportunity to try a new approach.
Brian Tracy (Business Leadership Speaker) --
Remember, you only have to succeed the last time.
Charles Franklin Kettering (GM researcher & inventor with 186 patents) --
An inventor fails 999 times, and if he succeeds once, he's in. He treats his failures simply as practice shots.
Paul, first-century apostle of Jesus Christ--
I press on so that I may lay hold of
that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus.
Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet;
but one thing I do:
forgetting what lies behind
and reaching forward to what lies ahead,
I press on toward the goal
for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.
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