Monday, March 19, 2012
The more I clean up my eating habits, the more I discover that so many treats I used to love are delicious only in my memory.
I will not list them --- because I myself am easily triggered, and I'd rather not read a blog and find that its details have triggered my cravings for junk! But I'm talking about packaged, processed food, and fast food, and a few restaurant specialties thrown in. They just don't live up to my self-indulgent expectations! (with a few exceptions, like . . . . oh, never mind!)
It's disappointing enough to make a poor choice and know I am compromising my goals. Then when it doesn't even taste very good, or I didn't remember it being so waxy, or there's a chemical aftertaste . . . . Rats! Why did I do this? This has happened plenty of times before! Why don't I remember that the pleasure payoff is rarely what I expect?
When I was going through the book The Beck Diet Solution, for a while I rated splurges numerically. With pop, for example, which was my downfall for years, I would rate how good I expected it to be. Always 10. Then I gave a number to how good it actually was, in reality, that moment. Usually the first sip was 9 or 10, then my satisfaction would fall to 4 or 5---if I was even paying attention. (The other pattern this made me notice is that I usually savor the first bite of a treat, and often after that I'm on autopilot.)
So that was one helpful element, and I do have that as a daily pop-up reminder on my ipod: Unhealthy foods do not satisfy.
This morning I ate something that is NOT on my diet. I rationalized it, of course. I had several persuasive excuses. For one thing, it was in the middle of my two-mile walk. Which it cancelled out, of course.
So while pondering those 200 calories I wished I could have back, I was making a mental list of the other junky things which I KNOW from experience are NOT WORTH IT. I wanted to impress on myself to STOP that useless input.
I CAN UN-SUBSCRIBE TO THAT FOOD ! Just like out on the web---when I think a blog will be informational and it turns out to be just a series of advertisements, I can unsubscribe! In my mind I went click, click, click. Check off that box. Not desirable to me any more. Not turning out to be what I really wanted. Unsubscribe.