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DAY 9: Get Moving - Make an Exercise Plan

Monday, January 18, 2010

I will walk 3 miles three times a week. (My husband and I have a set route at a mall near our house, so even on bitterly cold or snowy days we can walk 3 miles. It takes us an hour...perhaps a later goal will address that!)

I will attend the strength training class at my church twice a week. If I am prevented from going for some reason, I will do the exercises on my own at home and not wimp out.

I will park further away from the door of my destination.

I will record my exercise daily on the goals & accountability forum.

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BETTA13 1/18/2010 11:08PM

    Excellent plan...have you checked out the workouts on SP? They have some great ideas for home.

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GETN2GOAL 1/18/2010 10:29PM

    Good Plan. emoticon Wishing you success with your goals.

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Food Does Not Care

Sunday, January 17, 2010

I was feeling pretty blue when I stopped to get gas. I had been indulging in a major pity party. To comfort myself I broke two of my policies: I bought chips, which is not a "worth it" item and not one of the treats I allow myself. And I also got a large coffee and put four flavored creams in it. One of my own "rules" I've been generally successful with is to always buy the smallest size available, and to stick with one cream in coffee.

It seems silly to me now to have made such an irrational set of choices, but at the time it seemed like the obvious way to make myself feel better. You might guess the result of this comical/sad foray: this set of crunchy/creamy carbs did not do the trick. The chips didn't taste nearly as good as I remembered (unlike the Oreo cookies I sneaked recently, when during the first bite I said out loud, "Oh, wow, these are amazing. No wonder they're 53 calories apiece.") The first swallow of fatty/sweet coffee tasted delicious, but I hardly noticed the rest of it.

I guess disappointment began to restore some logical mental process, for as I drove along I began to ask myself the following question: If even "cheating" did not help my melancholy mood, what should I try? I guess someone was praying for me, because what came to mind was the idea that it wasn't reasonable to feel so weepy, because of all the people who really care about me. That seemed like a valid concept, so I started naming them. I have been blessed with a loyal, affectionate family. I have a couple close friends who love me unconditionally. I have a supportive group of friends in my church who genuinely care about me.

I'm not saying this line of meditation will keep me from stupid eating next time. But I did have an additional thought, one that hit me like a brick, one that I hope will at least give me pause. FOOD DOES NOT CARE. It has no substance, no reality of uplift to offer me. FOOD DOES NOT CARE. In contrast, God has provided all these people: people who should be a source of my feeling really good, having a treasure so rich and valuable in my life. But what I turned my thoughts to when I was down was junk food. FOOD DOES NOT CARE.

It looks a little funny on a response card. But I think it's going to be one of my most important ones.

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MAZZYR 1/18/2010 6:20PM

    Lol, it sounds like eating unplanned food isn't as much fun as it used to be. That's a good thing!

Thinking of all my blessings always cheers me.

Have a nice day.


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LEGOLAS6 1/18/2010 12:36PM

    What an amazing and thought provoking insight. Food does not care. So many people turn to food as if it is a good friend, but it does not care. Thank you so much for such a simple but very valuable idea. God Bless.

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HISLIONESS28 1/18/2010 11:38AM

    My husband and I are doing this together.... (finally). Last night he commented that once he lost his weight he was going to go get the biggest, largest, ... (I don't even remember what it was ~ some type of junk food).... and I stopped him right then and said, "Why would you do that to yourself" You would probably hate the test of it by then anyhow... He agreed. We are training our taste buds to enjoy new flavors. And hopefully those flavors sustain our ummm, need for food longer than any amount of junk food ever has. Therefore, when we choose to (rationalize) pounce into a bag of chips... one of the reasons they don't taste the way we want them too is because we aren't even hungry.....
I am working so hard to change my lifestyle... I refuse to 'reward myself' with any sort of food. Cheating on me defeats my purpose, right? Keep your eyes on the prize ~ a new you.
Preachin' to the choir ~

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KCOLEMA 1/18/2010 11:27AM

    I LOVE that! Food does not care! :) I need to write that one down too!

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BETTA13 1/18/2010 9:25AM

    Excellent enlightenment! And we feel so yucky afterwards...even the day after sometimes, depending on how far we go with the binge.

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MACKEYW 1/17/2010 9:18PM

    I understand. After Haloween someone brouht a whole shopping bag of potatoe chips into teh staff room. I could not resist I had to have a bag. They were YUCK with a capital YUCK. They did not taste like I anted them too. EVR SINCE THOGH i HAVE NOT WANTED TO EAT CHIPS. tHE COOKIE HOWEVER, i DO ALLOW MY SELF THAT. hOWEVER NOW i EAT ONE AND NOT THE WHOLE BAG. aND THEN IT IS A TREAT AND NOT A CHEAT

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DAY 8: Make Time for Diet and Exercise Activities

Saturday, January 16, 2010

"Losing weight is so important to me that I'm willing to fit my life around the necessary activities."

Beck has me pegged. I would rather just see how things go instead of planning, instead of hemming myself in. However, as she says, this method has not resulted in my being able to lose the weight I need to lose, or keeping off the weight I do shed.

So I'm at the crossroads again. Am I going to follow this prescription as I declared I would about 3 weeks ago? By God's grace I have the determination to do it. I was feeling anxious about moving forward, but because I made a commitment to follow this plan, I am going to follow this plan.

Today I worked through the assignments for Day 8. I am feeling a bit antsy as the structure of expected behaviors continues to accumulate. But I can do this. I will do one thing at a time, and it will be OK.

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DAY 7: Arrange your Environment

Friday, January 15, 2010

2009 was a gradual process of getting unhealthy food and triggers out of the house. Now about the only thing left that I could misbehave with is buttered toast (and yes, I have definitely overdone it with buttered toast at other times in my life. Nowadays if I stay fueled with planned meals & snacks, it doesn't call to me. Good thing... my family has flexed amazingly with all my pantry purging and grocery-shopping changes, but they might draw the line if I tried to stop having bread and butter in the house!)

The absence of sugary cereal is an area of huge change for this house. Nonetheless I chuckled to see that since I was gone for a week and my 14yo daughter did the grocery shopping, there is a gigantic box of Frosted Flakes in the cabinet. To her credit, she also bought chicken and yogurt and fruit and veggies...I just thought the opportune purchase was humorous. And TO MY CREDIT, I haven't had a single Frosted Flake.

I should really think about this more now, so it can encourage me... that I really have seen some significant internal changes during this long quest. I honestly have not had any battles wanting the Frosted Flakes. (I had a chocolate cupcake battle when I passed the gourmet bakery, and I lost that one. But it's pretty huge for me to have a formerly-favorite food sitting right there and it's not actually a problem. At least not the Frosted Flakes.)

Amazing. I'm going to give myself credit. Now I have some data to foster hope when I read the response card which includes the statement, "It won't always be this hard."

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BETTA13 1/15/2010 1:27PM

    Good for you! I don't crave the sugary cereals anymore, just have to resist the urge to put the first spoonful in my mouth when I fix cereal for the little one. lol I buy the Wheat n Bran Shredded Wheat and use skim milk and sweeten it w a little Agave Syrup, It is so wonderful. But that's me, everyone's taste buds are different.
So my battle is seeing all the chips and cookies and smelling coffee w my favorite creamers! Yes, I am off coffee right now. It is just a type of fast for me, not trying to avoid caffeine, just my top 3 weaknesses, White flour, sugar and coffee =o)
I have discovered Vanilla Chai in a teabag and I add a little agave syrup in it, ta da...I just love hot drinks in this freezing weather.
Be Blessed

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Evaluate and Move On

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Why did I eat four cookies at the hair shop? Causes: I did not eat lunch because I was running late. I sat in the lounge three feet from the cookie spread. I did not choose a rational escape which would be buying a nutrient-rich item at the deli next door. I did not read my response cards, whereby I'd at least have had a chance to believe that hunger is not an emergency.

Okay. Deep breath. Here are more life elements exposed that show me patterns that have kept me obese. But I'm not going to tackle the enormity of my time management issues now. I'm just going to do the specific Beck assignments one day at a time (usually taking several days to practice a step). I will focus on planning ahead in the area of healthy eating. I will read my ARC and response cards. When I blow it I will get back on track.

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GABBYANNIE 1/14/2010 7:55PM

    It's O.K. You can workout a little longer next time to make up for it. Or eat a few less calories tomorrow. Don't look back, just look foward. YOU CAN DO IT!!!! emoticon

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BETTA13 1/14/2010 11:55AM

Get right back on's about the whole week, not one day.

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