Sunday, March 27, 2011
I have repeatedly read about other people's short-term goals. I have seen their celebrations when they meet these goals, and I have cheered for them. Two weeks ago, for the first time, I set a short-term goal: to stop piddling around and get to that 30 pounds level. With God's help I reached that on March 24, 2011.
I survived that new experience, so now I have written down several short-term goals and outcomes.
195 - I get SP Lost 30 pounds trophy! DONE - 3/24/11
193 - Lose 2 lbs by April 1 (accepted challenge from Nancy15toGoal)
190 - I get more energy for April 16 urban prayer walk!
188 - I can fit in a lot of clothes I already have and like!
185 - I get out of obese BMI ! (Racing with Mariean & others to lost-40-pounds mark)
180 - 20% of starting weight gone!
For the Lose-2-lbs-by-Friday goal, it was a week span to begin with. I really went out on a limb by telling my family what I was committing to do this week. WHY have I NEVER BEFORE TOLD anyone what my intended target was? Because then I would have to follow through!
So I am identifying some internal progress here. I have advanced a bit, to where I am willing to own my goals and be held accountable. Believe me, I WILL be held accountable. My family is very competitive. Here I have heard debates over who was toughest, based on how many layers they were wearing in a chilly house!
Plenty of love and hugs for me at home, but not a place to turn a blind eye if I'm wimping out on what I announced. Now if they see that I am making the right choices (yes, they all know the items I'm avoiding, and that I'm not eating seconds) and if I then fall short of my aim, they will be very compassionate. But just deciding not to sweat it . . . that's not an option. So I've avoided this public announcement and pressure up until now. I'm giving myself credit for growing up a little bit.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Even though I had a good supper, and no calorie allowance left, I made 2 pieces of buttered toast and honey. I wolfed it down. I wish I hadn't. Oh well. Start again.
I'll have to make a plan for this particular temptation. Suggestions needed here. I have purged my environment pretty well, but I need to have bread in the house, and butter in the house, and honey in the house. Oh well.
Later I had a close call: I guess the carb/sweets cycle was kicking in, because around midnight I remembered my vitamins were still on the counter. I confess I planned to get one of the chocolate muffins (package from someone else) and a glass of milk while I was down there. This is not evil, but understand: I used to knock off 500 calories before bed, easy. Right now I have a 3-months' no-snacking-after-supper streak, and have been quite content (I do have a planned morning snack and afternoon snack, but evening eating is a minefield I personally gotta avoid).
Eerie voice of Judith Beck (almost): I literally had my hand on the refrigerator door, and the sentence rang through my head so strongly, it couldn't have been clearer if I'd heard it out loud: "IT'S NOT THE CALORIES THAT MATTER SO MUCH AT THIS MOMENT, IT'S THE HABIT!"
Gulp. This time I walked away.
No time to waste kicking myself. I can start again right now. Dr. Beck says read my cards and get on with the day!
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