Thursday, March 24, 2011
Even though I had a good supper, and no calorie allowance left, I made 2 pieces of buttered toast and honey. I wolfed it down. I wish I hadn't. Oh well. Start again.
I'll have to make a plan for this particular temptation. Suggestions needed here. I have purged my environment pretty well, but I need to have bread in the house, and butter in the house, and honey in the house. Oh well.
Later I had a close call: I guess the carb/sweets cycle was kicking in, because around midnight I remembered my vitamins were still on the counter. I confess I planned to get one of the chocolate muffins (package from someone else) and a glass of milk while I was down there. This is not evil, but understand: I used to knock off 500 calories before bed, easy. Right now I have a 3-months' no-snacking-after-supper streak, and have been quite content (I do have a planned morning snack and afternoon snack, but evening eating is a minefield I personally gotta avoid).
Eerie voice of Judith Beck (almost): I literally had my hand on the refrigerator door, and the sentence rang through my head so strongly, it couldn't have been clearer if I'd heard it out loud: "IT'S NOT THE CALORIES THAT MATTER SO MUCH AT THIS MOMENT, IT'S THE HABIT!"
Gulp. This time I walked away.
No time to waste kicking myself. I can start again right now. Dr. Beck says read my cards and get on with the day!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Having a plan in place, plus the awareness of reporting to my Spark supporters afterward, made all the difference in handling the group lunch, the samples, and the shopping.
Lunch: Ate chicken caesar salad as planned, shared with daughters. It was huge with lots of chicken. We drank water. Chuckle: the Coke machine was malfunctioning. My friends who bought Costco's "bargain" pop were very frustrated because the Coke tasted off and wasn't enjoyable at all. Sympathy for them, but woo-hoo for me that I did not DOUBLE-waste those calories.
Samples: I was choosey. I bypassed the fruit snacks, the chips and such. Breakfast and lunch had been small calories and I had room for some select samples. When I had 2 or 3 I walked aside and sat or semi-sat to eat them mindfully. Repeat for worthy samples. (When I first heard of someone doing this, I thought it was extreme, but it forces me to think before cramming something free in my mouth. For me the CONSISTENCY of making every act of eating DELIBERATE is necessary. Like Judith Beck says, the habit matters much more than the calories.) The yogurt seemed like a candidate, but the label said 12 grams of sugar in a very small package, so let it alone this time.
Shopping: I had planned ahead and told you guys NO JUNK. Goal met. Hooray! I read more labels and selected carefully. I was not hungry, so that helped me not buy anything stupid. I was also a guest, shopping with my friend who's a member, so that helped me be moderate.
Thank you, ApirlRain888, for motivating me to blog, plan, and survive!
Monday, March 21, 2011
One approach I've found useful on this site is to tag along behind people who are doing things that work. APIRLRAIN888 has blogged about dealing with poor-choice days. "Own it, Track it, Burn it." So practical. Her last blog discussed an approach to facing an anxiety-producing challenge: "I blogged, I made a plan, I survived." So intriguing. The blog as preventive measure.
Nervous challenge: Healthy choices while eating lunch with a friend (and kids from us both) at Costco, and shopping at Costco warehouse store.
Blog: I'm going to want a Coke badly at Costco. The cafe has all the environmental triggers, plus the festive-outing-friends trigger. (Note to self: think on re-programming steps for this.) But I looked in my closet, and there are several nice things there I'd like to fit into. Plus, I'll be camping and shopping with this friend now that the weather is better, and I want to reinforce my own pattern in her company for drinking water as a consistent choice. More important, with us will be the daughter who is dismayed and distressed when I step outside my food plan. She's a sweet supporter and I don't want to disappoint her. She understands that Coke can be the launchpad of a downward spiral for me. Decision: no Coke at Costco. Report by editing blog.
Plan: Choose lunch items before we go. Uh-oh, no info online about Costco cafe. Persevere: find phone number online and call Costco. Yes, they serve salad. Decision: eat salad for lunch at Costco. Help kids nudge their choices toward what is healthier.
More Plan: Buy no junk, no matter how cheap it is.
Dr. Beck says I can follow my eating plan in whatever circumstances I'm in.
[See blog for Tuesday, March 21, for follow-up report.]
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