Sunday, February 20, 2011
I let myself gradually slide into undisciplined eating, so it's taking a while to rediscover the healthy patterns I learned from the Beck Diet Solution.
I'm re-learning what genuine hunger feels like. Today I was able to say, I am not actually hungry; this is just a desire for food.
I had a reasonable lunch. Then by God's grace I fought off the munchies-attack repeatedly this afternoon. I knew we were going to a birthday party tonight and would have Thai food, a favorite of mine.
When I was finally seated at mealtime with the plate of Chang Rai chicken before me, I felt a strong wave of happiness. Almost a voice in my head: I am SO GLAD I waited for this. I was able to enjoy it, savor it, be grateful for it, without guilt or remorse.
I am giving myself credit, because this was a baby step for me, in the right direction. I have renewed that experience, that a tough choice is WORTH IT. Gotta remember.