Friday, January 15, 2010
2009 was a gradual process of getting unhealthy food and triggers out of the house. Now about the only thing left that I could misbehave with is buttered toast (and yes, I have definitely overdone it with buttered toast at other times in my life. Nowadays if I stay fueled with planned meals & snacks, it doesn't call to me. Good thing... my family has flexed amazingly with all my pantry purging and grocery-shopping changes, but they might draw the line if I tried to stop having bread and butter in the house!)
The absence of sugary cereal is an area of huge change for this house. Nonetheless I chuckled to see that since I was gone for a week and my 14yo daughter did the grocery shopping, there is a gigantic box of Frosted Flakes in the cabinet. To her credit, she also bought chicken and yogurt and fruit and veggies...I just thought the opportune purchase was humorous. And TO MY CREDIT, I haven't had a single Frosted Flake.
I should really think about this more now, so it can encourage me... that I really have seen some significant internal changes during this long quest. I honestly have not had any battles wanting the Frosted Flakes. (I had a chocolate cupcake battle when I passed the gourmet bakery, and I lost that one. But it's pretty huge for me to have a formerly-favorite food sitting right there and it's not actually a problem. At least not the Frosted Flakes.)
Amazing. I'm going to give myself credit. Now I have some data to foster hope when I read the response card which includes the statement, "It won't always be this hard."
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Why did I eat four cookies at the hair shop? Causes: I did not eat lunch because I was running late. I sat in the lounge three feet from the cookie spread. I did not choose a rational escape which would be buying a nutrient-rich item at the deli next door. I did not read my response cards, whereby I'd at least have had a chance to believe that hunger is not an emergency.
Okay. Deep breath. Here are more life elements exposed that show me patterns that have kept me obese. But I'm not going to tackle the enormity of my time management issues now. I'm just going to do the specific Beck assignments one day at a time (usually taking several days to practice a step). I will focus on planning ahead in the area of healthy eating. I will read my ARC and response cards. When I blow it I will get back on track.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
This is how I will utilize the Beck Diet Solution Spark Team as my diet coach: I will report daily at the Daily Check-In forum, whether I am staying on my eating program or not, and whether I am following the Beck prescription or not. Weekly I will weigh in and report on the weigh-in thread. I will blog daily on my Spark Page. On tough days or setback days I will use the Coaches' Corner forum to get help or find specific problem topics in the other forum threads. If this sounds rigid, it's because I decided when I began Beck that I would follow the prescription exactly. For 15 years in my other diet campaigns, I have customized and personalized endlessly, and I ended up cutting myself so much slack that in early 2009 I was my heaviest ever. I definitely believe in cutting myself slack, but not in the area of my healthy eating changes, as prescribed by Beck. I have confidence in the Beck recommendations, and I'm going to follow them to the letter for six weeks. Then I'll evaluate and plan the next commitment. I'm determined not to blow this chance to be a healthy weight by the end of 2010. Jan 14 modification: I will use the Goals forum instead of the Check-In forum for my daily accountability .
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Today was a first for me. A dear friend was unkind and unjust, but I was able to use strategies to handle it without emotional eating. I feel better after a good night's sleep; perspective tells me this person truly cares about me. Back to eating issues: Amazingly, I was able to name how I was feeling and make a plan. "I am feeling hurt, but food will not change things." "When I get home, I will get started on that pile beside my bed; seeing a neat spot there will feel great." "I'm not going to let this distress torpedo my eating plan." I did distract myself with reasonable tasks, ate my reasonable dinner, and then went to bed early with a good book. Who is this person sitting at my computer wearing my pajamas?
Thursday, January 07, 2010
I'm experiencing some success with "saving" calories for later use. This is new to me--I usually eat in expectation of imminent famine. Now I have been
intrigued by Beck's chapter, "How Thin People Think." It was a real eye-opener. Beck says thin people know hunger (or cravings) will eventually go away. Thin people know if they pass up something good to eat, another opportunity will come along sooner or later. What a concept. Pretty embarrassing that I've lived this long with such skewed perpective. But today I was able to tell myself, "A nice dessert will probably be available tonight. I'm going to really want a little then I can forego this buttery roll at lunch and allot those calories to enjoy a treat after dinner." Can't do that every day, of course. Hee hee . . the postscript to that story is . . . no dessert was offered tonight! So maybe I'll make it to that next half-pound loss just a bit faster! Skinny jeans, here I come!
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