Tuesday, April 20, 2010
My 11 year-old came in from an excursion with friends, grinning and holding out to me a Sonic Sweet Tea. [This is like gifting a recovering alcoholic a double Scotch.] "Look what I got for you, Mom!" she said proudly.
I was on my toes enough to take it from her enthusiastically. I received her loving gift with a big hug. She skipped off, pleased and satisfied.
My internal response was "Oh, no! I have this 12-day streak going for the Beck Tweak challenge, since my target is eliminating sweet drinks. I've done so well, and now I'll have to confess I'm back to zero!"
Then it dawned on me: I DON'T HAVE TO DRINK THE STUFF!
Honestly, before Beck Diet Solution, this would never have occurred to me. A specific gift would have been a great excuse to jettison my no-sweet-drinks streak. And I won't belabor all the reasons sweet tea is a humongous cluster of emotion-laden cravings for me.
PLUS for me sweet drinks trigger all kinds of unhelpful eating accompaniments. Also for me mood swings and increased cravings result every time. At least for now, the healthy path is to abstain from sweet drinks. They interfere with my goals.
Back to the story: Mom makes girl feel great about gift. Girl goes off happy. Sweet tea in seductive Sonic cup with crushed ice sits on table.
Then, suddenly, I felt free and powerful. I had the POWER TO DECIDE what to do with that liquid sabotage!
It felt like a great liberty to me. Sweet tea? So what? I am a person who has something positive happening in my life; I am stronger and healthier; I find joy in many things. I don't require the passing pleasure of a sugary beverage in order to make it a good evening. I can tear up my sugar ticket and still find happiness!
Can you understand that I felt triumphant pouring that stuff down the sink? It was like a ceremony, an enactment that by God's grace its power over me is broken!
In a minute I realized that I still had my streak for the Beck challenge . . . that was sweet. Danger was on the line the moment I saw the cup in her hand! Yet I did not succumb to this 180-calorie-missile. I dodged!
Monday, April 19, 2010
You need never again eat a burger with 680 calories. If I'm going to consume such a quantity of calories in one sitting it isn't going to be ground beef. I'll opt for chocolate instead. LOL
- from BigLittleWoman blog 3/04/10
I have learned, over many years, that I need to have my chocolate stash. That by allowing myself to eat what I truly want, i am satisfied and I will eat less . . . You've got to know yourself, as I write so often. You might have to totally ban chocolate right now. Or maybe you can only have it when you specifically go out and get it. I just know for me, right now, if I don't have something on hand that will satisfy me, I'm more likely to eat around my craving -- which often leads to eating a whole lot more.
- from JLitt62 blog 3/16/10
I don't feel guilty if I splurge on licorice or 85% chocolate - I just enjoy them in the moment but I don't keep a stash in the house or car!
- from Sheila1505 comment on JLitt blog 3/12/10
I only feel guilty if I give into the cravings without planning. . . If I've been craving a Butterfinger for several days, I'll find a way to work it in. - from Crave_Free comment on JLitt blog 3/12/10
The benefit attributed to cocoa stems from substances it contains known as flavonoids, which are believed to help protect against certain cardiovascular disease risk factors, such as blood pressure and blood clotting.
- from Spark Article, "Chocolate May Make Some Strokes Less Likely" http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/health
Eating small amounts of cocoa could be beneficial in the context of an appropriate intake. There are several possible mechanisms, but the effect of rich cocoa [dark chocolate, at least 35% cocoa] on cardiovascular health seems to be through its effect on blood pressure, and the capacity to improve the flexibility of the blood vessels.
- Dr. Martin Lajous, a doctoral candidate at the Harvard School of Public Health, quoted in above article
There are only three things in life that matter - good friends, good chocolate and, oh dear, what was that other one?
You know, hon - chocolate is not really bad for you. It's a WHOLELOTTA chocolate that's bad for you.
- from BessHaile comment on JLitt62 blog 3/13/10
In heaven, chocolate has no calories and is served as the main course.
- from Going2LoseNow signature
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Many of the skills and concepts I have begun to learn through the Beck Diet Solution will be with me the rest of my life. The ongoing practice will keep bringing benefits.
I suspect that new benefits will continue to emerge with long-term implementation.
Yesterday I was at the fresh food market and they gave out little dishes with samples of chicken fajitas and spanish rice, from their gourmet-to-go department. I carried it around the corner to the in-store coffee counter (which was deserted) since sitting down to eat anything is what I do now.
I confess I sighed a little on the way, but I counseled myself, "This is just something I need to do for my health."
My old self, the hesitant, self-conscious one, whispered, "What if the clerk doesn't like you sitting there?" and Freelady replied, "I'll just smile and say I have to sit down whenever I eat."
Here's the ongoing-practice element: because I took a moment to walk to a seat, and because I sat there eating mindfully, I had the opportunity and attention to notice something. After a nibble it was clear that the Spanish rice was not worth the calories.
Pre-Beck, I would have thought, "Free food!" and scarfed the whole thing in a few seconds while walking through the produce section.
Many other Beck operations need a lot more work from me. I'll be reading the book again slowly and re-vamping my Response Cards.
Thanks be to God for giving me life, and for each day's breath and strength to come this far. I'm more than halfway and I'm not quitting ever.
Thank you, more than I can say, to each of you who has been so warm and supportive. We can do this!!!
Monday, April 12, 2010
For a number of reasons I have been on the computer very little for the past several days, and it's likely to be that way for a few days more.
I am participating in a couple challenges, and that accountability has been the key for me to keep doing what I should!
God is merciful and I am thankful that things are going okay.
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