Saturday, March 20, 2010
I was fascinated that the Beck Diet Solution has a section called "Believe It." I am still stunned when I realize 51 pounds are gone. I think I always imagined it would require some exalted plane of perfection to accomplish that. It did require 15 months. These days I try to focus on the next 15 minutes or 15 hours. By the mercy of Jesus Christ I can handle that.
Nothing about my process has been perfect. Why was I hung up on that? God receives me as a compassionate Father.
I kept hearing my chiropractor say, "Something is better than nothing." This applied to exercise as well as eating choices!
I remember a couple years ago a Reader's Digest article which recommended one small change per week in eating choices. I thought, "I could do that." I started with drinking more water. Then buying whole grain bread. I didn't keep adding a change every single week consistently. But I did mostly continue what I did change.
I read Eating Right for Optimum Health by Andrew Weil, and several biological explanations he gave made a lot of sense. I got more serious about eating food with a lot less sugar. I went to some free seminars about healthy eating and listened with a lot less stubborn defensiveness.
God in His wisdom has His own purposes for why at this particular time I received grace to do things differently. I am grateful.
My chiropractor said, "You think you can't afford to buy mostly fruits and vegetables and high-quality protein. But can you afford to be sick?" I kept thinking about that. I shopped more wisely. I ate more fruits and vegetables.
I got back on Spark People. I started using the Beck Diet Solution steps. I received so much support on SP.
This has been a very gradual, stagger-step process. But as Beck says, I have a lot of tools that work. I know how to handle snags. What I don't know, my Spark friends will tell me!
When you have been 80 pounds overweight a long time, it is very difficult to see yourself any differently. I honestly could not imagine a slimmer self. I did assemble motivational images, but it didn't seem a real prospect. I'm still surprised when I walk up to a plate-glass window and the person reflected there is not obese. But I'll keep reading this Beck chapter and soon I'll believe it!