Thursday, December 05, 2013
What does it take to be happy? Does it mean you have everything you want in life? What does it mean to you?
I have been thinking about happy for awhile now, I know that it is something that I control, my happy or not happy is my problem, I can't lay it at the doorstep of other people. I know that I choose what it is that makes me happy and what doesn't, I also choose to be happy or not to be happy. I realize that we can't be happy all the time, things happen, we lose people we love, lose our jobs, our livelihood. It is normal to be sad and to feel bad now and again. I just don't want to live there. I want to find a way to be happy where I am and rejoice in what I have now. I guess I don't really mean happy so much as contented. You know the feeling that says I have enough and I am enough. That is what I feel like I am working toward. Am I there? No, not by a long shot. I don't always feel like I am enough, I don't always feel that I have enough. That having part I have been working on and am getting much better. I don't really need any more than I have, I am very blessed with a wonderful family, a decent house to live in and enough food to eat. I have plenty of clothes and my house is furnished. I am warm in winter and cool in summer, there really isn't much more that is required to have a happy life.
So that leaves being enough, that is the hard one. No one is harder on you than you. No matter what we seem to find fault with ourselves and plenty of areas where we are lacking. I am working on that too, but struggle with that self talk thing! I will keep plugging away, I feel I am becoming a better me all the time and maybe one day I will be enough for myself!