Sunday, August 11, 2013
Today I decided it's time to take stock and think about where I am at and where I want to be so that's what I'm doing now. Well, I very quietly became a vegan about three months ago and honestly, I LOVE IT! I'm starting to feel like making this change was the missing link in terms of the body I have and the body I desire...for now I truly believe that I WILL have a flat stomach by next summer...that is my primary goal. It will be so awesome to go to the beach then, take my shirt off and feel comfortable about it...not feeling inclined to shy away from water activities like swimming, etc...I can't wait for that day!
However, since going vegan, I haven't lost any weight! But truth, I know why...I've been pigging out! lol but it's not really funny! Seriously, I've been eating so much food since becoming vegan. Thankfully I haven't gained...just maintained so that is good...probably because I have never stopped with regular exercise. Yet even though the # on the scale hasn't really changed for a while, my stomach is getting smaller. And I feel this because my whole unsightly gut is the result of years and years of dairy abuse (also, now that I'm vegan, I'm pretty sure that I am lactose intolerant...sure do wish I realized this sooner but better late than never right?).
So now that I have a handle on eating as a vegan, I am ready to focus on being more strict about the number of calories I consume in order to actually get to the place I want to be in terms of my body image. Even as a vegan, sugar is still my major weakness. You might be surprised at how GOOD vegan desserts can taste even though there is no dairy or eggs. Well, I've partaken a bit too much in all of that deliciousness so from now on, I'm only allowing myself a sweet treat once a week. If I can do that, I know I will succeed at toning up and being as sexy as I can at 34.
I'm really embarrassed/depressed that I'm 34 and still overweight after years of trying *half-assed* to change my appearance into something more desirable. Whatever, I should not focus on the past. Instead I must live in the present and look to the future.
I've said it before so guess I'm saying it again but in order for me to be successful, I HAVE TO log all the food I'm consuming each day and be sure to stay within the appropriate ranges. Even if I worked all day and it took two hours to make dinner afterwards...I still need to figure out what each serving amounted to and log it! It's not really hard...just time consuming but it must be done from here on out.
Alright, that's enough reflection for now so to close this entry, I just want to say, THANK YOU fellow sparkers. You are so inspirational and it helps so much to know that I am not the only person going through this. Keep up the great work everyone!
Frank Paul :-)
Monday, April 01, 2013
I'm very disappointed to report that I have gained back every single pound I lost since joining SparkPeople. I guess the good news is, I haven't gained more than when I joined but geez, I feel like such a loser and am so depressed all! Ultimately, I am to blame...was on top of my game until about September of last year when I injured myself jogging (stress fracture). That's when I went from working out pretty much every day to hardly at all. Then, in November, I started the process of moving into a new apartment...it was stressful and challenging to eat well. Lack of time & energy led to poor choices. But rather than dwell on the past, I am dusting myself off and trying again. Starting today. I have the following specific goals...
1. Track every single piece of food that goes in my mouth, no exceptions. Stop eating when I hit the max for the day no matter what!
2. Get up at 5AM Monday-Friday to get my workout in before work.
3. Aim to lose at least 3 pounds per week. If I succeed at this, I'll be 165 pounds by 4th of July.
I think that's good enough for now, I don't want to set my expectations too high because I'll fail. Anyway, SparkPeople will certainly help me to reach these goals. It's not that I can do it, it's that I will do it. I will be where I want to be by 4th of July. I will.
Frank Paul :-)
Saturday, May 05, 2012
Bootcamp has been quite the commitment but I am enjoying it overall and know that it's helping me with my weight loss goals. It is exhausting to do cardio 5x a week but I'm doing it! One thing I'm noticing is that the ab videos kill me! Clearly this is the area of my body that needs the most attention. I can't believe I'm only a week through it...gonna have to look better on the outside by the time the 30 days is up (I'm already beautiful on the inside right? hehe).
I also learned that most of my overweight friends/family are very stuck in their ways...and although I tried so hard to persuade them to do bootcamp with me, they refused and some even got mad at me because of my persistence. I had to give up on them. At least I was able to get some of them into joining SparkPeople. This website is really helping me to stay on track. There are so many resources that I haven't even had the time to explore yet...definitely lots to do here and learn about.
I'm tracking the food I eat more religiously now. And I'm finding that more often than not, the calories I imagine to be in a food I consume are usually nowhere near the actual #. That's why it is so important for me to keep adding every single food item I put into my mouth into my food tracker. But it's really hard for me to eat only 1850 calories a day! Just gotta take it day by day. I definitely don't feel as hungry as I used to and I have lost 7 lbs so far which is wonderful! I'm 194 now & cannot wait until I'm back in the 180's again...it could be in 2 weeks from now if I keep my focus and don't mess up. At this point, I feel like my brain is rewired for success but my biggest threat is definitely portion sizes. What is considered 1 serving is so small! Even since joining SparkPeople, I've definitely had a few bad nights where I overate but it was still less overeating than the days before SparkPeople. Undoubtedly, this is a daily battle. It's not going to change either...every day, I need to make sacrifices in terms of what I consume...this is just a fact of life now.
I'm going to be 33 in August and I've heard time and time again that after 33, it gets much harder to lose weight. That's why I am so glad that I'm taking care of this issue now before it's too late. When I get hungry, I imagine how sexy I expect to look when I get down to my target weight...but it's so hard for me to visualize. I believe that I need to believe that it's going to happen or it's not going to. I need to see my thin self in order to achieve it even though I haven't had a flat stomach since Kindergarten. It will happen, it will happen, it will, this is the last time I am going to lose this weight...these are permanent changes people because I am sparkling now!
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