Wednesday, June 26, 2013
I mean this blog title in every single sense of the word.
I'm back at work today. Back to the grind. Back to everything...
I'm back to tracking food and exercise minutes, too. So what if my only exercise is in the form of walking. Well, I'm going to walk the crap out of the world until August. I WILL TAKE ALL THE STEPS.
Some of you mentioned that it was a little weird that I didn't seem all that concerned about my eye in the last post and a bit overly concerned with any weight gain. You see, the only thing I feel like I have control over right now is my weight. I can't impact whether my retina heals quickly, or if race directors give me back my money for the races I can no longer do (It adds up to around $250), I can't control if my eye heals correctly, and I certainly can't control the overall outcome. The only thing I can control is what I eat. I can't even control my exercise or my lost fitness.
In short, I feel very, very out of control.
My eye's health is going to be what it's going to be. My recovery is going to take as long as it's going to take. The estimate previously was that I'd be down only until the beginning of July. Now it's looking like it'll be until the end of August. It's all about how well my eye produces the fluid it needs to disparate the air bubble put in to put my retina back in place. Until that happens I cannot run, jump, swim or otherwise play. I can walk and do and exercise bike; but, it's just not what I -want.-
So, in short, that's why I was just so focused on not gaining weight because of this - because I've already lost so much. For example, I'm no longer the lead on the Australia project and I could no longer travel there even if it was requested (due to the bubble.) I've lost out on the opportunity for my first Triathlon and Marathon. I feel like I have no independence because I can't drive (no depth perception.) I can't even lift anything over 20lbs.
So, yes, I'm fixated on weight and food. I know it's not healthy, but it's all I can control.
Alright, back to work. Where I can read for an hour before I have to give my eye a break.
I demand you guys tell me what you're doing to be active so I can live vicariously through you!
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Well, I had wanted to write a victory blog for my one year blog. However. things haven't been so good here in my world.
Last Thursday I had to go to the hospital - I had to go in about three weeks ago for PVD, partial vitreous detachment. What it is is when the gel in your eye on top of your retina detaches. Not a big deal and nothing you can really do about t. the problem is, that it can be a precursor to retinal detachment.
And, last thursday my retina did detach.
Surgery was on Saturday.
Well, here I am. In bed for the fifth consecutive day. The first four days I spent in bed only allowed to look down. No I can lay with my head at an angle; but I'm still not allowed to do anything more difficult than a "strenuous poop."
Yes, that is my work threshold.
Humorous, but ridiculous.
So, I had to cancel my hike this saturday - I got half my deposit back. Now I'm just hoping to be able to get back to training a couple of weeks before the Triathlon. Then it's full speed ahead for Steamtown training.
I'm just praying that I'm able to start running again soon.
So far I haven't gained a crazy amount of weight. I just have to pay attention to what I'm eating. Really, what I eat is about all I can control.
So, fingers crossed, sparklers!
(Please forgive any typos - I typed most of this with my eyes closed. Yeah, I'm not supposed to be reading, either...)
Now, get out there and do something active for me!
Thursday, June 13, 2013
I'm not going to lie, any effort put toward weight loss this week has been purely nutritional.
In short, I feel like a slug. I bailed on my workout buddy on three separate days (Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday) due to this crazy new project I'm working on. I'm getting in to work at 8AM and not leaving until 6. I'm really working hard - and all this mental effort is definitely coming out as physical depletion.
So, the plan today is to bail over lunch and go for a run. Just a 5K - just a quick romp around the city and back. I have my iPod charding now, my Garmin, and I'm ready just to get my legs moving.
This morning I saw a new low on the scale - 182.2 which was a surprise. It shouldn't have been - since I weighed in on the study's scale at 185 (they always have me at 3lbs heavier than my home scale..) and that would put me in at 182. Still, it was a pleasant surprise.
That's about all the news from here - thanks for all the love and support on yesterday's celebration! Onward and upward, Sparklers!
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
I know it's a week early; but, today I got my one year assessment results from the weight loss study.
I haven't talked about it a lot lately so some of you may have no idea what I'm talking about. A year ago I joined a two year study following the impacts and results of technology on young adults abilities to achieve and maintain weight loss. I started the study at 220lbs after managing to lose ten pounds on my own in the six months prior. On the day of my assessment I weighed in a 217lbs.
Why are these numbers important?
Because I am so proud of how far I've come.
The inside of MEEE!!!!!
So, I know, these aren't the photos you were expecting.
That's what the inside of me looks like at 217lbs vs 195 vs 185lbs.
I know, it's not that discernable. Let me give you some numbers that will mean something.
Size 18/20, Size 16/18, and size 12/14.
I've lost 33lbs - and 30lbs of that was fat, 3lbs were muscle. I have gone from my tissue being 48% fat to 40%. I'm making progress. Good Progress.
I'm feeling so very, very inspired.
Of course, there's no telling what these numbers are from my highest - but, these numbers n their face are amazing.
I just had to toot my own horn today, sparklers.
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
That, my friends is what breakfast and lunch looks like on a regular work day.
You see, I don't cook. Ever. Anything. So, getting things that are pre-packaged is important to me.
So, what are my rules?
1. Represent all basic food groups. Protein, Carbs, Fats, Sugars. Well, I should say, sweets. I have a wicked sweet tooth and the only way to keep it at bay is to have something sweet in my grasp or I will make a run for the vending machine.
2. Portion control. Just because a can of Chunky Soup is easy to tote - well, I'll HAVE to eat the whole can. And that can be 300 calories.
3. Plan snacks. Notice how everything is separable? Well, that's intentional. I eat something pretty much every two hours.
4. Beware of high-calorie options. I try to spread out my calories since I'm eating so often during the day
5. Aim for at least one fruit or vegetable a day. Mostly because they take longer to eat and are more filling
Well, them's my rules. When you guys pack (if you pack) do you have anything that you try to accomplish each day?
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