Friday, February 01, 2013
Instead of being mean as it had been in the past when I worked out three days in a row, the scale graced me with a 1lb loss this morning!
I knew there had to be SOME kind of reckoning soon, I've been working too hard for it to keep kicking me in the teeth with 187.2.
Down to 185.6 - CRAZY TALK.
Plans for this weekend include a fantastic 5 mile course with the road runners! Why am I so excited? Because it's just shy of half of my half-marathon distance AND it takes place almost entirely on the course for the Half itself! There is NOTHING more empowering in my mind than running the course before the race - to know what the challenges could be and to knock them down. Really, it's alllll mental.
After crushing my mental foes in the morning then it's time to go to the movies and catch Groundhog day at a local cinema. Come on, who can say no to Bill Murray?
Sunday is the Superbowl 5K. I'm looking forward to having a nice, lazy run. I wouldn't call it a race ;-)
Last night I learned that Muscle Milk lite is best prepared with a little bit of ice and skim milk. I tried it with water and the taste and texture were simply awful. I was reminded of when I was in college and used to drink these chocolate Atkins shakes. Yeah, tasted more or less the same. I'm hoping that adding these shakes to my routine help me feed my body better - that's my only goal. I don't think a shake will ever be something I Can look at as being 'filling' and it certainly won't stave off my mental hunger. But, I think so far I've found that the inheirent sweetness does keep me from considering the run out for icecream at 8PM.
For the curious about why I'm ditching my Fitbit it's not because I'm frustrated with it; it's because I'm not using it. My BodyMedia already tracks everything that the FitBit does and I need to wear the armband for the study.
Well, time to get some real work done. What are you guys doing this weekend?
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Today, the last day in January, I'm taking stock.
It's been a great month, not going to lie! Though, for as great as it's been, I definitely find myself subject to a learning curve.
By the numbers:
30 miles ran
720 Fitness minutes
1069.8 Average daily calorie deficit
When I look at the numbers like that, I'm really happy. Really, really happy. I mean, I've done some work! I think what I want to improve upon (and will improve upon) are my numbers in minutes, mileage and poundage.
You see, I spent the last month playing it by ear and allowing the weather and work to dictate how and when I worked out. So, my minutes are pretty low - five days taken completely off certainly didn't help with that number. In truth, I need to stop paying as much attention to the minutes calculated by BodyMedia and more attention to the minutes I know I do intentionally for exercise. Of course, what's made matters worse is that I didn't set a plan for how I was going to accomplish my goals last month - I literally played it by ear and that just doesn't work for me!
With more miles come more minutes, with more minutes come more pounds banished. It's all a very easy cycle.
So, I've recallibrated my projected weight loss curves for next month (Aiming for between a total of 4 - 6 pounds in February) and I've also added much more specific minutes targets. I can't believe I thought I could get away without projecting my minutes. If you don't set a goal you have nothing to try and achieve!
I also had my check-in call with the Study last night - the idea is to discuss things that are impacting our weight loss to date. The things I know I need to do are 1) track EVERYTHING. Yes, that means tracking the candy-dish, too; 2) eliminate convenience foods like canned soup; 3) Get back on track of running over my lunch. I do admit that I had two very contradictory thoughts: I'm so glad to continue to make downward progress; but, I'm also disappointed that things aren't happening faster! "It's like YAY 1 pound gone forever" and "Boo, just one pound!" Happening at the same time. I'm sure you guys can relate.
So, the revised planned totals for this coming month (February)
58 - 67 miles ran
1150 Fitness minutes
4 - 6 lbs banished
1000 Average daily calorie deficit
I know, you're probably looking at what I did this month and saying: Good God, she's doubling or QUADRUPLING her numbers! Why is that? Because I have a PLAN to execute it.
Mileage: Well, my miles are prescribed by my Half Marathon training program. The low number is based on missing 1-2 runs in the month. The high number is based on reaching the minimum mileage set for the month
Minutes: A few things went into this. First, I calculated out my slowest mileage (12:30 pace) for my miles and applied that to the training program; I also signed up for a 60 minute cross training class on Wednesday mornings (I have to pay for it, so you know this cheap, cheap bastard will be there!); Finally, I'm assuming one day a week I can get to the gym and kick the Elliptical's ass. Or bike. Or something for a total of 30-45 minutes.
Pounds- Based on a 1lb - 1.25lb / week loss projection
Race: Already signed up for a 5K
Sample week's plan (My weeks start on Tuesdays):
Tuesday: Prescribed hill repeats (5 miles / 60 minutes)
Wednesday: Cross Training for Runners class (60 minutes)
Thursday: Prescribed mileage (3 miles / 40 minutes)
Saturday: Long Run (5-7 miles / 60 - 80 minutes)
Sunday: Off / 5K
Monday: Eliptical (Unless preceding day was a race)
Those are all completely do-able numbers. I just have to hold myself accountable to get them done!
The best / worst part of the Wednesday class? It's at 6AM. That means I have no excuse not to go. Except that it's at 6AM.
So, how did everyone else's January stack up? What has the first month of the year taught you about meeting your goals?
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Sorry, "Shake, Shake, Shake-- Shake, Shake, Shake -- Shake your bootay! Shake your bootay!" Just popped into my head.
And now it's in yours, too.
This week has already taken an uptick. Yesterday I had my run with the SCRRC (WHICH WAS AWESOME.) I kicked 4 miles in the junk with an AWESOME chick. Man, she was so level headed I just wanted to absorb her into my own head and use her like a Jimminy Cricket. She also started off at 230lbs - and she's been running for about six months. I was just so thankful she hung back with my slow-poke butt.
My pace used to be an 11:30 mile - I'm now down around a 12:00 mile. I'm just glad to still be running, frankly.
So, I have plans to go be BFFs with the Y this afternoon since we have EPIC thunderstorms comng in. Going to go hit the elliptical hard for about 30-35 minutes.
As to the question in my blog title - Protein shakes, does anybody do them? I get the concept (generally) that protein is what helps bond your muscle back together after you've put those little tears into it that exercise does. However, I'm concerned about 1)bulking up (I have no desire to bulk any part of me) and 2) generally doing something frivolous (Remember, you are in the land of a cheap, cheap bastard.)
I bought a tub of Muscle-Milk light and a blender. The blender makes me happy all by itself - so I don't regret that purchase; but, I'm wondering if I really should be consuming the shakes as part of a post-run recovery?
The only thing I do know is that it's RARE that I meet my protein goals for daily consumption, so it might be a good idea to supplement.
I hate being only marginally informed!
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
I'm not going to lie, the last six days for me have been terrible; however, there was absolutely no reason for them to be that way. In fact; I MADE them that way.
In my last blog I mentioned that I had a magic three pounds show up for no reason. I think, maybe, they're still here.
I am absolutely, positively, PETRIFIED to step on the scale. In the past I've always been able to own my weight. I've been able to fess up to what I've accomplished and to understand that any lack of progress is directly proportional to the work I did not put in. I saw a meme the other day and it sums my opinion up nicely: Don't be upset with the results you didn't get with the work you didn't do.
But this week? This week has been an anomoly. Well, more than anomoly.
I had been going into the week STRONG. I ran five miles in beautiful weather and felt great about it. I spent two consecutive days at the gym and KILLED the elliptical. On top of that, my calorie intake never surged beyond 1300. Sure, the scale ahd stalled; but, it wasn't so bad. Happily, I sat at 186.4.
And then it happened.
My scale, against logic and science went up three pounds. My 186 turned into 189.
This, friends, is the moment where a certain cliche comes to mind: Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.
I, in short, have not reacted well.
I haven't worn my BodyMedia armband since Friday. I haven't tracked since then, either. I decided, actively, that I just didn't want to deal with it anymore. I decided I would eat a cup of icecream for breakfast. I decided I would allow the old ritual of mindless eating and video games to enter my life again. I decided I would do absolutely nothing. NOTHING.
Here I sit on Tuesday looking at what I've done and wondering why I let myself do it.
I did it because it was easy. It was easier than kicking my ass out the door and going for a run on Thursday, Friday, Saturday, or Sunday. It was easier to take my anger and frustration out on myself than to use it as a motivator. There is something very simple about setting yourself up to fail - because it is active and it's something you choose.
So, here I am now. I have to look at my behavior and the feelings that caused it and I have to do something about it. Why? Because that is not the person that I want to be. So, I'm going for my run today. I'm going to go hang out with the real runners this evening and soak up all their athelticism, positivity and grace. I'm going to read all kinds of blogs here on Spark and put my head back on straight.
I'm going to remind myself of one simple, evident truth:
This journey is not just about the scale.
It can never be just about the scale.
I'm going to focus, knuckle down and use all of the determination I have to make amends for my little stumble.
Back to work. I have a half-marathon to run in three months.
Thursday, January 24, 2013
It's been quite an up and down kind of week here. Following my size-14 victory on Sunday and triumphant 5 mile finish on Saturday and Monday I've been kicking the CRAP out of my goals. I've been well within my calorie ranges each day this week in spite of yesterday being 'food day' at work. More importantly, I have shut the voice up inside of my head that tells me that I don't have time to exercise. I've gone to the gym both Tuesday night and Wednesday night after work and got it done. More importantly, I'm feeling pretty darn good. I feel energized, focused, and dare I say healthy.
The downs this week? Well, eating an entire box of Skinny Cow Fudge bars and calling it dinner.. Then there was the whole fear of the treadmill thing. You see, with it being so darn cold here I Can't get my miles in outside. No way! So, I decided in true stubborn fashion that I'd just conquer my fear: I'd run on a treadmill. Now, I don't know what it is that completely terrifies me about the treadmill - but I can think of a few things that are moderately scary. First, I like running outside because, frankly, I run really funny. I'm uncoordinated. Chances are that if someone sees me running it's only for a little while and then I'm gone. No big deal. On a treadmill? I'm there for everyone to gawk at. Second, and still in line with the uncoordinated theme, I am genuinely concerned that I will lose my balance and fall off. Yeah, I think it's a strange blend of social anxiety and fear of physical harm that keep me from running on those little rubber rolling mats.
Finally, the coup de grāce this morning was an extra 2lbs magically appearing.
Now, before everyone reminds me of what I wrote yesterday I will remind myself: It's not about what the scale says from day to day - it's about trends.
But my goodness, 2 pounds?
Trust the Training. I have to trust that I'm doing everything I can to make my body healthier and stronger. Usually I read this phrase in relationship to people who are preparing for races - trust that the training plan has taken you far enough. Trust that days of rest are necessary. Trust. I'm going to trust the training.
What I had originally wanted to write about today was a conversation I had with a coworker. She asked me a very pointed question: What do you feel has made you successful?
I'll admit it, I feel like I've been very successful and will continue to be that way. I currently wear the same size pants I did in high school (though, I think from what I read pants sizes have gotten a bit bigger since 1999) and I'm doing things I never would have dreamed I could have.
So, how'd I get here?
First thing I'm sure of: Wanting to be thin is not going to be enough for me to change my lifestyle habits. If it was that simple, I wouldn't weigh what I did or do now.
Second thing I'm sure of: Going public is the best thing you can do. It's not about the 'humiliation.' No, I believe if I felt 'humiliated' to say what I weighed then I wouldn't like myself enough to do the work that needed to be done. No, going public has unleashed such a wave of support from both close and distant friends alike. I don't even think I can adequately articulate just how much -love- has come my way by being open about my journey
Third thing I'm sure of: Without having a goal that is not weight or size related I never would be where I am. If this whole thing had been about watching the scale move or my clothes loosen up I would have given up three months ago when the scale stopped moving and my clothes fit just fine. What was my goal? To run the Pittsburgh Great Race 5K. I signed up. I paid. I committed. Now I can't stop looking to do more.
Fourth thing I'm sure of: When you find what works for you, whatever it is, ask yourself if it is something you can and will do for the rest of your life. If it's not? Well, then it doesn't work for you.
A week or so ago I posted a very unflattering race photo as proof of what I look like after I conquer a hill. Well, now I have video proof of how much the girl ahead of me should have feared for her life. Start watching at clock-time 1:01 (video time around 26:00 or so..)
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