Saturday, December 08, 2012
I should also mention I moved chairs up and down steps for a half an hour.... That's cardio, right?
Thursday, December 06, 2012
Quick blog today because I'm UBER busy!
I knew today was going to be a 'loss' day because I weighed in last night at 193 and I generally weigh about three pounds less in the morning (after I pee and strip naked...) So, I'm really glad to see the scale cooperating even if it's in this small way.
Yesterday I went shopping for a personal trainer. It's looking like it'll be around $150/month for Three 30 minute workouts a week. I do know one thing: My trainer will not be the guy who gave me my fitness assessment last night. 1) He kept looking at my boobs. 2) He had a nervous laugh that made ME nervous. So, one trainer down, six more to choose from.
Also my dad, bless his heart, sent two dozen cookies to me at work yesterday. He saw on TV that a local restaurant (Eat n' Park) was making and delivering cookies with one of my favorite Christmas traditions on it - and decided I HAD to have some. If you look up on YouTube Eat 'n Park Christmas comercial and watch it, I promise you won't be disappointed. For those who refuse to, well it's adorable. It's just an animated star trying it's little heart out to get up on the Christmas tree. When all hope is lost and the poor little star feels most defeated the tree leans over and picks the star up, lighting everything up with holiday mirth. LOVE it. I don't know, it litterally brings up this odd emotion that makes me sniffle. Seriously.
In any event, they made cookies with the trees on them and my dad sent me some. I gave away 20 of the buggers, ate two (They were delicious!) and saved a couple to send home to him and mom. It was thoughtful and sweet but such a bit of potential sabotage!
Today I decided to wear my short 'icecapades' dress (AKA the one I blogged about being too short) to work today with some leggings. I'm digging my choice and I've got some compliments which is always appreciated.
Tonight is the holiday party for the running club I'm in. I'm already trying to pump myself up about it. I get so nervous about stuff like this. I just have to go and find some nice people to chat with. I will find a nitche. I will find a place I'm comfortable. They can't all hate me / think I'm odd / question why I'm there at all....
So, that's about it from here. Here's hoping the scale keeps going south this week! I'm working REALLY hard at it!
Wednesday, December 05, 2012
So, today I invite you to enjoy and share your Non-Scale-Victories. Because, let's face it, this time of year we all need as much push and motivation to keep with our routines and plans as possible!
It's amazing how something so simple as cold weather or darkness or parties can make us all so prone to taking the easy road away from our goals!
This was my first week without a weigh in at the study. From my own records I know I'm down about half a pound from last week. I also know that my body is going to catch up eventually to the 300+ minutes that I put in last week. I'm already up to 60 for this week! WOO!
Now, on to my NSV. I've mentioned my dog, Jack lots of times. I love him, he's generally awesome. Well, he's also a neurotic jerk; but, he's also a sweetheart, too. Jack and I moved into a new house back in April and I found when we moved he had a very difficult time keeping with his training to walk more gently on a leash. In fact, on several occaisions, he's tried to rip my arm out of it's socket. Because of that, he's been spending most of his outside time on a run - letting him burn off his energy on grass and in the sushine. It's okay, but not best for his very active breed.
Last night I was really late getting home from work. I stuck around until like 6 to queue up some tasks for this morning. By the time I got home it was already 7. (Thankfully, my brother had let Jack out around 1PM!) Trying to get more steps in my life I took the long way home. Then I had an idea - I could take Jack for a nice walk. We'd do the 4-mile loop I like to run on weekends and since it was dark it'd be unlikely we'd run into any of his arch enemies (bikers and joggers.)
The first two miles were a little painful. Lots of pulling and stopping. Pulling and stopping. I know he was just excited to walk; so, I just gently tried to work on training him again.
We hit the half-way point and the skies open up. It'd been lightly drizzling to that point which was no big deal; but, then it started to come down in sheets.
Well, I bit the bullet.
Jack and I ran.
And it was the most pleasurable experience I've ever had with my dog. He stayed right at my side. He didn't pull except for when he got overly excited. He even looked up to see what I was up to and to make sure I was there. It was incredible.
Unless you've ever walked with a dog that's so disconnected from you that it appears he's more interested in a bush than in what you're doing you probably don't understand how amazing it feels -- but, trust me, it was amazing.
More amazing was that once upon a time I couldn't run like that at all. I couldn't do it for two miles. I certainly couldn't pick up the pace to keep up with Jack when he decided he wanted to get home more quickly. (And believe me, he wanted to get home, he kept trying to follow paths up to other people's doors as we passed!)
It was just an incredible moment and I'm not only proud of myself for being able to keep up; but, I'm proud of my dog because it was really a touching moment.
Alright, now that I'm done being a geeky dog lover it's time to get back to work. I hope you all have some NSV's to celebrate today, too. I'm planning on a trip to the gym for 20 minutes of cardio and some time with the weights!
Tuesday, December 04, 2012
So, I wanted to do a short, but sweet note on a topic that is driving me insane: Preventative eating.
If you're anything like me you feel compelled to plan what you're going to eat for the day, especially if you pack your lunch and are being conscious about your caloric intake. I've been thinking for a few days now: My planning has been hardcore skewed.
There are a couple of competing lessons a lot of us with weight issues need to learn: The first is to set ourselves up to make healthy choices. Many of us start this by considering what foods best fit within our goals and working at limiting those that don't. Some of us even exclude foods or replace things entirely. We'll call this the set-up. The second thing we learn is that we need to eat when we're actually hungry. Instead of eating at noon because it's noon. Let's call this being conscious. The third thing some of us have to deal with is eating ahead of time so as to avoid being hungry. We'll call this stockpiling, or preventative eating.
So, for example, I know each day I want to pack about 300 - 400 calories in snacks and plan for around 400 - 500 calories for lunch. So, I've done well, I've planned and I've set myself up. Then I start waiting to be hungry to actually eat.. but I don't want to wait too long because if I wait until I'm ravenous I'm afraid what I've packed won't sate me and I'll make the walk of shame to the vending machine downstairs.
I guess the problem is, at some point in my life I learned that 1) being hungry is bad and that 2) being hungry is a scary thing. I mean, I find myself not waiting until I'm hungry because I don't want to be hungry later.
What a weird way of thinking, huh?
What's so bad about being hungry? Or having a churning tummy to let you know the tank could use filling? What has trained me to want to avoid that feeling?
One thing I've learned along this journey is that I have more self control than I want to believe. I can limit what goes into my mouth and I can be conscious of what I'm eating. So, I've started packing less snacks.
It used to be kind of ridiculous. I'd have a Special K bar for in the morning (100 calorie), String cheese for mid-morning (100 calories), an apple for after lunch (100 calories), and a 100 calorie pack for after that. That's 400 empty 'preventative' calories. Boredom calories.
Calories that when I'm busy I usually don't even eat.
So, I've limited myself this week. I've gone for ONE morning snack (today it's a pear) and ONE afternoon snack (the 3PM 100 calorie pack.) So far I haven't starved to death. I also haven't wanted to die.
So far, so good!
I'll keep you guys appraised!
Monday, December 03, 2012
Welcome to Monday following an upside down weekend for me.
On Saturday was my family 'girls' Christmas party. It's pretty much an excuse to get together... No gifts, just lots of food. And believe me, I overindulged. I think I realistically probably ate around 2000 calories - even though I tracked in at 1700. I showed some restraint, especially in terms of portions; but, I definitely couldn't keep my fingers away from the cookie tray. My mom was also the host and she was kind enough to get the grilled chicken in addition to to the fried kind which was uber thoughtful.
Sunday I decided to do some work on my yard. It's a completely unseasonable 60 degrees here, so I thought I would take advantage. Confession time: I've been your slacker neighbor with a ton of dead crap in my front and side yards since like.. October. I live in the city, so as long as my crap wasn't terrible.. well, nobody could say anything. (I'm sure if I lived in a housing plan or somewhere with an HOA or CCR's, well I'd be screwed...) Well, yesterday I went out and cleaned everything up. Three trash bags of dead weeds later and I have a completely clear front and side yard ready for planting next spring. It must drive my neighbors insane because I love to garden (I did window boxes on my front porch last year); but, I hate to weed.
The weeding, however, really was a workout. I know I can't count the minutes toward my cardio minutes for the study, but two hours of pulling weeds (and a half hour of that on a steep incline) and today I'm feeling sore in whatever muscle is just below my butt. I love it when I'm sore :)
In other news, my FitBit continues to be my saboteur. No, seriously. I'm beginning to think I might NOT want to get the BioMedia armband part of the study. I don't like that it calls me 'active' when I'm just lightly walking. I definitely don't like that it feels like it artificially inflates my SP minutes.
Yet, here I am, still wearing it. Still letting it influence me. Why? Because I'm redefined my goals with relationship to the fitbit. I'm looking at only my 'very active' minutes. Those minutes capture when I'm running or walking briskly. Those are the only ones that will be reported as part of my 300 minute cardio goal. I am, however, thinking of getting one for my mom for christmas. She'd likely adjust the settings to less than the 10000 steps; but, it'd give her motivation to keep moving!
Lately working out has been like pulling teeth. It's terrible. I get so fixated on the clock and I feel like I'm grinding away. I have no idea where my little fire under my ass has gone; but, I'm totally not rocking it right now. I don't want to run. I don't want to bike. I don't want to eliptical. I don't want to do anything. I committed this weekend that I'd 1) go for a run and 2) go to the gym and neither happened. (And I only enabled myself by looking at my fitbit active minutes... grrr...)
Anybody else been here? I have 30 pounds to go! I have a half marathon in May! I have so much left to work for and yet like a college student with too much time before the test I feel like procrastinating. God, I'm procrastinating... Grrr..
I'm thinking of signing up for a month with a personal trainer at the Y. It's expensive, make no mistake of it; but, I think it might help. I also need to get over my phobia of group running because I think getting out with the YES! group and SCRRC would be great. I'm just so flipping scared. At this point those who read my blog are aware of my whole social anxiety thing; but, when having a social element is exactly what I need to keep going... well... Ugh.
Now that I've babbled on forever I'm going to wish you guys a happy Monday! Another chapter in my love/hate relationship with the fitbit to come!
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