Wednesday, November 28, 2012
So, it's a really tumultuous time right now for me. Precarious, if you will. You see, it's the time of change and rest and reallignment.
You see, we just hit the six month mark of our time on the IDEA study. Last night it was time to evaluate our progress to date and to really think about how far we've come and how to get where we ultimately want to go to.
You see, I've spent six months modifying my behaviors and changing the way I view food, exercise and ultimately what I'm capable of.
I can't believe it.
There were three questions we were posed last night and we ranked ourselves from 1 to 10. 1 being poor, 10 being amazing.
1. How well would you say you've been in terms of attending the weekly meetings? 8. I missed one meeting because I just couldn't do it. I did make up meetings for the other two I missed. So, at 24 weeks and three missed meetings.. well, I feel pretty darn amazing.
2. How well have you adhered to your calorie intake goals? 5. I've been the lamest calorie intaker ever. I think I've said it a million times - I've never exactly been one for the 1200 calorie goal. It just FEELS so restrictive. So, I aim for between 1300 and 1500. Sometimes I'm below it, sometimes I'm not. I do know one thing: I lose more weight when I'm closer to 1200, that's for sure.
3. How well would you gauge your exercise minutes? 8.5. I've done pretty well in this department. It's become more difficult for me as time has gone on to meet all of my fitness goals. (300 is A LOT of minutes); but, I have consistently made efforts to get all of my minutes in - even if it's just with a walk. The number of minutes is important because (as they keep reminding us) people who consistently do 250 or more minutes of intentional fitness a week (not just counting their steps, but adding additional intentional steps) tend to avoid the rebounding of their weight.
These questions are important because we now meet once a month from here on out. That's right, the training wheels come off. We don't even have to turn in paper diaries of our food intake anymore. We don't have to do much of anything at all, really.
The six month mark is also the point of maximum adherence to the weight loss program according to research. Whatever our weight loss slope looks like at the moment... well, it's going to continue to look like that. For the last six weeks I've averaged about a half a pound of loss per week according to the study's scales. This week I lost 2 pounds. Two whole fantastic pounds. During a holiday week.
Let that sink in.
I'm feeling revitalized.
I'm feeling hopeful. Suddenly, at 192.4, I feel like I can make it down into the mid-180's for the end of the year. 180's. Insane.
Still, I do have a lot of work to do. The goal weight is on or about 160ish. I'd like to be size 12. Right now I'm a size 14/16 walking around in size 18 pants. Yes, I'm too cheap to go buy new ones.
The big thing I have to work toward is the Pittsburgh Half Marathon. It's in May. My training program doesn't start until January 1. The first training run is January 5th. I have essentially a month on my own to do anything but run. Why would I say that? Because I think I'm more than a little burned out on the running thing. So, I'm going to do more gym stuff. I want to do more circuit training. More time with building muscle and strength. The other day I decided I would try and do some of the exercises from our circuits and I was so dismayed to find that pushups eluded me and I didn't have the core strength that I used to.
So, at least I have a new focus!
I just feel like I REALLY have to pay attention for the next four weeks or so until the new training program starts. I also need to get my mojo back - and the best way to do that is to enter a training framework excited and prepared.
All I want for christmas is a personal trainer.
Monday, November 26, 2012
Well, I suppose I should take a couple minutes to update everyone on what's going on out here in cheap, cheap bastard land.
On Thanksgiving I ran my first ever five mile race. I actually walked a little toward the end and that was probably because 1) all of the 5K people turned off and finished (BOO!) and the last 3/4ths of a mile I was surrounded by other people who were clearly struggling. I watched one woman's YouTube video once and her third or fourth piece of race-day advice was to power past people who have slowed down to walk or struggling - she likened them to energy suckers.
I hate to say that I now know I agree.
Mostly it's because seeing other people walk makes me feel like it's not so bad if I walk too. It makes it easier to bargain with myself. It makes it so, so simple to just say "I'll walk to that cone and then run again."
I finished in 1 hour flat - which equates to 12 minute miles. Much slower than I usually go. The trot was busy with lots of other runners and people with strollers and people with dogs. It was congested and at several points it simply bottlenecked. The worst part was that when I finished the recovery bits (i.e. water station, bagels, bananas etc) were all gone! Well, not gone, but put away! WTF. I know that people wanted to be able to get home to their own Thanksgiving, but I wound up with a serious case of sand-brain (or that dry feeling like all of your brain juice has dried up and the prelude to something very much what I imagine a migrane feels like) because I couldn't get anything to drink after the race. I don't think disappointing was the word. So, I'm planning on writing a note to the race organizers, suggesting they plan to have people there until the clocks are actually taken down from the race. If the clock's still running there should be someone there to support the finishing runners, just my opinion.
In other news I met the people from my new running club! I also bought some inspirational gear from them! Runner of steel arm warmers! Going to come in handy during these winter month runs, that's for sure! They're very friendly, in my age group, and EXTREMELY welcoming.
So glad to have found them.
Speaking of the running group they've managed to get Jeff Galloway (You know, that guy who's a famous running coach and founder of the Galloway Method of training.) Lots of people use his stuff for their first 5K and his run-walk method is very well regarded. So, I'm excited to go and see him speak and get to do a training run with him! Unfortunately, it's the same day as the Jingle Bell run, which I had hoped to do. However, the Jingle Bell run was a 5K and I think I'll gain more by doing the 5 miler with Galloway.
Let's see... Calorie watch has been going well. Down to 193 this morning and rapidly closing in on my 180's goal for the end of the year. Very, VERY, excited to see that event. I can't wait to see the number 189 on my scale.
So, I haven't been around much because I feel like a lot of my blogs are repeatitive. "Oh, I'm plateauing!" "Oh, the plateau is over!" "Oh, wait, nevermind!" Lather. Rinse. Repeat. So, I'm struggling to find new and interesting things to write about.
Today's new and interesting thing is that I'm really glad a few of you have learned to love Mod Cloth as much as I do! Just pay attention to the reviews! Seriously, they're usually pretty good.
(Also glad that you guys love the Coach Tour dress as much as I do (Especially you, PomatoJuice.)
So, at 295 minutes this week I'm really proud of myself. I'm going to get a walk in this afternoon just so I can push that number over the edge :)
Alright, time to work! Welcome back from holiday, everyone! Here's the countdown starting until christmas!
Monday, November 19, 2012
Good morning everyone!
Just a relatively quick blog today because I'm still SWAMPED at work.
Had the strangest feeling last night. I turned over, went to scratch my back and came to a realization - there wasn't a roll where there was supposed to be one. This was the most surreal experience I've had in ages. The sort of feeling like "Huh."
It actually gave me pause.
There are bits of my body that I kind of 'check' if you know what I mean. I pinch the fat at my back just below my ribs. I feel the 'dent' in my thigh and the crease at my hips. I run my fingers along beneath my chin.
It sounds kind of creepy to admit to, though.
I mean, those are the places that I notice. The bits of myself where I wish I had less bits.
And I am.
I never thought I'd have less fat anywhere. I mean, it's one thing for my clothes not to fit (something I so desperately want to blame on their wearing out); but, it's another to not be able to physically grab places like I used to.
So, I guess I'm saying that it's finally starting to feel like I'm making progress. Physical progress. Visible progress. Like it or not, though, I still feel like I weigh 230 pounds. I still feel like I'm the size of someone who ought to be wearing a size 20 but squeezes into a size 18. I still feel obese. I still feel too 'big.'
I wonder when that feeling will go away.
So, on today's episode of 'Airing our Insecurities...'
I hope all of you have a fantastic day. If you're having unseasonably warm weather (like I am!) I hope you get to go out and enjoy it!
Friday, November 16, 2012
Good morning, Sparklers!
Welcome to Friday! YAY!
I hope everyone can see the end - it's near!
So, this weekend I have plans to do my first 4 mile race with the Steel City Road Runners Club. These are real runners. I hope they don't judge me too much! They're having a 'low key' race on a trail this weekend. So, I'm excited just to try. I know I can do the distance, I'm just going to pace myself and take my time.
In other news I bit the bullet yesterday and I joined the Y. Yes, I squirmed the entire time. Yes, I will squirm for the duration of my membership. But, I really do like the facility and I'll really be ready when it comes time to start triathalon training. (That's a long, long way away, folks!)
So, today's plan is to spend an hour with my BFF the stationary bike. Then I want to do some quick interval training and some strength. Nothing too big, just enough to get a little fatigue in my gut and my arms which seem to be worked out the least from all this running I do.
In other news, yesterday was not my day for running. Honestly, this hasn't been my week for much. I'd get right into my stride, be there for five minutes and then somehow bargain myself into walking. Huh? I wasn't even short of breath or in pain. WTF. Man, I need to cultivate some mental toughness over here or I'm never going to make it through the 13.1!
Work has been insane (and I foresee it continuing to be that way until December.) The only thing that makes it suck is that 1) my dog likes to pee and 2) I go home and all I want to do is eat. It's terrible.
So, I have a couple of hurdles and behaviors to work on going into the winter months; but nothing that I think will keep me from taking off the remaining 30 lbs!
I had hoped to be down around 180 for the start of the new year. As I sit right now my scale claims I'm 194. I don't know that 14lbs is do-able (in fact, I'm pretty sure it's not.) Still, I'll be happy to crack the 180's generally, and that is do-able.
Do you guys set year end goals? I'm not really a 'new year's resolution' kind of girl; but, for some reason I do find things that I want to do before the end of the year. Maybe that speaks to my inner procrastinator?
So, outside of 'scheduling' my remaining goals I also have my remaining schedule for the FKC. We're going to monthly meetings in two weeks. Which is insane. I don't know if I'm ready for the training wheels to come off yet! For the curious, I go to weekly meetings where we talk about strategies, goals, and habits related to weight loss. Some of the meetings have been pretty 'no-duh' kind of things (like portion control); but, last week's meeting about eating slowly was a real eye opener.
I had no idea how much I love cheese, hate saltines, and LOVE chocolate. The exercise was to spend like two minuntes on a miniscule portion of food. Really taste it. Really examine it. Really think about it. I mean, intentional eating - probably the third thing I need to work on at this point! Who doesn't just hoover what's in front of them? (I have an answer to this: My Mother. She is the slowest eater I've ever known.)
Well, guys, only seven hours between me and the weekend!
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Welcome to Thursday, people.
Man, I feel like I'm stuck in groundhog day.
Fortunately, I'm going to choose to be glad I have great weather outside to run in over lunch rather than focus on my morning that imploded.
So, the blog I actually had planned for yesterday is the one I'm writing today.
You see, when I went for my 4 miler on Saturday I felt like a running turd. Nothing felt right. Well, Pandora in all it's wisdom chose the best song ever for the last quarter mile - Katy Perry's Firework. Let me tell you something, kiddos - that song can get me moving when I don't have any juice yet.
So, in five pound increments - I dedicate my weight loss to the songs that give me that little bounce in my step to keep moving:
5lbs to - Pink - Raise Your Glass
5lbs to - Katy Perry - Firework
5lbs to - Great Big Sea - Ordinary Day
5lbs to - Survivor - Eye of the Tiger
5lbs to - Lady Gaga - Edge of Glory
Honorary 2lbs to Eminem - Lose Yourself
So, I hope you guys have found your "Get it in gear!" songs. I'd also love if you'd share what they are! After all, I can always use more of them tunes in my arsenal!
Happy almost friday, everyone!
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