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Friday, March 11, 2011

I posted earlier this week about my cousin's death. As you can imagine, it hasn't exactly been easy to keep with the program at this time. Today was the funeral and the wake. For those who don't know what a wake is it's where everyone who attended the funeral goes and has a meal to remember the deceased by. I'm sure everyone understands that the last thing on my mind today was having a healthy meal.

I was exhausted today. That's the only word for it.

I haven't been sleeping very well but I'm hoping that now that this has some kind of closure maybe I'll be able to sleep a bit better. I was able to say my goodbyes and comfort those my cousin has left behind.

Really, my cousin Patrick was a special soul. He was eight years younger than me and really had such a kind heart. He loved animals and music. At 20 he was just getting his life in order having enrolled in college for a BS in environmental science - he wanted to work with animals. He was taken tragically in a car accident last Sunday. His car hit a patch of ice and slammed into another car that had spun out. He was wearing his seatbelt. Really, he hadn't done anything wrong and neither had that driver. No, this is a tragedy in the truest sense.

However, what I hadn't thought of before was how Patrick inspires me. He was always heavy - nearly double his own weight. Well, until he took control of what he was eating and learned about nutrition. I always wanted to ask him how he did it, how he went from being such a 'heavy' kid to such a healthy adult.

Now I'll never have a chance.

However, I want to keep Patrick in my thoughts - I'm adding a picture of him to my profile as inspiration.


Today's Best thing:
Today's biggest challenge:

  


What's inspired me.

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

I have to tell you all, I'm a nerd.

I want you to imagine comic book conventions. Star Trek Conventions. Places where people sit in windowless rooms and play video games and board games and debate about trivia.

I want you to think of people dressed in costumes like superheroes and pop culture icons.

I want you to know you've jut entered my favorite place in the world.

Once a year I go to the largest pop culture fan convention in the south - DragonCon. It takes place in Atlanta GA. I've been going for five years now. I love it. It takes everything I love from Star Trek to costuming and it puts it all in one place.

Why does this inspire me?

Well, actually, it's the Green Lantern that inspires me. The Green Lantern is powered by strength of will, and with my willpower I'm hoping that come September I can maybe wear spandex without fear. I want to do a Green Lantern costume.

In the past I've done all kinds of costumes and in addition this year I really want to do a Green Lantern one.

Goodness, I hope I can.

I really, really hope I can.

I want this bad.

So, on to today's best thing and challenge.

BEST THING: 40 minute walk at lunch time that got my heart pumping. It was beautiful. For the first time in a long time I was hungry for dinner when I got home
BIGGEST CHALLENGE: Eating enough protein.

In other news I bought a new work out game for my Wii. So far I'm wishy washy on it. Though, I think I like it better than Wii Fit.

Keep on keepin' on.

  
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IRONGRANNIE 3/10/2011 1:30AM

    I must admit I simply can't imagine it but what the hey? I know you will wear that Green Lantern costume because it means so much to you and is fantastic motivation!

Go for it!

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KAZINMICH 3/9/2011 12:30PM

    I love ComicCon and I'm so jealous of DragonCon! I haven't gone to either. A coworker of mine has. I will go to one of them! I'm part nerd, and I work with a bunch of programmers. LOL. I love gaming, yet I don't do it often due to family & lack of time. I say GO FOR IT! You can do it! And I want to see Pictures!!!

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Today was not good.

Monday, March 07, 2011

Yesterday my cousin was killed in a car accident. Suffice it to say, my head isn't exactly in the game. I did well sticking to my goals and I've tracked everything. I'm just feeling out of sorts.

Best thing of today: Jogged with the dog
Biggest challenge: Finding my motivation.

  
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WALKZWDOGZ 3/24/2011 12:58AM

    Please know thoughts & prayers are with you! What a shocking loss! I am so sorry.

Be kind to yourself & allow time to grieve. Endorphins & time with your dog can certainly help, but grief takes time & energy. Thinking of you. emoticon

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IRONGRANNIE 3/8/2011 7:59PM

    I am so sorry to haer about your cousin. It is really hard when you lose someone young unexpectedly. Just hang in there and do the best you can.

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LINDABENEDICT 3/7/2011 8:19PM

    So sorry to hear about the death of your cousin. My prayers are with you and your family.

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BAM-MA 3/7/2011 7:25PM

    I am SO SORRY! Losing someone that is close to you is impossibly hard, especially when they are young and it is sudden.

Allow yourself to grieve, but it is good if you can stay on track. If you fall, you can get up. Hang in there. My prayers are with you.

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It's getting scary

Sunday, March 06, 2011

So, Monday is the day.

Monday is the first time I'll have weighed myself since starting the program. One whole week of eating healthy (not starving, just healthy,) being active, and trying to keep my focus. I would be lying if I didn't say I'm completely petrified of what the scale is going to say. Honestly, I've had a sort of 'off' weekend. I didn't eat as well yesterday or today as I would have liked (I think the fried chicken may have been my downfall...), but I've stayed active. I have done more in the last week with a purpose than I have in a while.

I'm just so scared that if I step on the scale tomorrow I'll feel nothing but disappointment. I don't feel lighter. I don't have clothing that feels any looser. The only thing that feels different is a bit more of a punch of energy.

I'm not discouraged by any means; but, not seeing the scale move at all could certainly be a big hit.

I think I might skip it.

I'm such a wimp.

  
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BAM-MA 3/7/2011 5:03PM

    WOO HOO!!
It looks like you did weigh in... do I see a 3.5 lb loss there ? Don't be afraid of a weekly weigh in when you first start. Early on is when the scale is your friend. Especially the first 2-3 weeks. If you are following your "program" and hitting your workout and nutritional goals (are you tracking your intake?) the scale will show progress. If you are missing your goals, the scale will tell you to get with it.

It is after you really start to hit your stride with working out, water, and nutrition, that the scale will show less progress. You will start to build muscle. I keep expecting to hit that point, but as of yet, the scale is still my friend.

Keep with it, you are doing great!

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HOTPINKACTION 3/6/2011 10:47PM

    It totally is NOT fun to get on the 1st time after a LONG time of weighing yrself in BUT after you continue to the use the tools on this site you'll become SO MUCH MORE motivated to keep up the good work as the scale starts to tick down.

Do NOT weigh yrself every day - I did that & was almost in tears one day until I learned that weekly weigh ins are LESS stressful!

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KAZINMICH 3/6/2011 10:41PM

    Try not to worry too much about the scale. Do it, get it done with and move forward. Think of the progress you have made, and keep making good choices!!!

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GOOFIERNU 3/6/2011 8:33PM

    Do it, track it, let it go.
Like TBID227 said, remember the 80% rule. One piece of fried chicken won't do you in. If you feel you ate too much, do ACAGIA_24's suggestion and do some loving movement to counter it.

And I like how CHUBBY_MOM put it- It's NOT always about the numbers. Focus on health, how you you feel and making healthy choices. You can do this!

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TBID227 3/6/2011 6:23PM

    It's just a number. Says the girl who has not weighed! I just take my measurements. BUT, don't forget the 80% rule, even healthy people let themselves eat fried chicken once in a while! And again, the scale is just one number, albeit, an important one to most of us, but it is just part of the picture. If you have been eating healthy in general, getting in your nutrients to fuel your body, being more active, etc, than you are taking steps toward a much healthier you! No one ever gained weight with one or two meals, it is only gained with a lifestyle of eating unhealthy, not the occasional meal! So, hang in there, don't worry, it will all be fine!

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WYO_CASEY 3/6/2011 4:34PM

    Don't skip it!!! If you skip it, you'll be double stressed next week! I weigh myself every day* and even if I know I didn't follow my meal plans or exercise plans, I weigh myself. It hold you accountable for what you have done and gives you another week to correct yourself! BTW...today isn't overwith. Jump back on that horse! Go for a walk, do some situps/pushups, turn on a good CD and dance!


*I know I know...you're not supposed to do that, but it honestly keeps my focus on weight loss otherwise I somehow convince myself I can let loose for several days and be able to catch up on the others. WRONG

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WYO_CASEY 3/6/2011 4:33PM

    Don't skip it!!! If you skip it, you'll be double stressed next week! I weigh myself every day* and even if I know I didn't follow my meal plans or exercise plans, I weigh myself. It hold you accountable for what you have done and gives you another week to correct yourself! BTW...today isn't overwith. Jump back on that horse! Go for a walk, do some situps/pushups, turn on a good CD and dance!


*I know I know...you're not supposed to do that, but it honestly keeps my focus on weight loss otherwise I somehow convince myself I can let loose for several days and be able to catch up on the others. WRONG

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CHUBBY_MOM 3/6/2011 3:06PM

    You have to remember it isn't always about the numbers on scale. It is more about the feeling healthy and making the right choices. I'm sure if you have been active though that there will be a smaller number on that scale! emoticon

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Blog before bed

Saturday, March 05, 2011

Today positively flew.

I think I thought about a million things to blog about today including (in no particular order)

- How my shopping habits have changed thanks to SP
- The challenge of eating healthy surrounded by 20-something year old guys
- My feelings on Wii-Fit
- How I don't gain weight on vacation
- My foe the snooze button
- Chewing gum to avoid eating so much

Topic I've picked? What vacation means to me.

You see, I think a lot of people go on vacation to relax. Makes sense, right? You're taking time from a job or other responsibilities and nothing sounds better than sitting back and doing nothing, right?

That's so not me.

In fact, when I go on vacation I plan a million things I want to do. I pick out tours and destinations and I make sure I have comfortable shoes. I've done a lot of travel in the last two years, mostly international. In a week and a half I'm headed to London again and I just know it's going to be a boost to my lifestyle. Imagine, spending days getting up around 7:30 where you just don't stop walking until around 8:00 PM? I don't log my vacations as exercise, but I'm sure they are.

Really, I don't even eat as much on them, either. I'm so focused on enjoying being in a foreign place that while I might enjoy a meal out - I'm not stopping to pick up things to fill my mouth with.

So, here's to my birthday in London this year, hopefully a great compliment to my new lifestyle!

  
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KAZINMICH 3/7/2011 12:51PM

    That Totally sounds like me on Vacation!!! I want to move, explore, visit, find, get in trouble.. i mean.. um.. lol!!! Vacation is a way to get away from my reality of every day living, and find new places, people, and things to laugh about, take pictures of, and enjoy.

I'm jealous of your birthday in London. I will do that some day. My daughter has 2 more years of High School left, I'm hoping once she's in college things will settle down for us and we can begin really enjoying life, traveling, having fun. of course we will try to have a vacation with her every year, but all the possibilities open up!

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TECAVINESS 3/5/2011 11:59PM

    Sounds like you have a plan. I think you will have a great time on your vacation. I am jealous. Here's to your new healthy lifestyle. Enjoy.

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