Friday, March 11, 2011
I posted earlier this week about my cousin's death. As you can imagine, it hasn't exactly been easy to keep with the program at this time. Today was the funeral and the wake. For those who don't know what a wake is it's where everyone who attended the funeral goes and has a meal to remember the deceased by. I'm sure everyone understands that the last thing on my mind today was having a healthy meal.
I was exhausted today. That's the only word for it.
I haven't been sleeping very well but I'm hoping that now that this has some kind of closure maybe I'll be able to sleep a bit better. I was able to say my goodbyes and comfort those my cousin has left behind.
Really, my cousin Patrick was a special soul. He was eight years younger than me and really had such a kind heart. He loved animals and music. At 20 he was just getting his life in order having enrolled in college for a BS in environmental science - he wanted to work with animals. He was taken tragically in a car accident last Sunday. His car hit a patch of ice and slammed into another car that had spun out. He was wearing his seatbelt. Really, he hadn't done anything wrong and neither had that driver. No, this is a tragedy in the truest sense.
However, what I hadn't thought of before was how Patrick inspires me. He was always heavy - nearly double his own weight. Well, until he took control of what he was eating and learned about nutrition. I always wanted to ask him how he did it, how he went from being such a 'heavy' kid to such a healthy adult.
Now I'll never have a chance.
However, I want to keep Patrick in my thoughts - I'm adding a picture of him to my profile as inspiration.
Today's Best thing:
Today's biggest challenge:
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
I have to tell you all, I'm a nerd.
I want you to imagine comic book conventions. Star Trek Conventions. Places where people sit in windowless rooms and play video games and board games and debate about trivia.
I want you to think of people dressed in costumes like superheroes and pop culture icons.
I want you to know you've jut entered my favorite place in the world.
Once a year I go to the largest pop culture fan convention in the south - DragonCon. It takes place in Atlanta GA. I've been going for five years now. I love it. It takes everything I love from Star Trek to costuming and it puts it all in one place.
Why does this inspire me?
Well, actually, it's the Green Lantern that inspires me. The Green Lantern is powered by strength of will, and with my willpower I'm hoping that come September I can maybe wear spandex without fear. I want to do a Green Lantern costume.
In the past I've done all kinds of costumes and in addition this year I really want to do a Green Lantern one.
Goodness, I hope I can.
I really, really hope I can.
I want this bad.
So, on to today's best thing and challenge.
BEST THING: 40 minute walk at lunch time that got my heart pumping. It was beautiful. For the first time in a long time I was hungry for dinner when I got home
BIGGEST CHALLENGE: Eating enough protein.
In other news I bought a new work out game for my Wii. So far I'm wishy washy on it. Though, I think I like it better than Wii Fit.
Keep on keepin' on.
Monday, March 07, 2011
Yesterday my cousin was killed in a car accident. Suffice it to say, my head isn't exactly in the game. I did well sticking to my goals and I've tracked everything. I'm just feeling out of sorts.
Best thing of today: Jogged with the dog
Biggest challenge: Finding my motivation.
Sunday, March 06, 2011
So, Monday is the day.
Monday is the first time I'll have weighed myself since starting the program. One whole week of eating healthy (not starving, just healthy,) being active, and trying to keep my focus. I would be lying if I didn't say I'm completely petrified of what the scale is going to say. Honestly, I've had a sort of 'off' weekend. I didn't eat as well yesterday or today as I would have liked (I think the fried chicken may have been my downfall...), but I've stayed active. I have done more in the last week with a purpose than I have in a while.
I'm just so scared that if I step on the scale tomorrow I'll feel nothing but disappointment. I don't feel lighter. I don't have clothing that feels any looser. The only thing that feels different is a bit more of a punch of energy.
I'm not discouraged by any means; but, not seeing the scale move at all could certainly be a big hit.
I think I might skip it.
I'm such a wimp.
Saturday, March 05, 2011
Today positively flew.
I think I thought about a million things to blog about today including (in no particular order)
- How my shopping habits have changed thanks to SP
- The challenge of eating healthy surrounded by 20-something year old guys
- My feelings on Wii-Fit
- How I don't gain weight on vacation
- My foe the snooze button
- Chewing gum to avoid eating so much
Topic I've picked? What vacation means to me.
You see, I think a lot of people go on vacation to relax. Makes sense, right? You're taking time from a job or other responsibilities and nothing sounds better than sitting back and doing nothing, right?
That's so not me.
In fact, when I go on vacation I plan a million things I want to do. I pick out tours and destinations and I make sure I have comfortable shoes. I've done a lot of travel in the last two years, mostly international. In a week and a half I'm headed to London again and I just know it's going to be a boost to my lifestyle. Imagine, spending days getting up around 7:30 where you just don't stop walking until around 8:00 PM? I don't log my vacations as exercise, but I'm sure they are.
Really, I don't even eat as much on them, either. I'm so focused on enjoying being in a foreign place that while I might enjoy a meal out - I'm not stopping to pick up things to fill my mouth with.
So, here's to my birthday in London this year, hopefully a great compliment to my new lifestyle!
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