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IDEA - Day 54-55: An Ode to Fiber One and PowerAde Zero

Monday, August 13, 2012

Good morning my lovely sparklers!

This week's blog begins with a heartfelt thanks to all of you who commented on Saturday's blog. I didn't really want to think about why it's taking me so long to get this costume sewn - and really, it's because I'm worried about how well I'm going to pull it off. I just need to remember - something well sewn and well fitted on a larger individual looks a million times better than the opposite on a thinner one!

This morning a great topic for a blog post came to me - an ode to the Fiber One Brownie and PowerAde Zero.

You see, I am a girl with an INSANE sweet tooth. I grew up in a home where the beverage of choice was something carbonated and sweet. (I remember going to sleep as a child with a can of pepsi.) Cakes and pies are things to be devoured - a slice is not 1/16th or even 1/8th of a pie; no, more like 1/6... Cookies. Fruit snacks... Sugary laden anything! Oh, these are the things I grew up with and they still argely populate my parent's home to this day.

Well, I don't allow them into mine.

Needless to say, going cold turkey was a recipe for disaster, so I've found a few things that sate my cravings for things not so wholesome. Well, right now it's two big things: Fiber One products and Zero Calorie Powerade.

Now, the fiber one brownies I never would have tried on my own - it sounded like something that would be a woeful disappointment. Well, the brownie has turned into my evening dessert. It tastes right and has enough substance that I feel like I'm indulging.

The powerade has given me another stop-gap in my quest for sweets. It tasts sugary without an aftertaste and it keeps me from skulking around my kitchen looking for something sweet that isn't there. I find I drink 2 or 3 a week. The Powerade is especially helpful for when I'm at games night and everyone else is drinking their calories down 3 or 4 cans of coke at a time. Like an alcoholic drinking water at the bar, I cling to that plastic bottle with all of my might.

I know what some people are thinking - where's the fruit? I don't find that fruit gets rid of my processed food desserty cravings like the above do.

So, what are everyone else's strategies? Do you have a food that 'feels' like your cheating even though you're not?

Additional happiness to share: The scale this morning said 205! 2-0-5! So excited! That's 25 pounds down since March! I also tried on an old pair of size 16 jeans I'd been holding onto. I was skeptical, they'd been laundered and shoved into a closet for a couple of years. Well, they fit again! I just had an absolutely incredible weekend, there's no getting around it!

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GINGERLY4 8/15/2012 9:05AM

    WOOT, Congratulations on 25 pounds! I'll have to try the Fiber One brownies, I've been reluctant to spend the money on something I wasn't sure about. Do they have the same side effects as the bars do?

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AWESOMEKATY 8/14/2012 6:46AM

    I'm so glad that you've found things to satisfy your sweet tooth without breaking your calorie budget! I used to love FiberOne products but now my go-to is sugar free chocolate pudding! I'm also popping my own popcorn to save on calories but fill me up!!



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SKEETOR 8/13/2012 9:03PM

    Congrats on your 25 lbs! emoticon

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A_WISE_WOMAN 8/13/2012 12:33PM

  Congratulations on 25 pounds released!

I don't have a food like that. I still have a little bit of sweets, but I've cut way back, and it's turned into a spiral: the less I have, the less I want, to the point where the other day I took my 'normal' amount, and found I just didn't want that much (it actually ended up tasting yucky sweet!), and could get rid of the excess. So the next day I took less. And this from someone who would binge on sweets!

Thanks for sharing!

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IDEA - Day 53: In need of motivation, Stat!

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Alright, I know, the title of my blog is a little misleading. I have plenty of motivation to make good choices - eating and exercise wise. What I don't have any motivation to do right now is sew.

I need to make a jacket, armor and leggings for August 30th - and I can hardly even bring myself to start today.


In other news I tried to get my exercise in today while walking my dog. Big mistake. Not only does he constantly stop, he pulls when he isn't stopped.

Oh, Jack, you almost got donated to somebody else today.

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GINGERLY4 8/12/2012 10:06PM

    I'm jealous. I want to sew, but need to get my machine serviced!

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A_WISE_WOMAN 8/12/2012 7:15PM

  So what's the part that's REALLY stopping you? Getting out the machine, the materials, putting it away when you're done, you're not confident you can do it....? Once you've identified that, find a way to get around that icky part. And maybe just getting started is the hardest part; once you get over that hurdle, the rest will be a cake walk (does anyone use that phrase any more?). However you perceive it will be the way you respond to it, so maybe it's just a matter of refocusing to the parts you look forward to, even if it's the completed piece!

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SKEETOR 8/12/2012 3:30PM

    What happens on Aug 30th?
Best to start sewing today so if something unexpected comes up you can avoid an all nighter! emoticon

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BECCABOO127 8/12/2012 3:21PM

    I only take my dog walking with me sometimes-for his enjoyment--not for my actual exercise walk. Jack sounds like a cutie though, just like my Larry, the bich-poo.

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MSMOSTIMPROVED 8/12/2012 11:42AM

    Jack sounds like my 8 year old boy and I can't even threaten to donate him!!! Now get to sewin'


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LILAC_LANE 8/12/2012 7:30AM

    I don't take my dog when I'm walking for that same reason. :)

Just think about how awesome the person wearing your designs will look when the project is finished!
Have a great day!
(The Peppy Party Team)

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MJREIMERS 8/11/2012 7:04PM

    Some days we just need to do what we have to do. I'm jealous! I don't own a sewing machine, but loved to sew back in the day. Pick the easiest one and start. Once it's completed you will feel great about what you accomplished and hopefully, will be motivated to finish!! Good luck!

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Cultivating Mental Toughness

Friday, August 10, 2012

Since I've had a lot of time to do thinking while I'm not running, I've been reflecting on my most recent runs and how I could have improved them. I genuinely believe that the ones I didn't complete, or that I lagged on occurred because I mentally wasn't in the game. I wasn't focused or driven enough to push my body harder.

How do I know this?

Because I seldom stop at a point where it feels like I'm truly tired. My limbs aren't heavy, I'm breathing hard, but it's not uncontrolled. I'm uncomfortable - but that isn't always a bad thing.

I've decided I need more focus in my life.

I found a great article (here:
al/) about the use of mental toughness training by Navy Seals. I think over the next few days I'm going to choose one method a day and really hone in on it. Today's focus: Goal setting.

As defined in the article: Goal-setting. I don't mean "what are you going to do with your life". I mean, "How are you going to get through the next half hour"?

How do I plan to make it through my 20-25-30 or even 40 minute run?

Step one, of course, is preparation. Doing my stretches, hydrating properly and going into the run with a clear head. I can and I will complete what I've set out to do.

More importantly, I'm going to be my own coach. It's great that my App tells me when to run and when to walk - it doesn't tell me that I can. I can do that.

Next I intend to do more self assessment. Am I going slowly because I'm tired? Am I threatening to walk because I'm bored? Listening to my body is paramount and remembering that each run only makes me stronger and I only get that particular opportunity once is fuel for my spirit.

Goals don't have to be long range - they can be short-term plans and milestones. I'm setting mine so I can blow right through them and cultivate my toughness and confidence in my own abilities.

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BECCABOO127 8/12/2012 6:16PM

    Great blog-thanks for sharing!

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MSMOSTIMPROVED 8/12/2012 11:54AM

    It is when our legs are the heaviest that we have to rely on our mental strength to get through the next mile. Even if you slow down to a snails pace, don't stop running. It is all mental. You know you can do it because you've done it before.

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IMREITE 8/11/2012 2:23AM

    i give up to soon on my intense exercise. i will admit i do better when i take time either before or during my warm-up to decide to commit to staying at my intensity and listening to the difference between my body being in pain or just complaining.

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IDEA - Day 52: Is boredom an emotion?

Friday, August 10, 2012

Welcome to Friday of the week that will be forgotten!

Oh, yes, I deem this week completely forgotten even if the effects of my ankle injury linger on.

This morning I was happily greeted by a scale that read 207 - something that certainly made me feel better. In hindsight, I wonder if the aount of ibuprofen I was taking contributed to water retention. Still, it's just nice to know that the scale wasn't going to hit 209 or 210... at least not yet.

Work this week has been slow - I'm in a holding pattern right now as I'm assigned to what we call operations tasks - things that need to happen but aren't billable work. These include making training documents, writing case studies, and doing reading to stay abreast of industry trends and news. It's all well and good, but I'm a thinking woman - and that means I tend to get bored of this sort of thing quickly.

However - I was reminded of one of my early findings yesterday - I eat when I'm bored. It's like my brain is looking for something to do so it just concocts that I should be eating. Like a mindless zombie in search of brains I seek out anything - the candy bowl at the front of the office, a fiber one bar, I even took a trip to the damned vending machine yesterday. I hadn't seen the vending machine in eight weeks.

So, I have to ask, is boredom an emotion? I think of emotional eating and I conjure images of eating because you're sad, or because you're celebrating - not because it's your mental source of entertainment. What I need to do, though, is figure out ways to overcome boredom eating. I -knew- I was eating because I was bored. I even actively thought as much. I ate anyway.

Ugh, stupid lacking of discipline.

So, how do you guys all combat emotional eating? Bored eating?

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FATHINSN 8/13/2012 12:42AM

    Try not to let yourself too close with the tempting food during your boredom or high emotional time! It's ok if you can control your intake, just to relief craving or the urge but if you can't, like I say, avoid getting too near with your food or try to distract yourself, even if just drinking water :D

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GOODBYE-FRIENDS 8/10/2012 4:36PM

  OOOOHHHHH...I love this topic!!!

Eating is not just an acceptable activity, it is a mandatory activity, so the lines can blur very easily when one is looking for something to do. For example, while you are at work, you can't slip into a bathtub, or read a magazine, or play online games, or whatever keeps boredom at bay...but you CAN EAT. You have to eat to live so no one will say you are keeping busy instead of satiating hunger. And at work, what can you do if everything legitimately work related is in a holding pattern...I offer you

I chew the heck out of Dessert Gum...5 calories a stick, but I chew each piece for at least an hour which burns 11 calories. If you find you are eating out of boredom while NOT at work...then kick in all those "discipline" strategies! And always forgive yourself for eating, you are allowed to eat and should never make food a punishable offense. But do track everything even if you are overeating...and know that you are taking care of yourself the best way you know how in that moment.


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AWESOMEKATY 8/10/2012 10:18AM

    I ALWAYS want to snack when I'm bored or tired, and those two seem to be related too. When I'm feeling bored I have to try and find something to occupy my time but it's hard because I usually go to the TV when I'm bored but that's an easy place to mindlessly snack. So I've moved to exercising when I'm bored because you can't eat and run at the same time haha!

Also congrats on getting down to 207, it may be because YOU ARE TOTALLY AWESOME! Don't forget this part of Friday and keep that peppy spirit up!

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SKEETOR 8/10/2012 9:41AM

    I think boredom is an emotion....I, too, eat when bored. It seems eating is one of my mind's favorite topics to drift to when I am bored with what I am doing. I wish I had a sure cure but eating out of boredom is one of my problems.
I am trying to be more mindful when I eat (trying to make thinkingalways a part of eating) so I notice when I do grab something simply because I'm bored.

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    I have a problem with boredom eating...not so much emotional eating. I am a stay at home mom, so I have 24 hour access to my fridge. It can definitely be a challenge. I try to avoid the kitchen when I'm bored, but sometimes I will go look in the cabinets or fridge just to see what's in there. Then, I make myself think about whether or not I really want to "waste" the calories...and I shut the door and walk away.

It also helps me to always keep a water bottle near me. I tend to drink more if I see it sitting there, and I will reach for it instead of a snack when I am bored.

Exercise is also a good distraction. Maybe you could take a break and do some squats or wall pushups, or take a walk around the office. It has the added benefit of giving you a little boost of energy.

Good luck!

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IDEA - Day 51: Attitude Adjustment

Thursday, August 09, 2012

Listen, I had a really, really fricken awesome week last week. On average I consumed 1283 calories a day, 33 grams of fat, and worked out 44 minutes. I put a HELL of a lot of effort in.

And now my scale is spiting me.

208 pounds. I gleefully embraced my new number after a week long plateau - 206. Now, it's back to 208. 2-0-8.

I don't understand how this is possible. When I'm working out harder and eating better (in a balanced, measured way) than I have in my entire life.

Look at the bars on the chart! The bars show how awesome I am! It shows a woman who's pushing herself hard and deliberately toward a goal. IGNORE that stupid purple line - flat and on an upward incline. That line does not show how awesome I am.

I am not the line. I am not the scale. I am not my weight.

I am the woman who CAN run a 10 minute mile. I AM the woman who has more energy and more vitality. I am a woman with CONFIDENCE and with DETERMINATION.

It's all about perspective. I could let that line dictate the direction I'm going to go - up in weight and down in confidence; but, I won't. Nobody else should either. We are defined by the actions we take to make ourselves healthier; not by what a scale says.


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AWESOMEKATY 8/9/2012 11:08AM

    Donít go by the scale! Water weight, weighing at different times, gaining muscle, the list goes on and on for reasons why the scale could go up. Iím glad you know you did a completely awesome job and itís great that you recognize there is so much more than just a stupid number.

I donít have any more to say to pep you up because you seem completely and totally pepped already!! So instead Iím going to repeat your words back to you: ďIt's all about perspective. I could let that line dictate the direction I'm going to go - up in weight and down in confidence; but, I won't. Nobody else should either. We are defined by the actions we take to make ourselves healthier; not by what a scale says.Ē You are a very smart girl and if you keep thinking like that not even the scale could hold you back!

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