Friday, August 03, 2012
Welcome to Friday, everyone!
I started a blog yesterday about this week's topic at Fat Kids Club and I realized I have some issues to work through. I have a very easy time cheering people on and being supportive, especially in a forum like Spark People; but, at these meetings I have a very difficult time listening to people make excuses for why they can't exercise or why they can't eat right. We're given vast resources including a gym and a nutritionist and all of the support and plans that research has shown to make people successful. Yet, every week people make excuses.
I just don't understand.
So, I'm working through that issue, I'm trying to come to terms with why it bothers me so much. When I get there, I promise I'll blog more about it.
In other news today is the day I may have to go and buy some more pants. I spent most of my time this week trying to find something to wear that wouldn't fall down / expose my derierre in a unladylike fashion when I sat down. I still think that I might be between sizes, though. We'll see. This is going to be the first time in years that I've even considered trying on a size 16. Let's see what happens! It used to be a very daunting proposition - trying on the smaller size, knowing it probably wouldn't fit - now I just know that if it doesn't fit right now it probably will in a few weeks.
Wednesday, August 01, 2012
Progress, bathing suits, and a shout out to the Pep Party!
Warning - a very ramble-filled blog!
Wednesday, August 01, 2012
Good morning, Sparklers!
Today is the first day of August and I feel like a million bucks, you guys should, too! I've changed my Spark Login Name to something I find a bit more inspiring than SHLEWIS. You see, my little triumph last week was saying to myself "Quitter? I ain't quitting. Frack that noise." Well, I'm Fracking the Noise forever now, because there isn't any room for quit in my world. There's a difference between tired, lazy, and completely worn out and needing to stop - it's time I start paying attention to the differences.
The further along I get on my journey the more I realize that each day is a new one filled with promise and opportunity. I look at the progress I made last week on my runs and the challenges I'm having with eating right - and I realize that today and every day after is my opportunity to celebrate my victories and learn from each of my choices.
Yesterday I went paddling for TWO HOURS on the Allegheny river. I have no idea how far we went, but it was an AMAZING trip. If you live in the Pittsburgh area and have not tried Kayak Pittsburgh yet, I strongly recommend that you do. The city looked beautiful, we only got slightly rained on, and the temperature was perfect. Talk about an AMAZING trip!
I didn't get my run in yesterday afternoon as planned because work here in the office exploded. It's alright, I'm not sure I would have paddled as well as I had if I'd already run!
So, today is run day (Usually I take Wednesdays off), and I'm looking forward to kicking C25K's ass!
In other news my scale is refusing to move, I've been at 208 now for about a week straight. Not up. Not down. Just a flat 208. I've tried recallibrating my scale, moving it... everything. No dice. Someone needs to talk to my scale and remind it of just how flipping awesome I am!
Tonight is my makeup meeting of the Fat Kids Club, I had to miss last night for the Kayak expedition. Here's hoping I learn something amazing!
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Well, last night I did something I've formerly been too shy to do - I actually put photos of my bare middle on the internet. It's funny, what inspired me was the scene as I was getting ready for my run yesterday. I wear dry-fit spandex gear to run in. I like the way it fits, I like that it wicks the sweat away. As nice as it is to see the results of my work on a t-shirt in the form of nice, big sweat patches, on particularly hot days I like for the sweat to not sit so close to the skin.
Anyway, I'm standing in the locker room last night and looking at myself. I notice how my top fits and I see that beneath my boobs is something else - indentations. To me, for a second, they looked like the start of my future abs. They looked like those nice, strong muscles hiding out under the layer of fat I've cultivated for 15 years. I look closer, I can see that my ribs are working at coming back. I notice that what used to be a solid blob of fat is now becoming something else - it's being consumed.
And I love it.
So, that's why at like 11PM I had to post those photos. I just HAD to.
I'm feeling so up right now it's like I could run my 5K tomorrow! Last night was week 5 day 1. I was scared. Three five minute runs? Really?
And I rocked it.
And I'm going to rock it again today.
There's my good friend the chart. The chart gives me feedback and I love it. What do I see there? I'm working my ass off and I'm not doing something exactly the same as I was to start with. That's right, my calorie intake has racheted up. Well, it's time to start paying more attention. Time to remember 1500 is not the goal, 1200 is.
In other news I've decided that it's time to re-frame one of my goals and rewards. I've mentioned in a previous post that I am going to DragonCon in September and my reward for losing 30 pounds is to get a photo with John Barrowman from Doctor Who and Torchwood. Well, It's looking like 30 isn't going to happen. I'm sitting firmly at 208 and have been for about a week or so now - that means I'd have to lose eight pounds in four and a half weeks. If it happens, great; but, I think 25 pounds is reason enough to celebrate with this once in a lifetime opportunity. So, I've got three more pounds between me and John Barrowman.
That's it for today - keep on Sparkin' on!
Monday, July 30, 2012
Well, I decided I wanted to do something insane. I wanted to show the world my middle. My stomach, abdomen, or paunch has been covered for as long as I've been an adult.
Well, I'm not hiding it anymore. Sure, those little ripples might not be the beginning of ab muscles as I pretend they are - but, you know what? They're not rolls. They're not a solid blob. They're progress and I'm proud. I got this. I ain't quitting. Just you wait and see.
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