Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Ok, today has been interesting so far. Mainly for one reason. I know someone mentioned that I might have an anxiety disorder or something when I blogged about being too nervous to go into a dance alone. Well, last week I found a study online for social anxiety disorder and I sent them an email. I haven't been put in the study yet, but they did call me and they want me to go in and meet them and have an assessment. I'm totally nervous, and I'm sure they're expecting that. I knew about my SAD but I haven't been doing anything about it except the martial arts and dance lessons, which I still don't know how I got myself to actually go in, but there are still so many things I can't do, especially in my classes.
She asked me a number of questions over the phone about it and because of the types of questions she was asking I'm now in worry mode. It just got me thinking about the things I get anxious about and now I can't distract myself. Like tonight I'm gonna try and get over my fear in hapkido and let someone throw me, though that's not exactly a social situation, it is something that makes me nervous. Also, the dance tomorrow, and I'm seeing an osteopath for the first time on friday so I'm nervous about that. I don't know him or what he's going to do. What I do know is he might be able to help with my migraines. Hopefully martial arts tonight can distract me enough that I'll only be nervous about one thing, the throwing.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
I'm never very good with titles for my blogs, so instead I'm just gonna use the day's date. Boring I know, but it doesn't matter ^_^
Anyway, today was quite a day. I hurt my back last week, doing too much at hapkido, but today it was a little better. I've also been using one of those menthol gels cus advil did nothing yesterday. It does seem to help, I also made an appointment for a massage tomorrow, I'd be more excitd if it wasn't because of pain, hopefully it'll help.
I had a dance lesson today and my teacher said I did very well with the waltz, again. Last time too, it's because it's my favorite dance now, since learning some new moves. It just feels better now when I dance it.
Unfortunately, after my lesson, I went out to my car to go home and I had to scrape the ice off my windshield cus it had snowed during my lesson. So I started my car to warm it up and got out to scrape my window. Well, the idiot that I obviously am, I locked my keys in my car. While it was running. I had to go back in and call for a tow truck then wait for an hour, with my car running, for them to come and unlock it. I hate leaving my car running for any amount of time, never mind an hour.
I'm finally home now, with my back all cold from the menthol gel, tired as hell from my dance lesson, good tired though, and I'm about to eat dinner and go to bed. So my day had some good things and some not so good things. But at least I have the xmas dance party to look forward to on thursday. I'm really excited about it ^_^
Hope you all have a nice week!!!
Monday, December 14, 2009
I had a pretty good week overall. I made it to hapkido both days, I had 2 dance lessons this week, I even had a day off work yesterday. My lesson on Friday went really well. I learned a couple new steps in the Waltz and my instructor said I did well with them. They made it more interesting because we no longer stay in one place with the basic box, we travel and spin and it's a little more like you would see on tv or with professionals, but only a little ^_^. I had a lot of fun with it.
Last night I went to a dance not at my dance studio. It was a xmas thing and I actually went in. Unfortunately, it was a little depressing that no one asked me to dance. I probably would have too. I'm looking forward to this week's practice party at my dance studio, it's also a xmas party.
I'm not looking forward to hapkido tonight as my back has been bothering me lately. I'm seeing my chiropractor tonight before I go though, hopefully he can fix me ^_^ I don't remember doing anything though, that would cause the pain. I'd like to be able to go tonight because we're doing throws and I haven't had the guts to let someone throw me yet, and I need to for my test at the end of January, assuming I'm ready.
Work was good last week, not too stressful, I was actually training someone else for when I leave for school in January.
Yesterday I went shopping for new pants because all of mine are too big. I didn't find any, but I did find a really nice shirt. Anyway, I'm gonna go have lunch now so I hope everyone has a nice week!!!
Monday, December 07, 2009
Today I did ok with my eating, not great. I went a little over with the calories, but only a little, and I tihkn I made up for it at hapkido. I really didn't feel like going today, I'm proud of myself that I did go. Today I noticed that I was able to do more pushups than usual too ^_^ On my knees of course, but it made me happy, also I can touch my toes now. I was close before but never quite there, I am now.
We did a lot at hapkido today, we did lots of pushups, burpies, crunches, jumping jacks, leg lifts etc. Then we did kicking drills and we did all the techniques up to blue belt. The last one we did, a spinning hook kick, I don't remember the korean term, was really difficult. It was my first time doing it, I'm only yellow. Apparently I wasn't putting my head low enough when turning and I know I wasn't turning my head around fast enough to look at my target. I missed a lot lol, but it was great fun and a good workout. On wednesday, we're going to continue with the kicking techniques where we left off, in the middle of blue.
Tomorrow I'm looking forward to my dance lesson ^_^ I just hope my legs are doing ok tomorrow. I find since I've become so active I'm getting a lot of muscle cramps in my calves and strectching doesn't seem to prevent them.
Well anyway, have a nice week everyone!
Saturday, December 05, 2009
I blogged once before about a dance I tried to go to but was too nervous to go in. Well, I did the same dam thing tonight. I got all dressed up and did my hair and stuff, and then I went and sat in the parking lot for a half hour and left. I don't know why I can't just go in. I know I'm shy, but I want so much to go at least once and see if I like it or not. I go to the parties at Fred Astaire, but I know people there. Even the first time I went, I knew the instructors would be there. I'm disappointed I wasn't able to go in for a second time. I hope I will be able to go and enjoy myself dancing, even if I don't know anyone, soon. I just want to practice because other than my lessons and the occasional practice party at the studio, I don't dance at all.
I hope you all have a better night than I did.
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