Friday, December 04, 2009
Ok, well things are definitely going better. I've lost five pounds in the last week so hopefully on wednesday I'll have agood weight loss for my BLC team. I just gotta not mess up this weekend when I'm baking cookies with my Mom ^_^ Also, I went to have my eyes checked yesterday because I thought that my tiredness and headaches were caused by eye strain. Well I was right, but it's not because I need new glasses, it's because I work on a computer most of the day. He said to sit farther away from the computer so hopefully I won't be so tired anymore. We'll see, it doesn't seem so bad today so maybe it is helping.
I went to a practice party last night at Fred Astaire. It was fun, but they still failed to get me up for the circle dance. It's where everyone just gets 4 different random partners and teach a new dance move, but because I'm very shy and self consious and don't like touching still, I don't like to do the things they normally teach. Two of my instructors partnered with me a couple times, and one of the things I didn't mind doing, it was the grape vine in the foxtrot, but the other was the oblique line in the rumba so I didn't want to do it. If you know what those are great, if not, I don't really know how to explain in words lol. I'm getting to know a few people there though. A couple people always say hi to me and I sit with them sometimes, not exactly friends but friendly people who may one day become friends. It's a start ^_^
I'm going to a dance lesson tonight as well, Marko says we need to work on sharpness. In the Tango I'm not very good at that, and he danced a Tango with me last night. I think I'm improving though, I find the Tango one of the harder dances to do. I think I'm picking up the ChaCha very well and it's my favourite right now, though that may change.
Anyway, I think this blog is long enough ^_^ Hope everyone has a nice weekend!!!
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Wow this really sucks. Yesterday I was so positive and motivated. But today hasn't been going so well. It's been stressful at work. Now I'm at home with no one to talk to. I'm generally a shy person so I have no friends, though I am getting better, I definitely don't have a boyfriend. I've never actually had a real relationship ith someone. I would love to but I'm too shy, and when I really think about it I don't see why anyone would want to date me. That's sad I know, I have terrible self esteem, I'm working on it. I just want someone to be there when I have a bad day, someone I can talk to about anything, someone who genuinely cares about me, not just because I was born into the same family. I want to feel special and loved. And I want to feel safe and protected. I'd rather be the damsel in distress who gets saved by the knight in shining armor, as opposed to the driven career woman who needs no one. I just feel like that'll never happen for me because if I don't even love myself, who out there could possibly love me.
Like I said it's been a bad day, sorry for being so negative but it helps sometimes to talk about it or write about it.
I hope everyone has a good week.
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
I have been on SP for just over a month and am disappointed with my progress. I have only lost 5 lbs. I know I could have done much better. I hope to stick to the menu plan a lot more this month with xmas coming up. I plan to do more exercise, 4 or 5 days a week for 60 mins. I have already taken steps to make it easier to stick to it. I have been overly tired for a few weeks now and I think it may be eye strain from my glasses, I made an appointment to get it checked out. I also saw a massage therapist for my stiff neck and headaches, which I believe are from the glasses too. It was my first professional massage and it was awesome, though I am a little sore today. She said that my shoulder and neck muscles were very tight. I will continue going for at least the next month as I do have all of my insurance coverage that I can use before the new year. I will be doing Hapkido on Mondays and Wednesdays, Ballroom dancing on Tuesday and/or Friday, and I will be doing a Zumba class or Yoga on Thursdays and Saturdays when I don't work. Hopefully I'll stick to my plan and make more progress this month, as I know xmas is going to be hard, I will be limiting but not avoiding any of the usual xmas food and treats. I know I can do well enough the rest of the month that I won't need to avoid all the treats. Hopefully I will help my BLC7 team much more this month as well.
Hope you all have a wonderful week ^_^
Monday, November 30, 2009
I am a little stressed about school right now. I'm having serious doubts about my program. I'm in Civil Engineering Technology and I don't know if I can do it or if I want to do it anymore. I'm finished the first 2 years and I'm currently on my first work term. I've been having doubts all term and some of last year. I've been thinking maybe I'd like to be a nutrionist. I know I'd have to lose a lot of my weight before people would take advice from me or where I would be at the point feeling comfortable giving advice. I've always been interested in nutrition. I think taking the program would reallt help me as well. I know that one day I will take the program. What I'm stressing about is whether or not to drop out of engineering now to do it, or to wait and see if I can get my diploma and work while I'm taking it. I know I've only got a year left, but the program I'm looking at is only 1 year full time or 2 part time. So, it's either upset my parents and go for it now and be done in a year, or don't upset my parents, try to finish, and maybe be done in 3 years or more.
It's a huge decision and if I decide to take the nutrition I know my parents will be angry. They're paying after all, and my dad is an engineer and he was so happy when I told him I was gonna take engineering. I don't know if I can handle the course for another year though, I don't know if I can graduate, if I can do the work. So basically, I'm stressed out because I don't know what to do, and I need to decide soon because I'm starting back in school in January.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Last night was great. I went to the Fred Astaire Canadian National Dance Championships and it was great. It was only the awards ball, not the actual competition, but it was great. We got to do some dancing, and watch all the champions dance, and we got to see Eric Luna and Georgia Ambarian dance a few times. They were awesome, I swear she spent most of the time in the air ^_^ It was very exciting and I'm glad I got the chance to go. I was nervous about going because no one was going with me, but it wasn't too bad because I knew my instructors would be there. I had fun dancing too. I was there until midnight and then it took me an hour to get home. I was tired, but I didn't have to work today so I got to sleep in. Basically, it was a very long and very fun night ^_^ What's weird about that is that I never go out to parties or stay out late and I actually had fun. Some people even asked me to sit with them, the ones I've danced with at the practice parties. They were very nice, I was suprised though, I didn't expect anyone to care that I was alone. It was kinda nice.
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