Monday, November 23, 2009
I wanted to say thank you to everyone. You've all been so kind and supportive. I've had a rough few days, and still not feeling so positive today, but I did eat better today, I stayed within my calorie range. I've found that hard to do the last few days. I'm hoping I can stay on track a bit longer this time.
Tomorrow should be good, I went shopping today so I'm well stocked on healthy foods, and I have a dance lesson tomorrow too. I wonder what my instructor will say when I tell him about going to the party but not getting out of my car lol.
I'd also like to apologize to my BLC7 team as I think I'm gonna have a gain this week. Hopefully, if I'm really good tomorrow it won't be too much, no junk food for sure.
It's a little frustrating right now, every time I start to go down, I just go up again. I keep fluctuating in the same 10 pound range. I've been doing it for at least 6 months now. Hopefully SP and all you guys can help me get unstuck.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
I had a good day on Thursday because I had to go to next hole on my belt. It was great, for a day. Unfortunately on Friday things started going downhill. I'm stressed about money, and everything, I've been eating badly and I've just been feeling kinda crappy. I quit the gym I was previously going to as I was never going anymore, and my mom's been paying. I've been thinking about joining another one that has a pool but I don't know if I can afford it or if I'll go enough to make it worth the membership. On the plus side, my Mom has agreed to help a bit with paying for dance lessons, she doesn't know how much I'm actually paying though. I'm not making enough from my co-op so when I go back to school I'm gonna be in trouble, whether I join this gym or not. I know I've gained already this week so I need to somehow get the motivation and the willpower again to get back on track. Everything I do is just making things worse for me, I am doing some emotional eating. I don't know why but it seems like every time I do well for a bit it just goes the opposite direction pretty quickly, and when things don't go well they just go ok, it doesn't. I don't understand why when good things happen, I start to feel bad.
I tried to go dancing last night, to this place I've never been before, they have dances every weekend. It's mostly 50+ so that kinda sucks but I was gonna go anyway cus I like dancing. I sat in the parking lot for about an hour and then left. I never even got out of my car, I was too nervous. I was hoping that dancing might cheer me up since I always have fun, but it won't work unless I have the guts to go in and meet new people.
I don't know what to do at this point.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Yay, I'm very happy today ^_^ Even though I haven't lost that much weight yet, a total of 9 lbs since I started SP, I had to use the next hole on my belt today. I guess I'm making more progress than I thought. Maybe with the martial arts and dancing I've gained some muscle too, so maybe I've lost more than I realise. Whatever it is, it's definitely a good motivator to keep going. I think SP is really gonna work for me.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
I'm kinda stressing over money right now. I'm ok for now but I'm worried about when I go back to school in Jan. Only as I'm paying for the ballroom dancing and everything myself. It's $300 per month right now and that's asfter they lowered it for me. I also pay for the martial arts classes and stuff. I'm thinking about trying to be an Avon rep for a little money on the side. I already know my Mom will buy Avon from me if I do it. I'm just not sure what's all involved so I asked them to send me some info on it. Some people online say it's good, some say not so much. So I'm gonna think about it, but I hope it'll be worth it so I can make a little extra money while I'm in school.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Ok so last night I sorta slipped up and ordered pizza and garlic bread. So I did have a gain this morning, but overall for the week I'm still down and I'm gonna be super good today for my weigh-in in the morning. Hopefully I'll be down a little bit more for BLC7.
My teacher came to my work today to talk to my supervisor, cus this is my co-op right. I was nervous while they were talking, but then she came and talked to me and said my supervisor said all good things ^_^ I was very relieved. I do make mistakes once in awhile though, so I need to work on checking over my work better, so I don't miss any mistakes that I need to fix.
This week is gonna suck at work, I had a migraine yesterday, and I'm already getting another one today. In the area where my desk is, there's this really strong smell, like cleaning products or something, and it's giving me migraines. It doesn't seem to be going away either. I don't know what to do about it other than take meds, which I don't like to do unless absolutely necessary. I guess this week it'll be necessary, cus I can't exactly work from home.
I hope today's migraine doesn't get too bad as I have a dance lesson tonight which I don't want to miss. I'm getting impatient about next week's lesson though, it's at a new studio and I'm very excited. I don't want to wait til next week. It's with the new, better instructor. I should totally call and rebook for this week, if anything's still available anyway.
Anyway, I should get back to work, my lunch is almost over, have a nice week everyone!!!
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