Thursday, May 06, 2010
So I set those new rewards for myself so that I would hopefully get back on track and losing again. Yesterday was my first day after choosing the rewards and I did mess up at lunch. Not too bad though. Then last night, I decided what I would eat today and this morning I tracked it all. The idea is that its in there now I have to eat what I planned. Then also, I'm still under my minimum by 240 cals so I can have an extra snack or have a little more at dinner or something if I want to. So far though I'm doing really well and sticking to it for today.
I'm going dancing tonight too, they have a practice party at my dance studio so I'll have a lot of fun and hopefully do a lot of dancing. I may even try asking someone to dance tonight. I've never asked anyone before, I wait until they ask me, but I want to ask someone eventually. I've been trying to for a while now but I'm too shy lol. Also if I asked someone, then I could be up on the floor more and getting even more exercise and having more fun ^_^
I posted a pic of me at the competition on the weekend. It's pretty blurry, I need a new camera, one of my rewards ^_^ Then I also posted a few short video clips of my friends dancing during the competition. But I didn't get any videos of me because videos weren't actually allowed. If I had got caught they could've taken away camera lol. I'll be getting some better pics soon.
I plan on starting a scrap book too. Of my progress and successes and drawbacks, just of my whole journey to a healthier me ^_^ So when I get my new camera I will be able to put some good pics in it. I picked one out already, it's $250 and it's a really good one. It has some functions I'm gonna need to play around with and have some fun with. I'm fairly new to cameras, mine I've had for a few years and I got it because it was cheap. But I've been doing some reading online and I think this one will be really good and I'll have it for a long time. I actually want to start taking more pics because right now I have no pics in my house. Just what's in my photo album and those stop when I'm around 12. I want reminders of my past, especially of friends and family and things that are important to me.
So with the new camera in mind, and the dance shoes I'll get before the camera, I am trying really hard to eat healthy and stick to my plans. I want the rewards sooner rather than later lol. This way I'm actually thinking in smaller steps as opposed to the 130 pounds that is my goal right now. Normally I find it hard because I have so much to lose. I think why bother I'll just fail anyway. But right now, I actually feel like I could do this, like I can lose the 30 pounds to get my camera. I think it's because I picked rewards that will really mean something to me, I love dancing and I'm excited about the camera ^_^
Ok enough about the camera lol. My mom got her test results back from the stroke clinic. Her family doctor said she was having mini strokes, and lots of them. Apparently it's not, the spots on her MRI were from all the migraines she's had throughout her life. And sometimes her vision would black out for a second, and apparently that's just aura without the migraine because she's not really getting them anymore. So this is good ^_^ I don't have to worry so much about her now.
Oh, this saturday I'm grading for my green stripe. I'm kinda nervous about it, though when I test for full green in 3 months it'll be much worse lol. I plan on doing another routine soon at the dance parties. I know my last one never happened because my instructor left, but I'll do one with an instructor from the other studio. My instructor Marko, I found out recently he only left for the summer and he'll be back in september so that's good. I like dancing with him, he's fun ^_^
Ok, that's really enough rambling from me for today lol. Have a great weekend!!