Wednesday, January 04, 2012
Well, the last time I blogged here I said I was ready to reach my goal. Well, instead of reaching my goal, I maintained my weight loss all of 2011. I did this because I was not used to my body. Now can you believe that? I would look in the mirror and say, 'that mirror can't be right...it makes me look so small.' So I looked down at the tiles reflecting in the mirror and, guess what, they were NOT smaller than they really were. I was actually looking at my very 'acurate' reflection and I didn't recognize myself.
So now that I have maintained and am used to my new body, I'm ready to go to the next stage - GOAL! I'm ready now to see how goal feels.
I wish all of you here much success. This is a doable thing we're doing here. And with all the support we gather from each other here, we're bound for success.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
I'm so excited and psyched. I have finally gotten back to where I was 4 years ago and I'm ready to get to goal.
I didn't want to join WW with my daughter. I didn't think I was ready. I had been struggling with eating right and didn't want the commitment. However, I DID want to support her. So I joined. My first week I lost 11 pounds! Wow I hadn't lost that much since the first time I did the program. And at that time, I was 345 pounds. This time, like the first time, I caught the excitement of eating right and losing weight.
Five weeks later, I have lost a total of 17 pounds! I also have incredible energy and drive. I love eating right and cooking again. If I fast food, it's Subway or I look at the menu before I leave so I can plan what I'll order when I get there. I cannot stress how important it is for me to log my food. It keeps me aware of how much I've really eaten or need to eat. Yes, I said NEED to eat. I find that I don't use all my points some days. But since I have had a couple of days where I've gone over my points...not over the total weekly plus exercise points...it all works out in the week. I feel I must be right because I've had a steady 1- to 2-pound loss each week.
I'm a so looking forward to getting out of the 200's. Then down to my goal. I've never been to goal. So it will be a new experience for me. But one I look forward to.
So I'm continuing with the little goals of getting into the next 10s (240, 230, etc) until I'm out of the 200s. That is my first big goal and I think I'll celebrate it with a little shopping spree. A lady has to have a new wardrobe.
So my Spark friends, thank you for being with me on this journey and sharing yours with me. I'll try to post a before and after picture soon. It's really nice to compare.
Keep on Sparking. This is an attainable goal.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
I'm not sure this is a good thing I've discovered about myself....but here goes:
I'm a food hoarder. I've been somewhat aware of this for a time, but it really sunk in today as I visited an office of a co-worker that I know always has chocolate on her desk. I was feeling the stress of the job and had been fighting emotional urges to eat.
As I picked out 3 miniature chocolate candies to add to my collection I knew I wasn't going to eat them. All I wanted was to "own" them. I have a medium size candy jar that I keep in my office in the credenza so that it is out of sight. I just add to it periodically. However, I know that it is there. It just kind of makes me feel good to know that I have chocolate and I could eat it if I want to.
When I was a child, I was not given the same portions as my brothers because I was overweight. I think this is where I picked up the habit of hoarding my food. I only hoard foods that are sweet...cereals, cookies, candy, ice cream. I used to get mad when my children would get into whatever it was that I bought because about the time that I was ready for it (or craving it) it would be all gone. So, we made a rule at my house that they are to wait until I open it and then it is fair game. Sometimes, if they ask for it before I've had my portion, I will just let them have it because I'm not in the mood for it. Other times, I still need to have it there in case I DO want some.
As I've analyzed my behavior in this situation, I've come to the conclusion that the food I "hoard" is a security blanket. It is my way of knowing that I CAN have it if I WANT it. It just makes me feel good to know that that jar of chocolate is there if I really really want one...or two (I only collect the small candies).
So, in conclusion, I'm not sure that this is such a bad thing. I mean, if I'm not eating the food, I'm only storing it, what harm can it do? I keep it out of sight because I do succumb to the visual temptation sometimes and only eat what I really want and watch my portions. This is a way for me to "control" what I eat. Makes me feel that I'm in total control. Only I can tell myself "No."
Are there others that share this same "security blanket" with me? Or am I a weird one?
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