Friday, March 14, 2014
The temperature was over 50 degrees today. It was very windy, but still sweater weather.
Went to the Credit Union, Dr Mike for an adjustment and then on the Laurel for a great massage.
Dr Mike and Laurel do all of the work, but I am always exhausted after! LOL
Feel pretty good though.
Will be seeing my surgeon on Monday for a check up. Think he will be pleased with how well I am doing. We will see.
I hear we are to have another snowstorm on Sunday. Have not even looked at the weather, don't want to know. Hope I can get out tomorrow, then I won't mind as much if I have to stay home on Sunday.
Craziest winter ever.
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Well, that is over. There is still a lot of snow on the ground, but the wind is not blowing hard, and it is not snowing today.
The kids did not have school again today, they will be going to school into July if this keeps up. Ellee and Gracee went to be with Max and Brie at their house today. The girls did not want me to have to get up and drive early this morning before the roads were clear.
Wish I had though. Was so very bored on my second day just hanging in the house.
Finally got up, got dressed and took my Nook to the park to read in the car for a couple of hours. Will be so glad when It is warm enough for me to go to the park and walk a bit, then sit a bit in the sun and read. I know it is coming, I have to be positive.
Tomorrow it is supposed to be warmer. Maybe I will go to the park and read with the windows open! Have an appointment to have an adjustment with my Chiropractor, then a massage appointment after.
I know I will feel better after all of that.
I just read a post from a young girl that I could have written myself. I am so glad that she is beginning this journey at a younger age so that her self esteem can be rebuilt more easily, and she can have better health for doing it young.
She encouraged me to get back to talking to myself in a more positive way. I have been working on it again, but a reminder can always help.
Looking forward to tomorrow.
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
I enjoyed today. It was warm and mild without a lot of wind. Picked Gracee up from school, and we waited outside for Brielle to get off of the bus.
Then they both got their homework done, and we spent an hour or so outside again. It began to get chilly, I was sitting in my car, so the girls got into the car as well. They said, "it is warm and comfy in here". Such a couple of cuties.
We told some stories in the car, and then went in the house and they did their cheer and dance moves to entertain me.
Went to the grocery store before getting them, because, as usual, whenever there is a storm predicted, I was out of bread, milk and bananas.
I am set now to be snowed in, once again. This really has been an unbelievable winter all over.
Sent a not to my friend in Florida, and told her I was leaving right now to come down, to send me directions. LOL Wish it were the truth.
I am feeling better about myself, and that is really what I need to be working on in spite of the weather or anything else.
Just watched THE VOICE from last night, and will watch tonight's sometime tomorrow. I really enjoy that show.
I love music and dancing. My other favorite show is "So you think you can dance". Can't wait for that to begin. I think it is in a month or so.
It will be nice, when what is on television is not so important to me because I will be able to spend time outside.
It will come.
Monday, March 10, 2014
Thanks to Sunny and Chula for your comments and support on my Saturday's blog.
Had a lovely day yesterday. Was with Amy and Natalie, and Natalie's matron of honor, Lisa, to try on dresses for the wedding. We had a great time. No dress for me, but still good to be with the girls.
Amy and I took a drive by the river again. So much frozen and broken ice blocks pushed to the side of the river, and ice all over the river itself. There are places where the current is strong and the water still flowing. It is going to be a real mess of flooding when it melts. Too bad.
Then Amy and I met Zach, her son for dinner. So saw all of the family yesterday! Good day.
Tonight I am exhausted, sleep very little last night.
Hoping to sleep well tonight and feel better tomorrow.
Saturday, March 08, 2014
Tired today. Actually, I was tired yesterday as well.
Had the kids for extra hours this week, Tues, Weds and Thurs, and it kind of wears me out.
I have to remember that since the Dr and PT's have all told me that my knees won't be totally healed for an entire year, that means my body is still healing. For me, it is too easy to expect too much of myself.
I realize that I feel guilty for all of the days that I have not accomplished anything. It is difficult for me to give myself a break, even when healing from two major surgeries, total knee replacements, within the last 7 months.
When I think of it, I really was not in good shape for quite a while before that because of the pain in my knees, and from healing from a major back surgery 2 1/2 years ago.
I am always the one telling other people to give themselves a break, don't be so hard on yourself, treat yourself like a beloved friend or family member, etc.
When I really consider how I am, I realize that I am one of the worst offenders of being hard on me.
No one else expects me to be running races, or accomplishing something every day. But, I do.
No one else expects me to eat perfectly, and then punishes me with food because I do not.
But I do.
I am so totally my own worst enemy. I would not treat someone I loved the way I treat me.
I have know this for years, but with all of the physical issues, and gaining and losing weight over the last few years, I have become very overwhelmed, and am forgetting to practice that lesson.
I make me feel terrible about me.
Right now, I feel badly because I have done nothing but sit around today. Why am I so hard on myself? I guess it is all of the "lessons" I have learned over my lifetime, about how I don't measure up.
Those insidious thoughts are never far from my conscious mind. There, in the back of my head, where I don't really acknowledge them, but where they make me feel terrible about myself.
I do know, from the years on Spark People before all of my chronic physical issues became acute, that I MUST work on bringing that kind of thinking out into the light of day, and recognize that it is just all lies.
Lately, I think I have just been blaming myself for not always eating the best, and not recognizing that I do deserve better.
I need to remind myself of this on a daily basis, really if truth be told, all day long!
Going to try to get my head right, because I know from my past success on Spark People, that is the only way to help myself on every level.
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