Tuesday, April 23, 2013
my neighbor gave us one of those concentrated savory stocks or whatever they are that you are supposed to put on your food for flavor? I just happened to read the label and I about fell down. In one little tiny pack about the size of a dip at Mcdonalds, had 10,640 mg sodium. 14 servings per packet with 760 mg sodium per serving. That is unbelievable to me. to me that was just crazy. i threw it away. i can add my own flavor without the salt thank you.
Thursday, March 21, 2013
the last two weeks have been trying for me. I have been eating a lot less, eating healthier options, exercising more including starting a zumba class. But what started it was my hubby pretty much telling me I was weak and could not do this. Even though at one point years ago, I managed to lose over 60 lbs, he is right. I have been weak. I have been not taking care of myself, eating too much, gained some weight, my confidence is in the gutter. When he said something about it, I got mad at him. but really I was mad at myself. He was pretty much saying what I felt about myself, but it came out of his mouth. He loves me no matter what size. But, he is happier when I'm happy. When I"m confident and feel good about myself and that hasn't happened in a long time.
But, then there are those that are in my zumba class. I started Monday and my neighbor and her mom came. The instructor is a little bitty thing, so is her mother, my neighbor and her mother. So it felt like i was the elephant in the room. And my neighbor told me that she didn't think I was going to make it through which I did. But, the instructor told me last night that I had done really well, almost like she was surprised that I had done it as well. I exercise almost everday. It may not be helping me lose weight, but it has helped my stamina and health. The bad thing is, I judge myself more than any of these people can. And I need to stop judging myself and just do it. Just stay on track and lose this weight.
I have lsot 8lbs in the last two weeks. I'm hoping for 20 lbs in the next 3. My hubby asked me what happens after that? I said, I don't know but I will reevaluate after that. Look I'm going to be 40. I'm not looking to be super thin, or even thin. I have never been thin. I know that realistically, I will end up about 190 and stay there. I know that is still considered overweight obese in some eyes, but at the same time, my body tends to hold there and I have my confidence at this point. If I lose more than that, great, but I'm more worried about maintaining and keeping it off. I don't want to lose such a drastic amount and then know that I will not be able to keep it off.
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
I haven't been very active. I've gained some weight and I haven't been taking very good care of myself. My 10 year old is a little bit overweight, the doctor told me that my 5 year old had a little too much around her middle and my husband is overweight. In any event, my 10 year old and I watched this latest season of Biggest Loser. As I sat and watched it instead of being motivated to do exercises while watching it, during the finale, my daughter asked me why don't we do a biggest loser in our family. She wanted her friend to do it with her. So, yesterday was day 1. We weighed in and whoever loses the most % of weight in 3 months will get $50. I actually had gotten motivated two weeks ago, when i got on the scale and i had gained 13lbs since last summer. I wasn't shocked. Just sad. So, I vamped up my exercise, cut back on the eating, starting making substitutions and made small changes. I lost 8lbs in the last 2 weeks. I cannot seem to give up my pop in the morning, so I switched to decaffeinated diet pepsi for now, until i can get past the withdrawals.
once I get through withdrawals, I'm sure it will be a lot easier to get rid of that habit. I have a stationary bike, I have Biggest loser on the wii and I also joined a zumba class with a few of my neighbors. $20 for 5 classes. It is 2x a week. So, every 3 weeks I have to come up with $20, but for me it seems worth it. the gym really isn't a good option, the only ones around here are way out of my price range. This class is close and i have others to take it with me.
my goal is to lose 20 lbs in the 3 months. That would be 10% of my body weight. Hubby has already started to revolt. I told him that is his choice, I"m committed. My daughter is also. We actually looked at labels last night, measured out servings and she was taken aback at how small some serving sizes were. I'm proud that it was her idea to lose some weight. I've been preaching getting healthier, being more active, but she told me that she has gained some weight over the winter and that she wanted to get rid of it. She says " I know people gain a few pounds over the winter because they are less active." Luckily the school challenged the children to a healthy eating week so she is gung ho on eating healthier.
in any event, keeping my fingers crossed that I will make my goal and be able to fit into so many of the clothes that I have.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
I am struggling. I didn't work out much last week. Not that I wasn't motivated or didn't want to, but for a few days I had some sort of stomach virus that had me in a lot of pain and very very tired with no energy. never had a fever, but was not able to work out. I did try to eat less just to counteract it. I started again on track this week so far. zumba and strength training. feel good about it. I'm still struggling with the tragedy that happened in Newtown CT. I have a 10 year old and a 4 year old in elementary school. this hit home so hard for me. I had to have a conversation with my 10 year old about what happened. She took it well and we discussed how she felt. She was sad, but realized that this wasn't her school so I think it is kind of over for her. I still get tears when I read something about it. Last night my show I watch "The Voice" they all sang the Alleluia (sp) song. They each held up cards of the names and ages of those that were killed. I was crying so hard. My 4 year old asks me why are there so many sixes on the cards and asked me why I was so upset. I hadn't planned on telling her any of this, but I simply told her that a very bad man did a very bad thing by killing some kids and their teacher's. She took it pretty well. I told her that is why we have rules at home and at school and she needs to listen to her teacher. Especially if there is an emergency. At least she didn't get scared. I told her that it was my job to keep her as safe as I could.
In any event, I'm torn up about it. It is so sad. I know that there have been many other tragedies especially this year and it makes me sad, how much loss and destruction there has been this year. in the last 30 years that have been 63 mass murders in the United States 8 this year. That doesn't include the horrible huge storms that we have had in the last 10 years. It is so sad. I don't feel safe anywhere anymore. I have to protect my family, but how do you do that in a world that feels like it is falling apart. I don't know the answers. I think that there needs to be more education on mental health, guns and bullying. I think that there needs to be less access to violent video games, violent movies, etc. When you have children that are only seeing the violence in games, movies and tv, they become desensitized to it. They don't see the wrong in it. If children are bullied for so many years, eventually they turn that anger on themselves or others. If someone is mentally ill and doesn't get any help, what happens to them?
I know my kids school has a group come in a puppet show that speaks about bullying and sexual abuse. Just two things that are rampant. I'm glad the school is opening their doors to this. the kids and parents alike need to be educated. when parents are stuck working and dont' have a lot of time to spend with their kids, what happens to them? I see it all the time in my apt. complex. kids run around after school, no parents around and they do whatever they want. They vandalize, cuss, bully, etc. I've had to stick up to some of them when two little boys 6 maybe threatened to punch my 4 year old daughter. I went to them, and went to the office. the office eventually evicted the family becuase the mother just let these boys out and do whatever they wanted and never supervised them. it saddens me that i see so many kids running around without supervision. my building is different, we all look out for each others kids and we have no problem reprimanding them when they are doing something wrong.
anyway, sorry about the rant, i had to get it out.
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